but to think again
no point for me writing the previous long post just for you
coz u dont even have the heart to feel wad others feel, esp me
i just wrote it, only for me
and for the consideration of u to realize what was going on the last time
learnt my lesson
i dunno if u had learnt urs
but it will be better for ur future prospects
till then
i'm ready to see u as a fren
just like wad u said
and i think its better that way
dont know if u will ever see me again or not
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Dear browncompanion,
Its been a while since i talked to you, or typed things to you
but i know u are there for me when I'm down
My heart was broken today, but not really shattered to pieces
it's my first ever time I've seriously fallen in love with someone
but the person didnt appreciate my love though we are together
squashed by a banana all i can say
I tried to explain, but it seems useless
I believed that we can make things between us work
but the person kept on doubting me
and keep on holding on to the flaws and mistakes I've made
and literally ignored all the efforts that I've tried to make the person happy
and make our relationship work between the both of us
I'm sure and not afraid to say that Ive made my mistakes
and am willing to change it and never do it agn
in order to maintain our happiness and the strentgh as a couple
but all seems to be a lil too late
My day started quite well
With good intentions of sharing how was my day like for the past few days
And also wanting to ask how have u been
as we didnt talked much for the past few days
and not to forget that i missed u
but came along this msg, when i was abt to share all this to u
hoping that it was a 'miss u too' or a simple question like 'have u had ur lunch?'
didnt turn out that way though
and left myself not having my first meal of the day till 10pm later
i was speechless, and left me thinking that wadever i did to regain your love back
was not appreciated and never been put into consideration
all of the effort, feelings, thoughts and good intention I had in mind for us has been crushed
I know I was very raw in this
But i feel that i'm getting better at it each day
and im thankful with your guidance
but each day when i told u that i love you and all, u never gave me that assurance back
so it makes me worried and wanting me to talk and msg u more and more each day
just for that assurance
and never tot it will be very suffocating for u
u shud have told me that u need space
and if only u opened up to me and tell me who ur frens were
coz i cared for u, and worried for u
i treat this relationship seriously
and i dont want to treat it like a joke, coz u meant so much to me
but maybe coz its a mistake to do so, coz u told me u didnt
but just so u know it, every relationship is a big deal to me
and i just think its wrong for u to compare with all the other relationship u had
coz every relationship is unique in its own
but its a pity u cant see and treasure the moments we had
coz wad i feel is that u are only thinking about urself
in ways whether i make u happy
i doubt u know whether im happy or any of my emotions
coz everything is about u, whether u had fun going out,
whether ur happy or not, whether this is boring,
whether this place is nice, whether its exciting,
and it all comes down to whether everything satisfies u
u never knew if it satisfies me
but to me, its okay coz my feelings for u are strong
and im willing to make all these sacrifices just for u
its just so hard to get u talking to me
coz u never tell me anything
and everything u expect me to assume
but when i assume something, it might be wrong
i think communication is very important in relationships
but ur not doing it to me, ur not telling me how u feel in the relationship till that day
so i just felt its unfair for me coz i never knew wad u felt
and worst when u told me that u want to avoid me
when i dont even know why is that so
ur not talking to me and telling me wad u feel in the first place
coz i believed when we talk, we can solve problems and mistakes are never made agn
then why do u think i wanna talk to u on the phone when we were together?
why do u think i cared to write for u all the letters?
so, this is why i feel its unfair, coz u never share with me ur feelings inside
i took time to reminisce things about u and us
i rmbered how much u disliked the drink coz of its smell
and also u disliked peanuts in ur chocolate or any forms
i rmbered that u dont like having onions and olives in ur subway sandwiches
i rmbered u not liking carl's jr when we went there once
i rmbered how much both of us like strawberry shortcake
i rmbred our first kiss along the boat quay
though it was quite awkward for me but i liked it
i rmb u saying that u like the way i touch u
i rmbered how much u like pink songs
and the first time u intro me to them
and esp emo-ing on that exact song
u brought me to like pink songs too, though i used to think its just ok
and all the songs that i sent u
the songs that we shared which are similar in liking
and rmb tearing for no reason
till now, i have saved some nice songs
and yet to tell u about it and send it to u
i rmbered the day when u expecting me to say good morning to you
when the first few msgs is about something else
i apologised and till then
i never failed to give u morning msgs and even bid you to sleep at night
i rmbered ur birthday celebration
on our first night picnic and us pitching up a tent
and how ur easily bruised by things that u tried doing urself
and at that point of time, i'm proud of u for at least trying to do it yourself
and stopped u from doing anything for i dont want u to have any unnessacery bruises
and all the things we had, like those sweet korean strawberries, grapes
and tons of candies and chocolates and chips
that i expected u to finish it coz of my small appetite
and the gift i gave u, help u to safeguard ur most important things
and also the card which u cant imagine how much effort ive done to make it awesome
and i rmbered how heavy the rain and how strong the wind was in the morning
when we worked together to remain the tent in an upright position
and i still rmb in our own 'couture' poses while doing so
and the connection and love we had
i rmbered helping u to dress up for some event
and a look at your wardrobe with neat clothings and dresses that u never tried or tried once
but i had to compliment you on how beautiful u looked that day
even recently, u managed to dress urself
no words can describe how proud i am to see u
i rmbered the time when we went to shop
when its just both of us
the feel of freedom and similar tastes
and the pendant which are special for the both of us
i still wear it at times and reminded me of u
i rmbered those times we spent in various places
and the love we shared
Wish i cud type it here, but i think u shud remember them
