HELLO HELLO..

in future, i think my posts will be done twice a week or maybe..
All coz of this busy life of mine..
So, just bear with it aite.. but then again, i will just wonder like who will really keep up to the posts in my blog.. hah..

Moving on.. life has been pretty much the same..
Its just that theres more pressure and more stuffs that I have to carry and bear my responsibilities on..
Be it SIP or dance or just simply my life in general...
I'm just afraid that the letter B for my name will never stand for wad it is anymore..
Instead it will be B for 'Busy' or somthing..
Other than that, other words will just be out of the point during this time..

Sadly, now everything that I will have to blog will be of the general of all generals..
Coz basically, I dont wanna leak any info out dumbly..
I mean, not that I have leaked any or something.. It is just to make sure..
Its only when I have to, then the post will be so direct that it will just hit you on the face..
But then again, most of the time I will just say it face to face coz blogging about a certain matter will just explain how childish one is and how unprofessional he/she handles the matter..
I mean, I have to agree on this.. if one is brave enough to let the whole world read wad he/she is facing and that wadever one is so unhappy about someone, then why not step up ur courage and bravery to just handle it how mature people do and just do it face to face rite?
Just dont understand some ppl..
Its like silently, U want ppl to know that you are not afraid to face ur problem, but is afraid to face it in reality..
GOSH, for once.. grow up..
To anyone who is reading this, I'm not saying this or referring it on anything or anyone.. Just have a feeling of writing this.. haha.. just got too engrossed with what I'm writing on..

As much as I dont wanna talk about this,
But this is a have to, I must say..
Actually I'm not really fussy about who I'm joining with in competitions..
I'm just happy to join with anyone, as long as he/she has the same goal and mindset as I am..
To be clear, my goal is to have fun working together and have a great experience together..
And also, for everyone to have an equal benefit with a fairshare of limelight for every member..
coz if u say working as a team, the limelight or attention shud be given as a group instead of focusing to an individual...
And also, i dont want the team to be like having an immature motive of having to show/prove oneself that he/she is better than the other guy/girl that you wanna compete with..
Coz clearly, such thing is so not needed coz its a competition.. And more importantly working as a team and having the same goal is the crucial point here, if one still wanna think about his/her own benefit..

Lets not get too serious...
Neways, God job for everyone who participated the Wheelbarrow Challenge aite!
Props to Nelson and Ryle for that awesome 16s of the race!
And also to the performers, awesome job as well.. great expereince of dancing on the tracks aye? haha..

oooo..
and and..
Now then I realized that TPDE is kinda a big group..
I mean comparing from other CCA group in TP is one thing..
But the other main one is due to the studio space that can fit million ants but only 30 dancers comfortably at a time..
This is so so so clear that TP have to built another studio somewhere..
And obviously a bigger one and not of those of a coffin's size..
Just transform that Gym into one of OUR studio luh...
I mean, those ppl who uses the gym is such show-off..
like their main objective of going to the gym is only to show how great their body is instead of working out like real men..
They dont even sweat as much as we dancers sweat in our studio luh..
Freakin gayshits..
Just wait till we maincomms make a petition and ask ALL of the Arts Group to sign in it as well about requesting one more studio using the gym's space..
The gym can just be placed sumwhere else.. like in the swimming pool..

Till then-

Updates to my blog was kinda lazy for me recently, coz now I have to update 2 blogs at a time alr..
Other than that I am just plain busy, or in fact very busy with the current situation of life that I'm in now..
Well, lets move on to my updates..

First up, 11th April was my birthday!
So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me! lol..
well, nuthing big actually, i'll just treat it as a normal day, like wad is so great for my existence in this world rite..
I gotta say thanks to those who celebrated with me.. I mean, mainly those who went for night-cycling at East Coast that is.. haha.. It was kinda kool, like a unique way of celebrating birthday.. lol! and also thanks to those who got the cake and the wishes.. Greatly appreciated aite! =]

Oh, and the night cycling was awesome! I mean, it was the first one that I've ever been to for the entire 18 years of my life.. but now I'm 19 luh that is.. heh..
We went from East Coast, to like Kallang, town area, Esplanade, and most importantly Marina Barrage! I mean, going to MB was my first time too.. And it is soo kool! I mean with all the infrastructures accompanied by the dimmed lights and the night skies, it is such a nice place to just sit around and be with ur frens while reminiscing those times back then.. or simply just fall asleep on..
But for us, we were like taking photos, laughing our asses off on some acts and jokes and also the disturbances and nuisances..
Well, i definitely remember the petrol stations and the bridge as our landmarks.. and also the feeling of rushing through the construction site while making our way to Marina Barrage..
It was all fun with the right companions.. But I was expecting the whole journey to be more tiring though.. lol!
Looking forward for the next one that is.. =]

