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Helllo peeps!

So the start of May hasnt been as good
But I believe something happier and better gonna come by
And ya, I totally dont know why i woke up damn freakin early today
Went to sleep at ard 3am last night
and today, found myself staring at the clock at 8.30am!
unbelievable!
tried to sleep back, but its not working though!
so, decided to blog and update myself in fb!

latest thing that happened:
SAFETY IS IN OUR HANDS FLASH MOB
i so gotta totally comment on this one!
the manager seriously, and i mean seriously serious
need to look up on the meaning of flash mob
and also read up on 'Dummies 101: Flash mob' to know how to execute one!
lol!
its like a freakin performance la! haha
i mean, which flashmob has a normal entrance on a stage some more!
coz flash mobs are suppose to be like a surprise kinda thing and on the streets
but this one is like telling the audience theres gonna be a flashmob
and also, a stage is up for us to dance on!
haha! totally simidaiji man!
but the pay ok la, not gonna complain since i jonied it at the eleventh hour
its a good thing i manage to catch the steps fast enough though lol
and adding to it, we have to like report at suntec at 7 in the morning!!
so can you believe the number of zombies i have to meet up with in the train? lol
that includes myself.. haha!
some peeks to see:

Kevin and me!

me in the nurse uniform that im suppose to be in! haha

slacking at subway before the flashmob performance

Me, spongebob and Yuko!

Junko and me!

Safety is in Our Hands!!! =]

NIKE FACTORY OUTLET

So, thanks to the new frens I make from the above mentioned event

I got to know about this outlet and the kool sale!

the whole store has a 20% discount to it, but the day that me, kevin and keiths went,

we have like 60% discounts!!!

so awesome!!

So, i got myself a nike silver/grey jacket and

a white base nike shoe with neon yellow touches

will upload the photo of these awesome stuffs once i took photo of them!

overall, i think most of the stuffs are more for athletics and sports

but nonetheless, some stuff are kool too!

like the windbreakers and some tees there

not much of the shoes though

and at the same time, get to explore an isolated mall in the corner of singapore

specifically, clementi

which is the West Coast Mall!

coz this is wear the nike outlet store was held at!

and its isolation is damn superb till it made itself damn boring!

lol

NIGHT CYCLING!
Had an awesome time night cycling with my awesome buddies
there were me, andy, joycelyn, frankie, iris, andreas, sam, kaiwen, kat, tim, kevin and jj
We didnt really cycled around Singapore though
But really had the koolest companions for the whole night!
Half way thru riding in town, we met up with Alex and his frens!
lol! can see him being so sore towards us! hahaha
We shall organise another one with him maybe lol

SOME AWESOME PICS

thanks to meichin for these pics man!

awesome indeed!!

these were taken before SDD finals started:

Thanks loads meichin!

=]

Its easy to fall in love, but its not easy to maintain a relationship
It takes both effort to make things work
Still learning my ever greatest weakness, hope you understand

I never wished to say this
but i just don't understand
i just feel that today is the worst day
needed to share it to someone
but figured i will be such an irritant
bottling up is just the best of choices
i just hate myself for having too much emotions
i just hate myself for having too much thoughts
i just hate myself for having too much things kept away from ppl around me
even the closest cant understand me
no wonder some ppl result to suicide
I just so blessed to have the patience

I dont understand
i just dont feel as if im not appreciated of wad ive done
i tried making ppl happy, to understand their needs
and do everything that i could risk myself doing
but i think everything just dont seems to be enough
or is it im just a loser that cant understand other ppl
i tried to, but i dont know whether i did it successfully
but at least try to understand me
do you even know wad my needs are?
even if u know, i doubt u will make effort to do it
you are not even there when i needed someone
i think you dont even know that im feeling this way
I guess i dont mean anything to others
just a small explanation,
or evena sorry would work for me
guess im to be blamed for not trying to understand
coz blaming myself is the only way for me to work things out
and i dont want to put wad we have into jeopardy
i dont know if you will read this
but this is how i feel
and to anyone who reads this, the 'you' i used is just based on general terms

