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HEYY YO..
so, i definitely felt better than last nite..
but still got a lil bit of here and there..
anyways, thnks for your concern to those who read my previous post aite.. really appreciate it.. =]
hmm.. my last post sounds kinda emo huh..?
didnt realize it when i trashed those words out the last time.. but oh wells..
glad to let out what i feel at that point of time.. =]
Since I told some ppl that I'm gonna post a happier post today.. I will then..=]
It will only be rarely that I will post such emo posts.. so people dont worry aite!
I'm juz gonna fill these spaces with my day and a few more bunches of crap to it.. haha!

Neways, went to skool today..
Realized that I still havent buy my books yet!! o_0
well, the first week I felt so dumb when the lecturer explains to us about the introduction of each of the subjects we're taking this sem.. coz almost 75% of the whole lectures, i dont even know wad the hell are the lecturers trying to bring across.. lol
but come to the second week, i understood like 90% of them.. and without the books summore..
dope or wad... LOL!! =]

after skool, met up wif the juniors who are training for a performance that is coming up..
Ganbatte! =]
then went to eat wif JJ, Suria, Flo, RB, Harris and Joel at Macs...
I didnt know that most of the people are kinda feeling down and moody the other night..
guess we share the same feelings.. haha..

hmm.. it was quite a shocking nite too..
well, not really that shocking till u get electrocuted out of the electric chair or sumthing..
but juz shocking kinda surprised.. LOL!
gosh.. it juz amaze me of how weird my theories on such stuffs can get.. haha
well, one thing for sure.. i didnt see it coming okay...

well, realized about some stuffs..
I'm gonna apologize to u yea.. if u so happen to read this..
I'm sorry that my actions may seem to make you feel disappointed towards me..
I know i had been a terrible fren since that day..
Juz hope we can be as before aite..
Really sorry..

hmm.. BSC is having it's halloween party tmr nite..
and I'm still considering of whether to go..
hmm... wad u all think..?
to go or not to go? :/

Just ignore this..

Darn.. felt kinda moody today..

Well, I'm not feeling as usual..

I dunno.. juz irritated and felt so sucky...

I juz dunno luh..

Freakin irritating..

One thing for sure, I always felt like this after choreographing krump routines..

damn it..

Its juz so angry and making me feel like one of those emoshits..

argh..

Some people are juz so fake..

They're like having these 2 sides to them..

One day they can be good frens with u.. the other day, they can juz act as if they dont know u..

And now, I dont even know who's real and who's not..

argh..

if u are fake hit the table once, if you're not hit the table twice..

Either ways i dont even know coz its up to the individual..

damn it..

i make it sound so dumb..

fuck..

great.. i juz said it..

now it sounded real immature..

Sometimes, I dont know why is it so hard for me to trust people..

maybe its juz the fear I had..

or..

it must be something from the past that lingers whenever i came about with this particular word..

people keep on saying the past is then..

look forward for tmr or the beginning of the new leaf..

but for me, i guessed it stills the same..

there is sure someone or sumthing who will juz make it worst..

day by day..

it might be a joke.. but the humane part starts to fit in when people takes stuffs emotionally..

they cant be freakin treat everything not to heart at times rite..

Or maybe the lives of them are too perfect so as they can boast around telling ppl that while pushing others down..

seriously.. FUCK!

darn i said it again..

sheeeessh..

Well, generally, the loneliness of a little boy seeps into me..

He was overwhelmed with happiness to come by with a swing that he can play with..

but as he swinged by the hour...

he realized theres no one playing except for him..

its juz between the cold hard steel of the swing's handle and his bare self..

swinging to and fro..

still..

waiting for other kids to play the swing by his side..

As the shadow of the day began to surpass the sun, he knows he have to get home before his mom yells at him..

yells as his mom tot he had spent his day playing with his 'frens'..

but only he himself knows how lonely he had been for the day..

he kept this secret for as long as he can hold..

till the day that he met someone that he trusts and who are able to accept him as a loyal fren..

that the secret is shared..

but still... no sign of such..

he went around.. but seemed as though he's not being accepted by anyone..

maybe he's weird.. maybe's he's ugly.. maybe he's not perfect enough..

another day came by.. and there he go swinging on the swing again..

juz hoping other kids will play along with him..

but he knows and realizes the same thing as before..

the sadness and sorrow will only be bottled up in his heart..

wish he cud cry, but wad can u expect out of a small boy..

but its more painful to know that he's tearing up inside..

day by day..