I rmbered asking u to come up with a list of things u wud like to do
before the reality of the world starts to kick in
i still kept it till now and even remembered it at the tip of my fingers
though u have accidentally lost it
and thought we cud do the things stated together
but it cracked my heart when u said u alr started doing it with someone else
I rmbered the lightsticks that glows 'I <3 U' on your carpark under ur block
people tot i was crazy when i did that
but i dont care to wad ppl think of me coz of how much feelings i had for u
and that rose, u shud know wad it means
but guess all doesnt mean anything to u
even i almost risked myself from being caught by the police for doing so
i just hoped that something better would carry on between us
but then u told me that its difficult to face me as a lover
when all this while i tried to do so myself
so, u got me thinking that all this while u are giving me a falso hope
when i started to feel more for u
when i started to learn how to trust u more
and just to let you know, i have made plans for us in ways we can spend quality time together
and for u to feel loved by me agn
but i just feel u took a short time to think through
its just painful when at times u tried to avoid me
and only replied me in a few sentences
i just felt neglected
and at that point of time, i just tot u were self-centred
coz u dont seem to care how much i have done for u to show my love
and u barely show any appreciation towards me
maybe i was wrong, coz maybe i were to blame
for not understanding u enough
maybe u failed to see wad i see in us
coz like u said, ur expectation is high
i know i dont drive, but told u im getting a license soon enough
and i have plans to drive u ard places
but it seems time is running short for u, and u cant seem to wait eh
Im seriously sorry for all the things that ive done
that seems to go against wad u tot
and also for not being there when u needed me the most
when u are damn upset with how things forces you to change your course of life
i will never forget that mistake
i rmbred promising to you that i will always be there for u when u needed me
and i rmbered that one mistake when i doubted u going out with your fren
i am terribly sorry coz im worried and i need assurance from u
this is just to show how much i concerned abt you
but im willing to change myself and not to repeat all the mistakes
just to maintain this relationship
this is to show how much i respect us being together
i dont know if u have seen the changes ive made in me
coz you have been strongly swayed by all the mistakes ive made
but no other words can describe how much this relationship mean to me
and how much im willing to sacrifice for us
if only u cud hold on to us longer
but i guess all this is too late to be said
just hoped u read this, so that u know wad i feel
and the oblivion im in before u asked for our separate ways
just to let you know, im willing to do anything for u
and also, give all the love and care that u deserved
i really really respect our relationship
and i respected u as my lover
and i believed the strong chances that we have for us to be inseparable
but if only u believed in us
thanks for the memories
i <3 u
Its been a while since i talked to you, or typed things to you
but i know u are there for me when I'm down
My heart was broken today, but not really shattered to pieces
it's my first ever time I've seriously fallen in love with someone
but the person didnt appreciate my love though we are together
squashed by a banana all i can say
I tried to explain, but it seems useless
I believed that we can make things between us work
but the person kept on doubting me
and keep on holding on to the flaws and mistakes I've made
and literally ignored all the efforts that I've tried to make the person happy
and make our relationship work between the both of us
I'm sure and not afraid to say that Ive made my mistakes
and am willing to change it and never do it agn
in order to maintain our happiness and the strentgh as a couple
but all seems to be a lil too late
My day started quite well
With good intentions of sharing how was my day like for the past few days
And also wanting to ask how have u been
as we didnt talked much for the past few days
and not to forget that i missed u
but came along this msg, when i was abt to share all this to u
hoping that it was a 'miss u too' or a simple question like 'have u had ur lunch?'
didnt turn out that way though
and left myself not having my first meal of the day till 10pm later
i was speechless, and left me thinking that wadever i did to regain your love back
was not appreciated and never been put into consideration
all of the effort, feelings, thoughts and good intention I had in mind for us has been crushed
I know I was very raw in this
But i feel that i'm getting better at it each day
and im thankful with your guidance
but each day when i told u that i love you and all, u never gave me that assurance back
so it makes me worried and wanting me to talk and msg u more and more each day
just for that assurance
and never tot it will be very suffocating for u
u shud have told me that u need space
and if only u opened up to me and tell me who ur frens were
coz i cared for u, and worried for u
i treat this relationship seriously
and i dont want to treat it like a joke, coz u meant so much to me
but maybe coz its a mistake to do so, coz u told me u didnt
but just so u know it, every relationship is a big deal to me
and i just think its wrong for u to compare with all the other relationship u had
coz every relationship is unique in its own
but its a pity u cant see and treasure the moments we had
coz wad i feel is that u are only thinking about urself
in ways whether i make u happy
i doubt u know whether im happy or any of my emotions
coz everything is about u, whether u had fun going out,
whether ur happy or not, whether this is boring,
whether this place is nice, whether its exciting,
and it all comes down to whether everything satisfies u
u never knew if it satisfies me
but to me, its okay coz my feelings for u are strong
and im willing to make all these sacrifices just for u
its just so hard to get u talking to me
coz u never tell me anything
and everything u expect me to assume
but when i assume something, it might be wrong
i think communication is very important in relationships
but ur not doing it to me, ur not telling me how u feel in the relationship till that day
so i just felt its unfair for me coz i never knew wad u felt
and worst when u told me that u want to avoid me
when i dont even know why is that so
ur not talking to me and telling me wad u feel in the first place
coz i believed when we talk, we can solve problems and mistakes are never made agn
then why do u think i wanna talk to u on the phone when we were together?
why do u think i cared to write for u all the letters?