sometimes i feel thankful for those who taught me the art of being superficial
so that others wont know wad i truely feel inside
just when i found someone to tell wad i felt inside
i was considered irritating
so, wadever thats left inside of me,
rest in peace

i miss gin
all the dance practices, and all her words
im always looking forward for her class
although i didnt go for them
but watching them on youtube just brings a smile on my face
it just makes me feel joyful whenever i felt sad or lost
just by watching i felt the guidance in her
ever since she left for LA, the sense of guidance have lost within me
theres nothing to look forward to every week

gosh, everything just made me teared for no reason
hate this lost feeling
somehow these tears just rolled without my intentions
i cant even stop it
i feel so stupid for tearing down now
i just feel so fucked up



bye world

Hello hello!


Gosh, its been ages since i blogged!
Partly due to my laziness to type down wadever i've done in my life
Soon, I'll be updating the a lot on my life within this post
So stay tune!!
Look out for updates on:

PHUKET TRIP
UNIVERSITY ADMISSIONS RESULTS
GEMS 5: LABYRINTH
I-AM: THE SYSTEM CHOREOGRAPHER'S BALL
LOREAL SHOW SLICKS VS STREETS
F&N FLASHMOB
TPDE CHALET
11TH APRIL
FRESHMAN ORIENTATION CAMP AY2010/2011
TPSU D&D
VENOS LOVE CHALET
MOVIES
MY LIFE

Hello world

LIFE
Life for me has been quite fucked up.. in a good way
But i think thats equivalent to wads normal in my life everyday lol
Im loving those fucked up moments in life, if not there wont be any risk living it rite?
Your life gonna be so bored if its too perfect
Most probly will just get you to sit down and stare and think of how perfect your life is
like so wad the fuck.. haha!
Even new experiences that adds more risks and fun to it
New obligations, new obstructions, new limitations that always get in my way
Isn't that wad ppl like to do to you and see how you swallow the pain
Guess I'm kinda numb and love that kinda pain even more
I'm so loving this weird post lol
Makes ppl think I'm weird too
Go ahead and think that I'm weird then
As long as i know wad im doing
But the thing is, do you even know wad you are doing?
Stupid fools and bitter hearts.. haha

Since I had unofficially graduated
I craved to be more adventurous
And thanks to those who adds more definition to my life
Just wished I could stay out more often and see the world
Should I just tell my parents that I am dieing and will be soon dead 
then comes back 5 months later coz I had been resurrected? haha
I just told myself, you wish!

So much for having a normal life rite?
Thanks for making my life fucked up since primary school
I'm loving it more

OK, so i figured I should stop typing this way
before someone actually think that I'm psychotic
basically those who think so, had their life too perfect
Talking about being so sore
LOL..

NUS VISIT
Went to NUS with Andy and Yuxin the other time
Basically we wanted to submit our uni admission
And also to have a feel like how's the place gonna be like if we were to admit into the school
Gosh, the first impression of it was like so so so so so dreadful!!
Can u imagine that we even had problems and so much difficulty to get ot the uni?
I think its a sign that we are not going there to study.. LOL
NO luh.. lets be optimistic shall we?
haha
And when we get to their admission office, their whole place are so dead
like D E A D dead.. even the people there were like as if they had been zombified
haha..
and talk about nerds.. they just irritate me more and more.. though i used to be one
Its like I feel like telling straight to their face to GET A LIFE!
I mean, those whom I know that goes to uni are such fun ppl
But the ones we saw are like so so... yea
Bet they are JC students.. OOOPPPPSS
lolI can tell you that once I'm in there
I'm gonna be like shouting to Andy from one corner to another corner
like " HHHEEEEEEYYYYYYY!!!"
But i totally love their Business School
Like theres a sudden spurt of life once you step into it
Its like, theres a total difference when we walked into Social Science Faculty and the Business School
Just hoping I can get into that school! =]
So, the next uni we gonna be visitting is NTU
Maybe soon I guess.. lol

BOSSINI
The rehearsal was kinda fun and interesting.. in deed
Andee was the choreographer
And there were me, andy, joycelyn, frankie, nicole claire, meichin, nora and some RP guy in it!
So basically we are the dancers.. haha
Good experience though!
And each of us are given like a dressing suited for us by Bossini
I can say that mine was not bad, maybe the hippest out of them.. oops.. lol!
Andy's was like his usual self going to town look haha
Frankie's was like his usual stereotyped self which is either like a small boy or an ah pek! haha
And the girls looked awesome as well!
So, I cant tell much about it, coz it will not be as surprising
Just await for us to be on the screen aite =]
Cant wait for the actual videoshoot this weekend!