Happy Deepavali!! =]

So, today.. is deepavali..
So....

HAPPY DEEPAVALI to my Indian frens!!
=]

Neways, had our first training for TPrawks performance today..
and my mind is like overloaded with choreographies!!
and all of them are juz sucking out and draining my energy..
but its good luh.. i guess.. so that can train my stamina..
coz its been loong since i've been having such trainings..

well, nuthing much to say for today i guess..
juz plain tired.
wished that i can like sleep rite now.. but cant coz have to finish up my choreography..
well then, goin off yo..
updates agn..

So, went for the recital training...
Gosh, and had to say that i had to catch up wif An An's choreo!!
damn it.. felt as if I'm the worst down there luh..
serve me rite for not going the last week's lesson..
DARN!!

neways, went to WeiQiang's house after that..
juz a gathering session i guess.. haha
played mahjong..
actually for me.. i dont really play.. juz help them set up the game only..
like putting up the tiles.. LOL!
and who knows setting the cards up wud be fun too! haha..=]

Well.. juz had to say that..
Its juz so irritating..
when everytime i started to like sumone..
theres surely another person or sumthing wud come and makes it worst..
and i will always be the one who haf to give in..
damn..
well.. wadever luh..
I'm not gonna make this a big matter..
i'll juz keep my mouth shut for this issue..
=/

tick tock, tick tock...

So, today had the usual saturday dance class..
An An took us for the class..
Learnt a new choreo from her..
I tot it was quite fun actually.. And i kinda liked her style already..=]

After that, had freestyle session..
yet again, my heart felt like jumping out of my ribs and to the floor rolling around the studio like some red lump of sumthing... LOL!
I had already planned.. that I'm juz gonna do hiphop for my freestyle..
But when it was my turn, it came out some funky music..
And I was like NOOO.. esp when JJ called me out in that music..
But still managed to do hiphop in that song.. haha..
After my turn, I tot the feeling was kinda fun actually... lol!
so much for being nervous rite...
haha.. or maybe its juz human nature to feel that way.. but oh wells..=]

Then, went for lunch at PS..
Discussed about the TPrawks rundown again.. but was nuthing much..
Came by this street shop selling stuffs.. haha.. duh..
I mean, like apparells..and quite cheap actually.. haha..
saw this one section for the guy's apparell..
Then, it made me wondered how come theres like a multiple shops/sections for women wear than men's wear..?
It's as if we have nuthing much to wear and cud actually juz go out anywear shirtless..
But then again.. it's a good thing luh.. so that we dont have to spend a lot of time on these shops.. lol.. =]

Then, went to The Cathay.. came up with this board filled with 'TO DO' lists of the public..
So we also contributed to it and wrote sumthing on the board too..!
People look out for it okay.. we have written sumthing over there!!.. =]
Saw some funny things that people juz wanna do.. sum are desperate luh.. LOL!
Then, saw Joel, RB, Valerie and Brian hanging out at the steps by the side of Starbucks..
they also wrote on it.. like juz wrote it after been sitting there like sooo long.. haha..
And one comment.. that is sooo cheesy luh..
u know wad i mean.. haha.. ;]

Came back to Oschool to have this props meeting for our GEMS 4..
Well.. I'm not gonna say anything luh..
Just see hows the process gonna be like...
And in the meantime, I have to manage my time properly..
Seriously man, i mean, I'm still gonna strive for my studies no matter wad..
While having the discussion.. I felt bored and began to take this paper thingy from Jean and doodle some stuffs with the chicken printing on it with Iris's marker.. lol..
Jean contributed some doodles in that and end up like this..

LOL! =]

Anyways, after that, went to MR.TEA with Jonas, Nelson, JJ, Hazrul, Rahim and Danny..
The teas there were quite cheap for such a big cup.. and it was not bad either..
Then went down to SMU.. to catch the rest who were sessioning there..
Practiced my turns with JJ.. coz seriously, I forgot wad Ryan taught us before for the modern class..
hmm.. many of y'all dont know.. but i had to say this..
I suddenly haf the urge to learn breaking..
LOL!
like.. freakin LOL!! haha..
well.. i dunno luh.. i won't say much coz SUMBODY will juz come up to me and said like ' i know its exciting rite' or sumthing like that.. haha.. SO IRRITATING!
Juz kinda curious okay.. thats all. with a big fat fullstop.