so, this is why i feel its unfair, coz u never share with me ur feelings inside
i took time to reminisce things about u and us
i rmbered how much u disliked the drink coz of its smell
and also u disliked peanuts in ur chocolate or any forms
i rmbered that u dont like having onions and olives in ur subway sandwiches
i rmbered u not liking carl's jr when we went there once
i rmbered how much both of us like strawberry shortcake
i rmbred our first kiss along the boat quay
though it was quite awkward for me but i liked it
i rmb u saying that u like the way i touch u
i rmbered how much u like pink songs
and the first time u intro me to them
and esp emo-ing on that exact song
u brought me to like pink songs too, though i used to think its just ok
and all the songs that i sent u
the songs that we shared which are similar in liking
and rmb tearing for no reason
till now, i have saved some nice songs
and yet to tell u about it and send it to u
i rmbered the day when u expecting me to say good morning to you
when the first few msgs is about something else
i apologised and till then
i never failed to give u morning msgs and even bid you to sleep at night
i rmbered ur birthday celebration
on our first night picnic and us pitching up a tent
and how ur easily bruised by things that u tried doing urself
and at that point of time, i'm proud of u for at least trying to do it yourself
and stopped u from doing anything for i dont want u to have any unnessacery bruises
and all the things we had, like those sweet korean strawberries, grapes
and tons of candies and chocolates and chips
that i expected u to finish it coz of my small appetite
and the gift i gave u, help u to safeguard ur most important things
and also the card which u cant imagine how much effort ive done to make it awesome
and i rmbered how heavy the rain and how strong the wind was in the morning
when we worked together to remain the tent in an upright position
and i still rmb in our own 'couture' poses while doing so
and the connection and love we had
i rmbered helping u to dress up for some event
and a look at your wardrobe with neat clothings and dresses that u never tried or tried once
but i had to compliment you on how beautiful u looked that day
even recently, u managed to dress urself
no words can describe how proud i am to see u
i rmbered the time when we went to shop
when its just both of us
the feel of freedom and similar tastes
and the pendant which are special for the both of us
i still wear it at times and reminded me of u
i rmbered those times we spent in various places
and the love we shared
Wish i cud type it here, but i think u shud remember them
I rmbered asking u to come up with a list of things u wud like to do
before the reality of the world starts to kick in
i still kept it till now and even remembered it at the tip of my fingers
though u have accidentally lost it
and thought we cud do the things stated together
but it cracked my heart when u said u alr started doing it with someone else
I rmbered the lightsticks that glows 'I <3 U' on your carpark under ur block
people tot i was crazy when i did that
but i dont care to wad ppl think of me coz of how much feelings i had for u
and that rose, u shud know wad it means
but guess all doesnt mean anything to u
even i almost risked myself from being caught by the police for doing so
i just hoped that something better would carry on between us
but then u told me that its difficult to face me as a lover
when all this while i tried to do so myself
so, u got me thinking that all this while u are giving me a falso hope
when i started to feel more for u
when i started to learn how to trust u more
and just to let you know, i have made plans for us in ways we can spend quality time together
and for u to feel loved by me agn
but i just feel u took a short time to think through
its just painful when at times u tried to avoid me
and only replied me in a few sentences
i just felt neglected
and at that point of time, i just tot u were self-centred
coz u dont seem to care how much i have done for u to show my love
and u barely show any appreciation towards me
maybe i was wrong, coz maybe i were to blame
for not understanding u enough
maybe u failed to see wad i see in us
coz like u said, ur expectation is high
i know i dont drive, but told u im getting a license soon enough
and i have plans to drive u ard places
but it seems time is running short for u, and u cant seem to wait eh
Im seriously sorry for all the things that ive done
that seems to go against wad u tot
and also for not being there when u needed me the most
when u are damn upset with how things forces you to change your course of life
i will never forget that mistake
i rmbred promising to you that i will always be there for u when u needed me
and i rmbered that one mistake when i doubted u going out with your fren
i am terribly sorry coz im worried and i need assurance from u
this is just to show how much i concerned abt you
but im willing to change myself and not to repeat all the mistakes
just to maintain this relationship
this is to show how much i respect us being together
i dont know if u have seen the changes ive made in me
coz you have been strongly swayed by all the mistakes ive made
but no other words can describe how much this relationship mean to me
and how much im willing to sacrifice for us
if only u cud hold on to us longer
but i guess all this is too late to be said
just hoped u read this, so that u know wad i feel
and the oblivion im in before u asked for our separate ways
just to let you know, im willing to do anything for u
and also, give all the love and care that u deserved
i really really respect our relationship
and i respected u as my lover
and i believed the strong chances that we have for us to be inseparable
but if only u believed in us
thanks for the memories
i <3 u
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Helllo peeps!
So the start of May hasnt been as good
But I believe something happier and better gonna come by
And ya, I totally dont know why i woke up damn freakin early today
Went to sleep at ard 3am last night
and today, found myself staring at the clock at 8.30am!
unbelievable!
tried to sleep back, but its not working though!
so, decided to blog and update myself in fb!
latest thing that happened:
SAFETY IS IN OUR HANDS FLASH MOB
i so gotta totally comment on this one!
the manager seriously, and i mean seriously serious
need to look up on the meaning of flash mob
and also read up on 'Dummies 101: Flash mob' to know how to execute one!
lol!
its like a freakin performance la! haha
i mean, which flashmob has a normal entrance on a stage some more!
coz flash mobs are suppose to be like a surprise kinda thing and on the streets
but this one is like telling the audience theres gonna be a flashmob
and also, a stage is up for us to dance on!
haha! totally simidaiji man!
but the pay ok la, not gonna complain since i jonied it at the eleventh hour
its a good thing i manage to catch the steps fast enough though lol
and adding to it, we have to like report at suntec at 7 in the morning!!
so can you believe the number of zombies i have to meet up with in the train? lol
that includes myself.. haha!
some peeks to see:
NIGHT CYCLING!