MOVIESSS
Caught quite a number of movies lately
like Percy Jackson again with Andy and Tim during the second stay out
The Tournament with Joycelyn, Frankie, Andy and Joey
and i cant believe i slept through Tooth Fairy at one point of the movie
theres more, but i cant rmb wad i watched lol
oh yea, and the recent one was Wolfman which I watched with Andy
Found ourselves staying up the whole night in town after that.. lol!
Ventured through one part of Orchard too

COMMITMENTS
And again, I found myself caught with a lot of commitments in a short period of time
Lets list it down shall we?
Here it goes:
Bossini MV Video shoot - 27 Feb
Sounds Like Saturday! Birdcage men - 27 Feb
Bossini Instructional Video shoot - 28 Feb
VENOS LOVE chalet - 10-12 March
Lor'Real Streets VS Slicks Krumping Perfromance - 13 March
TPDE GEM 5 Concert - 19 & 20 March
TPSU D&D - 25 March
Singapore Dance Delight - 27 March
Gin's I-AM: The System Choreographer's Ball - 29 March
Uni Admission - whenever I am free
Visit NTU - ??

So, any ideas how to clone myself? lol
I guess, this is why I love the fucked up life I have
Some times, I just cant believe how confused I can get
haha

till then
Bye World

WHEN THERES A GUY CALLED PERCY

Watched Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief yesterday with Shauna and Nicole Shaan.

And the movie is so freakin and so totally awesomee!!

I think its beyond awesome!! and the humour is so wicked!! It just made me LMFAO around the theatre!!

And I think its the first few times that the both of them watched movies with me

so just have to apologize how noisy I can be. LOL

But it is seriously so hilarious! Its like they really set the funny parts at the right timings! and of course, me having freeedom of speech esp in cinemas, you just have to put up the embarassment with me =]

Well, I cant really say much about the movie, coz y'all have to watch it yourselves!

Its something like Clash of the Titans but with a modern twist

OMG

Talking abot Clash of the Titans, that is SSOOOOOO the next movie that I'm SOOOO going to watch!!

like seriously..

O. M. G. ooOOoOOmMMmmyYyYyygGgOoOooDddDdD

I still remembered its original one during the 1981 or something!

and can you believe it that my uncle got me watching that at primary 2??

And since then, I kept on watching it over and over and over and OVER again..

gosh, those LaserDisc (LD) days..

You know, back when the CDs are bigger than your heads? haha!

Below is the poster, in case you were thinking on a movie that is not the same as what I just said

UNIVERSITY ADMISSIONS

Here it comes another important phase of my life

Well, I never thought that this moment would come, but it does now

Gosh, and talking about how stressful about making the right choice in life

esp in academics that is so gonna affect your future, like in a totally massive way

And I'm just stuck as to where I reallly wanna go to..

Have I tell y'all how confusing and such massive headache that me and andy had to think about this

Goshh.. 

Well, most of my classmates have already made their choices..

And actually, I have already made my choices, its just that, this time, I really have to double check them

Obviously Im not gonna get tricked again like how I did for my poly admission

OMG, I cant believe how dumb I am at that point of time..

But oh wells, graduating from this course soon!

3 years just passed by so fast didnt they?

So, before I really submit my admissions, I really had to make a few more justifications and investigations

=]

CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

So, this new year is the year of the Tiger.. ROOOAAARRRR!

And since it is the tiger, I think everyone's getting more fierce..

Well, I dunno... Angry ppl at every corner, even myself, I find my temper has risen..

maybe not that much.. like by 2.5 %?? lol

well, wadever it is, my lil sister has finally reached her full 12 cycle!

meaning, she's 12 years old now!!

omg, and i rmbered those days when it reached my horse year. It feels so awesome!