Updates again yo..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LITING! =]

Today is Li Ting's bdae...

So....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LI TING!! =]

LEGALLY 8TEEN LIKE FINALLY!

HAHA..

Before i talked about the celebration, I talked about my skool first aite..

So, skool today was usual.. no tutorials but lecturres only..

oh yea, and I've gotten Design In Culture for my CDS..

I think its kinda kool.. like a subject which I'm interested in.. =]

Had lunch wif my classmates over at Bistro..

Had to say that their salad sucks..

I mean, the taste of it reminded me of the smell of the fake grass/shrubs that were used for my model in irdd project..

Like it is so terrible that its taste is as bad as wad it is smelt like..

But its a good thing i managed to finish it coz other than that, most of the food is fried and i need to like balance up the meal with the salad.. LOL.. talk about healthy lifestyle!! haha!

This was my meal... [notice my name at the side.. haha]

My piece after the meal.. lol! wad wonders can chilli sauce do to ur empty plate.. =]

Then, met up wif some of them after skool to prepare for the celebration later on..

Made the card while Aty and Harris went to wrap the present..

Can say that, actually, all of these were quite last minute.. hehe =]

RB's writing his card for the bday girl..

Then, went off to Tampines Mall to look for the cake and check the reservation at the Seoul Garden with Aty, Suria and Carmen..

Managed to get her the Blackforest Cake which we secretly know that she liked!!

lol.. actually, not really that secretly.. knew it from her blog.. HAHA!

Then Joycelyn joined us for the wait..

At that, point of time, everyone was hungy..

Joycelyn, Aty, Suria, Carmen and myself (photographer) at Seoul Garden waiting for the rest to arrive with the bdae girl..=]

Suria writing her part for the bdae card..

Pretty, KC, Auntie.. lol! =]

Afew minutes later.. they arrived with the bday girl..

Then, we finally started eating!!

My table.. with Joycelyn, Suria and Aty..

Bday girl's table with RB, Carmen and Tivona...

Harris's and Joel's table.. Can see that Harris is damn happy coz he juz learnt how to cook with the steamboat.. lol..

Suria looks so kiddish when she was sucking the popsickle.. lol.. no wonder she's our KC baby..

The bday girl blowing the candles and cutting her cake!! =]

After all of us finished eating, they suddenly began to do the arm warm up while following the beat of the music that was aired at that time.. thnks to Harris who has been reliving the times that we had while having our trainings..! haha!

Then, we had group photos!!

RB's signature move!! haha..

Overall, we had so much fun and laughter!! It was great to meet up again.. haha.. Its a pity Iris and CT cant join us though coz of individual reasons.. But their presence were not forgotten.. =]

After that, some of us went to watch movie, while some went home..

Watched 20th Century Men..

I can say that the movie was draggy.. And a lil lame.. haha..

But it was okay i guess..

After the movie, we went home..

And I'm not going to talk bout my journey home aite..

coz it doesnt worth the space of this blog..

It juz brings me more of the pain to talk about it..

Juz ignore this part and accept the fact that I was home safely after that..

Updates again aite..

=]

Twisted Tuesday...

Wuzzup!!

So here comes the second day of the first week of the new sem..

Nothing much actually..

oh yea.. and i've got a new earpiece for my mp3..

Its like finally theres music in my life after 1 month plus of silent bus and mrt rides without them.. lol..

BTW, i juz learnt how to upload photos in the post thnks to KAT!! =]

haha..
So, i will try to upload some that are taken today...

Then, most of them went sumwhere to haf their dinner...

Followed Kaiwen and Tim to Biz Park to meet the rest, namely Joey, Joycelyn, Kat, Sam, Nelson, Hazrul, RB, Harris, Jonas and Joel..

While at the Biz Park...

Girls just cant stop camwhoring do they?? HAHA!

Anyways.. went to discuss sumthing about sumthing..

you know wad i mean to those who are there..

Then, went to squash court area to discuss bout the TPrawks performance..

Its gonna be another busy semester again with studies by my side..

After that, went to look at Rahim's class and off to TM to meet sum of the people that i made frenz wif at my workplace the last time..

And then, off to home.. =]

damn glad that I finally know how to upload pics in my posts! I will ensure u guyz that my blog aint gonna be boring no more coz pictures are on their way for every posts..

Updates again aite..