Had an awesome time night cycling with my awesome buddies
there were me, andy, joycelyn, frankie, iris, andreas, sam, kaiwen, kat, tim, kevin and jj
We didnt really cycled around Singapore though
But really had the koolest companions for the whole night!
Half way thru riding in town, we met up with Alex and his frens!
lol! can see him being so sore towards us! hahaha
We shall organise another one with him maybe lol
Its easy to fall in love, but its not easy to maintain a relationship
It takes both effort to make things work
Still learning my ever greatest weakness, hope you understand
So the start of May hasnt been as good
But I believe something happier and better gonna come by
And ya, I totally dont know why i woke up damn freakin early today
Went to sleep at ard 3am last night
and today, found myself staring at the clock at 8.30am!
unbelievable!
tried to sleep back, but its not working though!
so, decided to blog and update myself in fb!
latest thing that happened:
SAFETY IS IN OUR HANDS FLASH MOB
i so gotta totally comment on this one!
the manager seriously, and i mean seriously serious
need to look up on the meaning of flash mob
and also read up on 'Dummies 101: Flash mob' to know how to execute one!
lol!
its like a freakin performance la! haha
i mean, which flashmob has a normal entrance on a stage some more!
coz flash mobs are suppose to be like a surprise kinda thing and on the streets
but this one is like telling the audience theres gonna be a flashmob
and also, a stage is up for us to dance on!
haha! totally simidaiji man!
but the pay ok la, not gonna complain since i jonied it at the eleventh hour
its a good thing i manage to catch the steps fast enough though lol
and adding to it, we have to like report at suntec at 7 in the morning!!
so can you believe the number of zombies i have to meet up with in the train? lol
that includes myself.. haha!
some peeks to see:
Kevin and me!
me in the nurse uniform that im suppose to be in! haha
slacking at subway before the flashmob performance
Me, spongebob and Yuko!
Junko and me!
Safety is in Our Hands!!! =]
NIKE FACTORY OUTLET
So, thanks to the new frens I make from the above mentioned event
I got to know about this outlet and the kool sale!
the whole store has a 20% discount to it, but the day that me, kevin and keiths went,
we have like 60% discounts!!!
so awesome!!
So, i got myself a nike silver/grey jacket and
a white base nike shoe with neon yellow touches
will upload the photo of these awesome stuffs once i took photo of them!
overall, i think most of the stuffs are more for athletics and sports
but nonetheless, some stuff are kool too!
like the windbreakers and some tees there
not much of the shoes though
and at the same time, get to explore an isolated mall in the corner of singapore
specifically, clementi
which is the West Coast Mall!
coz this is wear the nike outlet store was held at!
and its isolation is damn superb till it made itself damn boring!
lol
NIGHT CYCLING!
Had an awesome time night cycling with my awesome buddies
there were me, andy, joycelyn, frankie, iris, andreas, sam, kaiwen, kat, tim, kevin and jj
We didnt really cycled around Singapore though
But really had the koolest companions for the whole night!
Half way thru riding in town, we met up with Alex and his frens!
lol! can see him being so sore towards us! hahaha
We shall organise another one with him maybe lol
SOME AWESOME PICS
thanks to meichin for these pics man!
awesome indeed!!
these were taken before SDD finals started:
Thanks loads meichin!
=]
Its easy to fall in love, but its not easy to maintain a relationship
It takes both effort to make things work
Still learning my ever greatest weakness, hope you understand
Friday, April 30, 2010
I never wished to say this
but i just don't understand
i just feel that today is the worst day
needed to share it to someone
but figured i will be such an irritant
bottling up is just the best of choices
i just hate myself for having too much emotions
i just hate myself for having too much thoughts
i just hate myself for having too much things kept away from ppl around me
even the closest cant understand me
no wonder some ppl result to suicide
I just so blessed to have the patience
I dont understand
i just dont feel as if im not appreciated of wad ive done
i tried making ppl happy, to understand their needs
and do everything that i could risk myself doing
but i think everything just dont seems to be enough
or is it im just a loser that cant understand other ppl
i tried to, but i dont know whether i did it successfully
but at least try to understand me
do you even know wad my needs are?
even if u know, i doubt u will make effort to do it
you are not even there when i needed someone
i think you dont even know that im feeling this way
I guess i dont mean anything to others
just a small explanation,
or evena sorry would work for me
guess im to be blamed for not trying to understand
coz blaming myself is the only way for me to work things out
and i dont want to put wad we have into jeopardy
i dont know if you will read this
but this is how i feel
and to anyone who reads this, the 'you' i used is just based on general terms
sometimes i feel thankful for those who taught me the art of being superficial
so that others wont know wad i truely feel inside
just when i found someone to tell wad i felt inside
i was considered irritating
so, wadever thats left inside of me,
rest in peace
i miss gin
all the dance practices, and all her words
im always looking forward for her class
although i didnt go for them
but watching them on youtube just brings a smile on my face
it just makes me feel joyful whenever i felt sad or lost
just by watching i felt the guidance in her
ever since she left for LA, the sense of guidance have lost within me
theres nothing to look forward to every week
gosh, everything just made me teared for no reason
hate this lost feeling
somehow these tears just rolled without my intentions
i cant even stop it
i feel so stupid for tearing down now
i just feel so fucked up
bye world
but i just don't understand
i just feel that today is the worst day
needed to share it to someone
but figured i will be such an irritant
bottling up is just the best of choices
i just hate myself for having too much emotions
i just hate myself for having too much thoughts
i just hate myself for having too much things kept away from ppl around me
even the closest cant understand me
no wonder some ppl result to suicide
I just so blessed to have the patience
I dont understand
i just dont feel as if im not appreciated of wad ive done
i tried making ppl happy, to understand their needs
and do everything that i could risk myself doing
but i think everything just dont seems to be enough
or is it im just a loser that cant understand other ppl
i tried to, but i dont know whether i did it successfully
but at least try to understand me
do you even know wad my needs are?