Anyways, moving on..
Its kinda iritating coz each day you have something to write about, but u cant coz ur tooo tired..
I mean, talk about mentally drained.. coz every day, my creative juices will just have to be squashed out from the brain till every drop due to this product design for my SIP and the only way I can refill it is by sleeping.. and thats another problem coz i dont really sleep that early as I'm kinda used to sleeping at 1-2am everyday.. and another problem will be to wake up at 5.45am the next morning to get ready for SIP the next day.. pretty much an irritating routine for me aye..

There are also new responsibilities, such as the one I'm in for TPDE.. Well, those who are in shud know my position.. It's pretty much a new role for me to take up, and wad great responsibilities it holds I would say..
Every step you make is seen by everyone of the club, and every move will just make ppl judge u even more.. So, in a way, I think I felt a lil restricted with my actions.. But I'm trying to let me to be myself while carrying out the tasks...
Well, it might seem easy as to speak to a whole lot of people interms of a presentation or while teaching a cheer to a bunch of freshies.. But its definitely a different feel, and a different breeze as to talk in front of ur members as a leader.. especially when u know that at times ur not that good..

One more thing, it is just very questionable as to how fake ppl can be..
I mean, at one point, he can be very nice to u and joke with u and all that sorta stuffs.. but on the other hand, he will start to ignore you and treat u like some hi-bye friend as he found someone better or 'kooler'..
So, izzit like a 'wad-the-fuck' kinda situation? or maybe I'm just in a wrong..
But either way, it doesnt seem to care for me anymore..
I mean, I tried.. but figured that it was kinda waste of my precious limited time..
I just dont know whether ur treating someone as a real fren or just simply using them..

Updates!

okay okay...
its been awhile since I last updated..
and that line has been so cliche now and then..
but oh wells..

and first up is....
CONCERT!
It was an awesome experience and great job everyone!
Everyone = dancers, audience, Production peeps (for once)..
And most especially to the dancers, not any ordinary dancers but TPDE dancers!..
I think all of us did an awesome job..
I mean without our awesomeness the concert/musical will fail rite?
And of course all the trainings, bruises, blood, sweat, tears and bonding sessions..
All these will be of something that we treasure the most and also an experience that none other have ever felt the same way as the one that TPDE has it and does it..
And not to forget all the misunderstandings and miscommunications..
This double trouble will always have a toll in any relationship and friendship that we have throughout this journey and of course, this will definitely test oneself on how mature he/she handle stuffs and thus, help him/her grow into a better person with a better prospect in life..
Anyways, thank you everyone for making this a success and also an enjoyable process for each other..
Can see that most improved, be it dance wise or acting wise, but theres no limit to further improvements..
So, good job once again yo! =]
I rmbered my SIP mate was like asking me " so, no celebration after ur dance performance (concert) uh?"
I said "the concert itself is the celebration for us.."
and she was shocked..
guess non-dancers don't know how it feels to achieve such great aspects in dance life..
but 'oh wells' to her.. haha
and I'm so definitely gonna miss all of u guys man..
y'all mean a lot to me and thnk y'all for every single thing in the process..
Whuddup y'all.. =]

Next, congrats to those who made it for the Main Committee positions..
And for me, i dunno whether to be happy or sad or wadever feelings that I can feel..
Guess, I'm gonna put my responsibility and commitment to it..
and obviously, sacrifice my FO for next year..
But wadever it is, an organisation is still an organisation..
I will not let myself fall with such heavy responsibilty assigned..
I wil just have to grow from it, learn and improve on it..
And of course, to make TPDE a strong and bonded dance group with an unbeatable organisation team of main comm..
Point to note, everyone is different and I'm not gonna follow any footsteps but of my own..
Like most said to me, dont care wad other ppl say.. coz the overall thing is about me managing the team..
thnks aite.. not gonna let y'all down..

moving on, is my SIP..
The workload is like..
WOW..
I mean, it requires so much creativity and innovation and not to mention, have to have a mindset of a picky customer..
But note somthing, I am definitely not complaining; I'm just overwhelmed with how boring and stressful working adult life can be and will be.. gosh, talking about being so silent while doing the work and no one to talk to except to urself or to sumone in MSN..
well, I'm not blaming my SIP mate coz we dont have anything in common to talk about, guess we have our own vibe on life.. haha..
But focusing on sumthing that we have to work on for like 8.30am till 6pm(except for lunchbreak) is so not me.. I wud just easily lose focus and go surf other website discreetly.. guess, its just not my luck to have a manager sit right behind me.. darn..
Other than that, I'm just greatful to have such a good and friendly working space.. And the people in my dept are ever so nice and welcoming.. even my supervisor is such a great gal.. In short, I'm just blessed to have them..
Guess I'll just have to get used to it for the next 4 months..
I can do it! haha..