Its like the animal cycle has completed one round and is here again to make another cycle!

How kool is that?? lol

Anyways, to all my chinese friends,

basically I can just say to all my friends since most of them are chinese

I wish you a HAPPY ROARING NEW YEAR!

May you be blessed with good health and fortune!

Don't eat so much, coz later you will be mistaken as one of the oranges! haha

Don't gamble so much! Don't drink so much!

You can lose all your money but dont lose yourself aite!

And rmbr Project R.E.D P.A.C.K.E.T.S aite! Collect them all! haha!

=]

JOYEUSE SAINT VALENTIN!

To all my beloved friends Hapy Valentine's as well!

For love makes the world go round! haha

And specially to you. =]

Hey World!

So its about time that I figured I should bring some life to this blog
Sorry, but i think I'm not good at keeping blogs
I think I'm gonna reskin it
Well, yeap so here it is.

So, this is the only opportunity that I could spend time blogging after the whole months of busy-ness in my retarded life
Well, not to be unappreciative of my life now, but lets just say, the rocky sides of life.
I'm going to do an update on what I had done for the past few months
Its just for memories and not on the art of boasting or wadsoever, at the same time, you might want to skip this whole chunk

UPDATES
A quick update on myself after SIP in terms of school work:
- Had a gruelling time completing my MP/FYP, yet again, which has nothing to do with what I crammed in my brains throughout the whole 3 years of poly. But on the bright side, achieved to acquire new and useful skills.
- Presentation for MP was okay i guess, but not up to my expectations. Just hope I can get excellent grade for it.
- Had project datelines that are back-to-back with one another, especially when new ones start to come in when another has been completed.
- Tests. As usual. Sucking every last brain cells I had for them.

And an update on my dance life:
- Did the President's Star Charity on MJ Tribute with Nicole Claire and other dancers together with O Crew representing Oschool. Great experience in deed.
- Had a blast on Recital this year.
- Joined a competition with a collaboration of people from the streets and the studio; Mazlan, Andreas Chua, Renni, Joycelyn and Andee. Awesome experience and made friends at the same time.
- Bird Cage man for a Sounds Like Saturday event together with Andy Toh, Frankie and KaiWen. Total freshness thanks to Ryan.
- Currently, got myself doing a Lor'real Show with Jas Lee, Tyron, Jacky, and other dancers.
- Currently, preparing for concert with myself being responsible of an item and also all the other items that I brilliantly put myself into.
- Currently, venturing and trying my best for modern dance and at least to do it well with its basics before graduation.
- Currently,  preparing for SDD with the Kids I.D. Proudly representing you Andreas Tan (White Kid), Andy Toh (Happy Kid), Frankie (Hong Kid), Pang Yang (Ti Ki-d) and myself (Brown Kid).


END OF THE LAP
So, the last test of my entire poly life was done.
My last presentation and project had all been gone through the last week.
We even met up with our lecturers and tutors for the last time during the last week.
Basically all of them wished for the best of our future.
At that point of time, I totally felt some mixed emotions.
Its like, gosh, I cant believe my poly life is gonna end.
I still remember the first day of my poly days, and now its like counting down to mark its end.
I used to think that graduation is kool, but now its like some rotten apple that I don't ever want to face.
It just sucks to put an end on something that you liked, treasured and especially that is so memorable.
I dont know about the rest, but this is
the point of my life that I've made the change,
the point where I thought to be so brave to make decisions on my own,
the point where I made friends whom really cared,
the point where I actually trusted people,
the point where I have broken my boundaries,
the point where I believed in myself in securing my future,
the point where I see that there is still hope in wadever I strive in,
the point where I ventured into my talents,
the point where I had the greatest opportunities of all,
and definitely
the point where I thought I would never ought to leave.

okay, so I feel like some f**ktard to feel so emo at this point of time.
Better save some of these emotions on the graduation ceremony.
And also, I am so not gonna tear now.
Definitely, this is not the first time where I had to face such separations of which that are close to my heart
But the fact that you know you had to, just hurts.
okay, this ends now
till then-

I think I felt theres something going on,
but i think its against the norm to acknowledge it