even if u know, i doubt u will make effort to do it
you are not even there when i needed someone
i think you dont even know that im feeling this way
I guess i dont mean anything to others
just a small explanation,
or evena sorry would work for me
guess im to be blamed for not trying to understand
coz blaming myself is the only way for me to work things out
and i dont want to put wad we have into jeopardy
i dont know if you will read this
but this is how i feel
and to anyone who reads this, the 'you' i used is just based on general terms
sometimes i feel thankful for those who taught me the art of being superficial
so that others wont know wad i truely feel inside
just when i found someone to tell wad i felt inside
i was considered irritating
so, wadever thats left inside of me,
rest in peace
i miss gin
all the dance practices, and all her words
im always looking forward for her class
although i didnt go for them
but watching them on youtube just brings a smile on my face
it just makes me feel joyful whenever i felt sad or lost
just by watching i felt the guidance in her
ever since she left for LA, the sense of guidance have lost within me
theres nothing to look forward to every week
gosh, everything just made me teared for no reason
hate this lost feeling
somehow these tears just rolled without my intentions
i cant even stop it
i feel so stupid for tearing down now
i just feel so fucked up
bye world
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Hello hello!
Gosh, its been ages since i blogged!
Partly due to my laziness to type down wadever i've done in my life
Soon, I'll be updating the a lot on my life within this post
So stay tune!!
Look out for updates on:
PHUKET TRIP
UNIVERSITY ADMISSIONS RESULTS
GEMS 5: LABYRINTH
I-AM: THE SYSTEM CHOREOGRAPHER'S BALL
LOREAL SHOW SLICKS VS STREETS
F&N FLASHMOB
TPDE CHALET
11TH APRIL
FRESHMAN ORIENTATION CAMP AY2010/2011
TPSU D&D
VENOS LOVE CHALET
MOVIES
MY LIFE
Gosh, its been ages since i blogged!
Partly due to my laziness to type down wadever i've done in my life
Soon, I'll be updating the a lot on my life within this post
So stay tune!!
Look out for updates on:
PHUKET TRIP
UNIVERSITY ADMISSIONS RESULTS
GEMS 5: LABYRINTH
I-AM: THE SYSTEM CHOREOGRAPHER'S BALL
LOREAL SHOW SLICKS VS STREETS
F&N FLASHMOB
TPDE CHALET
11TH APRIL
FRESHMAN ORIENTATION CAMP AY2010/2011
TPSU D&D
VENOS LOVE CHALET
MOVIES
MY LIFE
Friday, February 26, 2010
Hello world
LIFE
Life for me has been quite fucked up.. in a good way
But i think thats equivalent to wads normal in my life everyday lol
Im loving those fucked up moments in life, if not there wont be any risk living it rite?
Your life gonna be so bored if its too perfect
Most probly will just get you to sit down and stare and think of how perfect your life is
like so wad the fuck.. haha!
Even new experiences that adds more risks and fun to it
New obligations, new obstructions, new limitations that always get in my way
Isn't that wad ppl like to do to you and see how you swallow the pain
Guess I'm kinda numb and love that kinda pain even more
I'm so loving this weird post lol
Makes ppl think I'm weird too
Go ahead and think that I'm weird then
As long as i know wad im doing
But the thing is, do you even know wad you are doing?
Stupid fools and bitter hearts.. haha
Since I had unofficially graduated
I craved to be more adventurous
And thanks to those who adds more definition to my life
Just wished I could stay out more often and see the world
Should I just tell my parents that I am dieing and will be soon dead
then comes back 5 months later coz I had been resurrected? haha
I just told myself, you wish!
So much for having a normal life rite?
Thanks for making my life fucked up since primary school
I'm loving it more
OK, so i figured I should stop typing this way
before someone actually think that I'm psychotic
basically those who think so, had their life too perfect
Talking about being so sore
LOL..
NUS VISIT
Went to NUS with Andy and Yuxin the other time
Basically we wanted to submit our uni admission
And also to have a feel like how's the place gonna be like if we were to admit into the school
Gosh, the first impression of it was like so so so so so dreadful!!
Can u imagine that we even had problems and so much difficulty to get ot the uni?
I think its a sign that we are not going there to study.. LOL
NO luh.. lets be optimistic shall we?
haha
And when we get to their admission office, their whole place are so dead
like D E A D dead.. even the people there were like as if they had been zombified
haha..
and talk about nerds.. they just irritate me more and more.. though i used to be one
Its like I feel like telling straight to their face to GET A LIFE!
I mean, those whom I know that goes to uni are such fun ppl
But the ones we saw are like so so... yea
Bet they are JC students.. OOOPPPPSS
lolI can tell you that once I'm in there
I'm gonna be like shouting to Andy from one corner to another corner
like " HHHEEEEEEYYYYYYY!!!"
