the past few weeks has been hell.. in all aspects of my life..
It's juz crap all the way through..
Projects, assignments, quizzes, tests..
Then theres dance..
soon after, personal problems start to intervene and all that..
Well, I dont wanna talk about it anymore, rather move on than pondering about it coz it just made me lose the shine in my life day by day..
I guess I managed to act it through.. showing people that I'm okay and stuff..
Coz i dont want them to waste their time to worry bout me as I'd rather see them moving on with their daily life..
To those who actually asked about me and are concerned, I gotta say thanks to you guys aite.. really appreciate it.. and those people I hang out with these past few days, you guys really helped a lot.. although i don't tend to show that I really mean it.. coz u guys really made me forget about the probs and hard times that I was facing at that point of time.. All that laughters, jokes and silly stuffs.. really thnks a bunch.. =]
On the other hand.. there are also a lot of stuffs going around too..
But i rather be general about all of these stuffs to avoid any gossips about it..
Well there's one thing for sure that I have to talk about..
Friendship..
It can be quite a strong bond when its kept close within the group..
And in order for such close and strong bond to occur, every member of that group have to sacrifice something so as to maintain that relationship strong..
Whether its the flaws, attributes, character or even the behaviour of that indiviual..
Every single member thats within the friendship must learn how to set their differences aside and are willing to accept the member on the way he or she brings him or herself out to you..
Of course there comes a time where a one is not happy about the other in terms of bringing his/her way out to people.. whether its being friendly which at times, can be misunderstood by the other member as flirting or wadsoever..
But when that happens, the other member must learn how to listen..
esp listen to what he/she has to explain coz wad u assumed bout him/her might be wrong...
and all these small stuffs can result to an end to the friendship..
especially if that friendship has been brought along in their lives for so long which can go way way back for as long os 4 to 5 years..
So, this is the point of time where all of their ego, pride, or even dignity of either member to be set aside and come together to talk things out.. just like matured people do..
coz poly life aint secondary school life whereby you can just leave it aside and act as if it will comes back to normal again..
As people grow older, they tend to be more emotional and their thinking should be more rational rather than having juz one straight through thinking phase..
So, if none of the members wanna make the first move in getting the friendship back to normal again, this is juz to show that they are still being immature about it and thus, the friendship that they had means nothing to them..
You can say that, it means a lot to you but its juz that we're not talking.. isnt it the same as one member waiting for the other member to say something first before he'she start talking to each other? this simply equates to " since we're not talking, i think we're through"..
darn.. its juz disappointing and heartbreaking at the same time to see such stuffs happening..
the friendship that was built since god knows when..
y cant they set aside their differences like they did before when they first met each other..
Think back of those happy memories that both of u had together.. all those wacky and funny moments both of u shared in the past.. all that laughters, jokes and crazzy times..
The times whereby u guys help each other in terms of a lot of aspects that u guys shud know luh..
Well, hope that something will be done and not to leave this hanging.. juz like a dried wilted leaf hanging onto the branch, just waiting for the wind to blow it off to the ground and be decomposed within weeks..
One must also change his/her ways if theres nothing else one can do to make the frenship better.. coz other members might haf tried to ask the other person to change but resulted with no progress..
And please do apologise if one knows that he/she is in the wrong... coz theres no point holding up that ego for so long coz in the end that ego will juz deteriorate oneself from being with the others..
And cmon, trust them.. frens for so long and yet one still dont believe in ur close frens? then wads the point of having the wrd 'close' in the first place..
Well, I ant siding on anyone coz in the end it is still ur problem that y'all haf to decide on how to handle.. I'm juz here to help but y'all are the one who have to make the right decisions on this..
All the best then aye..
Anyways, my projects and quizzes are almost done for this term..
left with BCM individual assignment and Eaud labwork..
And after that, its mugging time for the end of term exam..
gosh, all of these haf made my life in poly shorter and shorter day by day..
gotta slow down.. by first, slowing down my walking pace..
Even Royston told me that I walked very fast at times like its as if I'm rushing for sumting..
Hmm.. so, must slow down walking pace and see the world that's been revolving since the past 18 years of my life and more.. gotta appreciate the surrounding and open my eyes on the stuffs thats happening around me..
Last night, joined Suria, RB, Joel, Eulene, Tivona and Jas Oon at KFC..
Made paper frogs.. jumping paper frogs to be exact.. haha
their kinda cute luh.. lol
Well then..
i'm off to get started with my BCM project yo..
till then..