So neways, went market survey with my supervisor, Patricia, another employee of the same dept, Trina, and my SIP mate, Valerie..
We went from Orchard Rd, where we visit Taka and Paragon, then to Tanglin Rd to visit Tanglin Mall, Natuzzi and Friven & Co, and lastly to Bugis to visit Bugis Street and Parco Bugis Junction..
And btw, its my first time going thru the stretch of Tanglin Rd where awesome malls and buidlings such as The Forum, Orchard Hotel and Hard Rock Cafe are located..
and seriously, the furnitures in Natuzzi are so so so awesomely dope and classy! I mean, I don't even know that branded names such as Fendi and Versace have their own line of home furnishings.. and the designs, is just so drop dead gorgeous man.. can u even imagine one cushion costed ard 1000 singapore dollars??!!
well, to think of it, whoever buys it is stupid luh.. LOL.. besides the fact that he/she is effing wealthy.. I mean, who wud just buy a cushion for that kinda price man.. at least have a furni or sumthing.. haha..
So, adding to a list of aims I wanna acheive in the future, is to have at least one furni from Fendi..
LOL! trust me, they are so crazily beautiful..

Till then..

TMR'S CONCERT!

hey peeps..
So yea, as seen from the title..
TMR'S CONCERT!!!!!
so, all the best to everyone who's performing coz i think we'll make the best out of it!
Its gonna be a blast out of the fairytale.. =]

The day is finally here..
Time to strut our stuff and show the audience that we have more than just dance capability..
And also to show that we, TPDE, are versatile yo! we are just full of expressions that will just irritate the ass out of YOU! lol!..
So, no tix for our concert? too bad.. coz u seriously gonna miss it..
haha..

For myself, I sacrificed quite alot for this production..
for instance, my FO.. which I'm gonna miss them for the entire six days..
well, not entirely coz of that.. reason being is that I'm having my SIP at the same time..
and of course, learnt quite a lot from this journey of self discovery thru concert trainings..
saw different sides to ppl.. and been thru kinda quite a number of obstacles..
but through it all, I think our production is gonna be AWESOME..
So, lets do it tmr yo!

Well, gotta go to bed soon..
bye

Today was the first day of attachment at RWS..
Everything was okay at first... and funny that I didnt really screw up the first day coz usually I will for any other first days of other activities or events..
Helped the retail merchandising dept move from 5th storey to 2nd storey..
Did some admin stuffs..
Then comes to the presentation.. whereby they presented us on our jobscope and all that was expected..
well, all i can say is that, I'm so gonna be darn busy man.. i mean, they're like expecting us to design for them 100+ products that are of their RWS souvenir shop and some other retail outlets.. So, me and Valerie, a coursemate who had the same intern as mine, had to work together for this which due in 2 months time.. gawd..
So, obviously, my memory space is like full and still expanding as I was trying hard to absorb everything that the supervisor had presented coz it is sumwad important for the designing stuff.. most likely to be mentally draining perhaps.. and talk about knowing the history of the famous designers that helped to design the resort such as Michael Graves and Chihuly.. Well, all I can say that these guys are dope.. coz their designs are awesome..

Then, went for concert/musical practice..
Only been able to attend the last full run due to this SIP..
And seriously, I'm just a total wack on stage just now..
I'm just disapppointed with myself..
I've never been so weak till i literally gave up in a dance while fulling out...
damn it luh..
But i think partly is due to my fault though...
If only I would not have skipped my meals, then this annoying gastric wont occur to me and I have more energy to dance.. well, i tot i could make it without lunch and dinner, coz i did that before..
but aside from that, I just felt like crap luh juz now.. worst than crap maybe..
I mean, I'm gonna miss all those clean up sessions and stage blocking juz coz of this SIP..
And seriously, the guilt that I'm feeling now is kinda overbearing..
I just dont wanna disappoint the choreographers.. and importantly not to disappoint myself..
neways, thnks for those who encouraged me and asked about me aite..
I appreciate it.. and those msges that y'all send me..
I will work hard.. we will work hard too in making this concert a blast..

Well, gotta go to bed soon..
wakin up at 5.30am tmr morn for another day of attachment..
til then..