But i totally love their Business School
Like theres a sudden spurt of life once you step into it
Its like, theres a total difference when we walked into Social Science Faculty and the Business School
Just hoping I can get into that school! =]
So, the next uni we gonna be visitting is NTU
Maybe soon I guess.. lol
BOSSINI
The rehearsal was kinda fun and interesting.. in deed
Andee was the choreographer
And there were me, andy, joycelyn, frankie, nicole claire, meichin, nora and some RP guy in it!
So basically we are the dancers.. haha
Good experience though!
And each of us are given like a dressing suited for us by Bossini
I can say that mine was not bad, maybe the hippest out of them.. oops.. lol!
Andy's was like his usual self going to town look haha
Frankie's was like his usual stereotyped self which is either like a small boy or an ah pek! haha
And the girls looked awesome as well!
So, I cant tell much about it, coz it will not be as surprising
Just await for us to be on the screen aite =]
Cant wait for the actual videoshoot this weekend!
MOVIESSS
Caught quite a number of movies lately
like Percy Jackson again with Andy and Tim during the second stay out
The Tournament with Joycelyn, Frankie, Andy and Joey
and i cant believe i slept through Tooth Fairy at one point of the movie
theres more, but i cant rmb wad i watched lol
oh yea, and the recent one was Wolfman which I watched with Andy
Found ourselves staying up the whole night in town after that.. lol!
Ventured through one part of Orchard too
COMMITMENTS
And again, I found myself caught with a lot of commitments in a short period of time
Lets list it down shall we?
Here it goes:
Bossini MV Video shoot - 27 Feb
Sounds Like Saturday! Birdcage men - 27 Feb
Bossini Instructional Video shoot - 28 Feb
VENOS LOVE chalet - 10-12 March
Lor'Real Streets VS Slicks Krumping Perfromance - 13 March
TPDE GEM 5 Concert - 19 & 20 March
TPSU D&D - 25 March
Singapore Dance Delight - 27 March
Gin's I-AM: The System Choreographer's Ball - 29 March
Uni Admission - whenever I am free
Visit NTU - ??
So, any ideas how to clone myself? lol
I guess, this is why I love the fucked up life I have
Some times, I just cant believe how confused I can get
haha
till then
Bye World
LIFE
Life for me has been quite fucked up.. in a good way
But i think thats equivalent to wads normal in my life everyday lol
Im loving those fucked up moments in life, if not there wont be any risk living it rite?
Your life gonna be so bored if its too perfect
Most probly will just get you to sit down and stare and think of how perfect your life is
like so wad the fuck.. haha!
Even new experiences that adds more risks and fun to it
New obligations, new obstructions, new limitations that always get in my way
Isn't that wad ppl like to do to you and see how you swallow the pain
Guess I'm kinda numb and love that kinda pain even more
I'm so loving this weird post lol
Makes ppl think I'm weird too
Go ahead and think that I'm weird then
As long as i know wad im doing
But the thing is, do you even know wad you are doing?
Stupid fools and bitter hearts.. haha
Since I had unofficially graduated
I craved to be more adventurous
And thanks to those who adds more definition to my life
Just wished I could stay out more often and see the world
Should I just tell my parents that I am dieing and will be soon dead
then comes back 5 months later coz I had been resurrected? haha
I just told myself, you wish!
So much for having a normal life rite?
Thanks for making my life fucked up since primary school
I'm loving it more
OK, so i figured I should stop typing this way
before someone actually think that I'm psychotic
basically those who think so, had their life too perfect
Talking about being so sore
LOL..
NUS VISIT
Went to NUS with Andy and Yuxin the other time
Basically we wanted to submit our uni admission
And also to have a feel like how's the place gonna be like if we were to admit into the school
Gosh, the first impression of it was like so so so so so dreadful!!
Can u imagine that we even had problems and so much difficulty to get ot the uni?
I think its a sign that we are not going there to study.. LOL
NO luh.. lets be optimistic shall we?
haha
And when we get to their admission office, their whole place are so dead
like D E A D dead.. even the people there were like as if they had been zombified
haha..
and talk about nerds.. they just irritate me more and more.. though i used to be one
Its like I feel like telling straight to their face to GET A LIFE!
I mean, those whom I know that goes to uni are such fun ppl
But the ones we saw are like so so... yea
Bet they are JC students.. OOOPPPPSS
lolI can tell you that once I'm in there
I'm gonna be like shouting to Andy from one corner to another corner
like " HHHEEEEEEYYYYYYY!!!"
But i totally love their Business School
Like theres a sudden spurt of life once you step into it
Its like, theres a total difference when we walked into Social Science Faculty and the Business School
Just hoping I can get into that school! =]
So, the next uni we gonna be visitting is NTU
Maybe soon I guess.. lol
BOSSINI
The rehearsal was kinda fun and interesting.. in deed
Andee was the choreographer
And there were me, andy, joycelyn, frankie, nicole claire, meichin, nora and some RP guy in it!
So basically we are the dancers.. haha
Good experience though!
And each of us are given like a dressing suited for us by Bossini
I can say that mine was not bad, maybe the hippest out of them.. oops.. lol!
Andy's was like his usual self going to town look haha
Frankie's was like his usual stereotyped self which is either like a small boy or an ah pek! haha
And the girls looked awesome as well!
So, I cant tell much about it, coz it will not be as surprising
Just await for us to be on the screen aite =]
Cant wait for the actual videoshoot this weekend!
MOVIESSS
Caught quite a number of movies lately
like Percy Jackson again with Andy and Tim during the second stay out
The Tournament with Joycelyn, Frankie, Andy and Joey
and i cant believe i slept through Tooth Fairy at one point of the movie
theres more, but i cant rmb wad i watched lol
oh yea, and the recent one was Wolfman which I watched with Andy
Found ourselves staying up the whole night in town after that.. lol!
Ventured through one part of Orchard too
COMMITMENTS
And again, I found myself caught with a lot of commitments in a short period of time
Lets list it down shall we?
Here it goes:
Bossini MV Video shoot - 27 Feb
Sounds Like Saturday! Birdcage men - 27 Feb
Bossini Instructional Video shoot - 28 Feb
VENOS LOVE chalet - 10-12 March
Lor'Real Streets VS Slicks Krumping Perfromance - 13 March
TPDE GEM 5 Concert - 19 & 20 March
TPSU D&D - 25 March
Singapore Dance Delight - 27 March
Gin's I-AM: The System Choreographer's Ball - 29 March
Uni Admission - whenever I am free
Visit NTU - ??
So, any ideas how to clone myself? lol
I guess, this is why I love the fucked up life I have
Some times, I just cant believe how confused I can get
haha
till then
Bye World
Sunday, February 14, 2010
WHEN THERES A GUY CALLED PERCY
Watched Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief yesterday with Shauna and Nicole Shaan.
And the movie is so freakin and so totally awesomee!!
I think its beyond awesome!! and the humour is so wicked!! It just made me LMFAO around the theatre!!
And I think its the first few times that the both of them watched movies with me
so just have to apologize how noisy I can be. LOL
But it is seriously so hilarious! Its like they really set the funny parts at the right timings! and of course, me having freeedom of speech esp in cinemas, you just have to put up the embarassment with me =]
Well, I cant really say much about the movie, coz y'all have to watch it yourselves!
Its something like Clash of the Titans but with a modern twist
OMG
Talking abot Clash of the Titans, that is SSOOOOOO the next movie that I'm SOOOO going to watch!!
like seriously..
O. M. G. ooOOoOOmMMmmyYyYyygGgOoOooDddDdD
I still remembered its original one during the 1981 or something!
and can you believe it that my uncle got me watching that at primary 2??
And since then, I kept on watching it over and over and over and OVER again..
gosh, those LaserDisc (LD) days..
You know, back when the CDs are bigger than your heads? haha!
Below is the poster, in case you were thinking on a movie that is not the same as what I just said
UNIVERSITY ADMISSIONS
Here it comes another important phase of my life
Well, I never thought that this moment would come, but it does now
Gosh, and talking about how stressful about making the right choice in life
esp in academics that is so gonna affect your future, like in a totally massive way
And I'm just stuck as to where I reallly wanna go to..
Have I tell y'all how confusing and such massive headache that me and andy had to think about this
Goshh..
Well, most of my classmates have already made their choices..
And actually, I have already made my choices, its just that, this time, I really have to double check them
Obviously Im not gonna get tricked again like how I did for my poly admission
OMG, I cant believe how dumb I am at that point of time..
But oh wells, graduating from this course soon!
3 years just passed by so fast didnt they?
So, before I really submit my admissions, I really had to make a few more justifications and investigations
=]
CHINESE NEW YEAR!!
So, this new year is the year of the Tiger.. ROOOAAARRRR!
And since it is the tiger, I think everyone's getting more fierce..
Well, I dunno... Angry ppl at every corner, even myself, I find my temper has risen..
maybe not that much.. like by 2.5 %?? lol
well, wadever it is, my lil sister has finally reached her full 12 cycle!
meaning, she's 12 years old now!!
omg, and i rmbered those days when it reached my horse year. It feels so awesome!
Its like the animal cycle has completed one round and is here again to make another cycle!
How kool is that?? lol
Anyways, to all my chinese friends,
basically I can just say to all my friends since most of them are chinese
I wish you a HAPPY ROARING NEW YEAR!
May you be blessed with good health and fortune!
Don't eat so much, coz later you will be mistaken as one of the oranges! haha
Don't gamble so much! Don't drink so much!
You can lose all your money but dont lose yourself aite!
And rmbr Project R.E.D P.A.C.K.E.T.S aite! Collect them all! haha!
=]
JOYEUSE SAINT VALENTIN!
To all my beloved friends Hapy Valentine's as well!
For love makes the world go round! haha
And specially to you. =]
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Hey World!
So its about time that I figured I should bring some life to this blog
Sorry, but i think I'm not good at keeping blogs
I think I'm gonna reskin it
Well, yeap so here it is.
So, this is the only opportunity that I could spend time blogging after the whole months of busy-ness in my retarded life
Well, not to be unappreciative of my life now, but lets just say, the rocky sides of life.
I'm going to do an update on what I had done for the past few months
Its just for memories and not on the art of boasting or wadsoever, at the same time, you might want to skip this whole chunk
UPDATES
A quick update on myself after SIP in terms of school work:
- Had a gruelling time completing my MP/FYP, yet again, which has nothing to do with what I crammed in my brains throughout the whole 3 years of poly. But on the bright side, achieved to acquire new and useful skills.
- Presentation for MP was okay i guess, but not up to my expectations. Just hope I can get excellent grade for it.
- Had project datelines that are back-to-back with one another, especially when new ones start to come in when another has been completed.
- Tests. As usual. Sucking every last brain cells I had for them.
And an update on my dance life:
- Did the President's Star Charity on MJ Tribute with Nicole Claire and other dancers together with O Crew representing Oschool. Great experience in deed.
- Had a blast on Recital this year.
- Joined a competition with a collaboration of people from the streets and the studio; Mazlan, Andreas Chua, Renni, Joycelyn and Andee. Awesome experience and made friends at the same time.
- Bird Cage man for a Sounds Like Saturday event together with Andy Toh, Frankie and KaiWen. Total freshness thanks to Ryan.
- Currently, got myself doing a Lor'real Show with Jas Lee, Tyron, Jacky, and other dancers.
- Currently, preparing for concert with myself being responsible of an item and also all the other items that I brilliantly put myself into.
- Currently, venturing and trying my best for modern dance and at least to do it well with its basics before graduation.
- Currently, preparing for SDD with the Kids I.D. Proudly representing you Andreas Tan (White Kid), Andy Toh (Happy Kid), Frankie (Hong Kid), Pang Yang (Ti Ki-d) and myself (Brown Kid).
END OF THE LAP
So, the last test of my entire poly life was done.
My last presentation and project had all been gone through the last week.
We even met up with our lecturers and tutors for the last time during the last week.
Basically all of them wished for the best of our future.
At that point of time, I totally felt some mixed emotions.
Its like, gosh, I cant believe my poly life is gonna end.
I still remember the first day of my poly days, and now its like counting down to mark its end.
I used to think that graduation is kool, but now its like some rotten apple that I don't ever want to face.
It just sucks to put an end on something that you liked, treasured and especially that is so memorable.
I dont know about the rest, but this is
the point of my life that I've made the change,
the point where I thought to be so brave to make decisions on my own,
the point where I made friends whom really cared,
the point where I actually trusted people,
the point where I have broken my boundaries,
the point where I believed in myself in securing my future,
the point where I see that there is still hope in wadever I strive in,
the point where I ventured into my talents,
the point where I had the greatest opportunities of all,
and definitely
the point where I thought I would never ought to leave.
okay, so I feel like some f**ktard to feel so emo at this point of time.
Better save some of these emotions on the graduation ceremony.
And also, I am so not gonna tear now.
Definitely, this is not the first time where I had to face such separations of which that are close to my heart
But the fact that you know you had to, just hurts.
okay, this ends now
till then-
I think I felt theres something going on,
but i think its against the norm to acknowledge it
So its about time that I figured I should bring some life to this blog
Sorry, but i think I'm not good at keeping blogs
I think I'm gonna reskin it
Well, yeap so here it is.
So, this is the only opportunity that I could spend time blogging after the whole months of busy-ness in my retarded life
Well, not to be unappreciative of my life now, but lets just say, the rocky sides of life.
I'm going to do an update on what I had done for the past few months
Its just for memories and not on the art of boasting or wadsoever, at the same time, you might want to skip this whole chunk
UPDATES
A quick update on myself after SIP in terms of school work:
- Had a gruelling time completing my MP/FYP, yet again, which has nothing to do with what I crammed in my brains throughout the whole 3 years of poly. But on the bright side, achieved to acquire new and useful skills.
- Presentation for MP was okay i guess, but not up to my expectations. Just hope I can get excellent grade for it.
- Had project datelines that are back-to-back with one another, especially when new ones start to come in when another has been completed.
- Tests. As usual. Sucking every last brain cells I had for them.
And an update on my dance life:
- Did the President's Star Charity on MJ Tribute with Nicole Claire and other dancers together with O Crew representing Oschool. Great experience in deed.
- Had a blast on Recital this year.
- Joined a competition with a collaboration of people from the streets and the studio; Mazlan, Andreas Chua, Renni, Joycelyn and Andee. Awesome experience and made friends at the same time.
- Bird Cage man for a Sounds Like Saturday event together with Andy Toh, Frankie and KaiWen. Total freshness thanks to Ryan.
- Currently, got myself doing a Lor'real Show with Jas Lee, Tyron, Jacky, and other dancers.
- Currently, preparing for concert with myself being responsible of an item and also all the other items that I brilliantly put myself into.
- Currently, venturing and trying my best for modern dance and at least to do it well with its basics before graduation.
- Currently, preparing for SDD with the Kids I.D. Proudly representing you Andreas Tan (White Kid), Andy Toh (Happy Kid), Frankie (Hong Kid), Pang Yang (Ti Ki-d) and myself (Brown Kid).
END OF THE LAP
So, the last test of my entire poly life was done.
My last presentation and project had all been gone through the last week.
We even met up with our lecturers and tutors for the last time during the last week.
Basically all of them wished for the best of our future.
At that point of time, I totally felt some mixed emotions.
Its like, gosh, I cant believe my poly life is gonna end.
I still remember the first day of my poly days, and now its like counting down to mark its end.
I used to think that graduation is kool, but now its like some rotten apple that I don't ever want to face.
It just sucks to put an end on something that you liked, treasured and especially that is so memorable.
I dont know about the rest, but this is
the point of my life that I've made the change,
the point where I thought to be so brave to make decisions on my own,
the point where I made friends whom really cared,
the point where I actually trusted people,
the point where I have broken my boundaries,
the point where I believed in myself in securing my future,
the point where I see that there is still hope in wadever I strive in,
the point where I ventured into my talents,
the point where I had the greatest opportunities of all,
and definitely
the point where I thought I would never ought to leave.
okay, so I feel like some f**ktard to feel so emo at this point of time.
Better save some of these emotions on the graduation ceremony.
And also, I am so not gonna tear now.
Definitely, this is not the first time where I had to face such separations of which that are close to my heart
But the fact that you know you had to, just hurts.
okay, this ends now
till then-
I think I felt theres something going on,
but i think its against the norm to acknowledge it
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