BROWNcompanion

2010-06-04T06:02:00.002+08:00

but to think again
no point for me writing the previous long post just for you
coz u dont even have the heart to feel wad others feel, esp me
i just wrote it, only for me
and for the consideration of u to realize what was going on the last time
learnt my lesson
i dunno if u had learnt urs
but it will be better for ur future prospects
till then
i'm ready to see u as a fren
just like wad u said
and i think its better that way
dont know if u will ever see me again or not

2010-06-02T16:44:00.007+08:00

Dear browncompanion,

Its been a while since i talked to you, or typed things to you
but i know u are there for me when I'm down
My heart was broken today, but not really shattered to pieces
it's my first ever time I've seriously fallen in love with someone
but the person didnt appreciate my love though we are together
squashed by a banana all i can say

I tried to explain, but it seems useless
I believed that we can make things between us work
but the person kept on doubting me
and keep on holding on to the flaws and mistakes I've made
and literally ignored all the efforts that I've tried to make the person happy
and make our relationship work between the both of us
I'm sure and not afraid to say that Ive made my mistakes
and am willing to change it and never do it agn
in order to maintain our happiness and the strentgh as a couple
but all seems to be a lil too late

My day started quite well
With good intentions of sharing how was my day like for the past few days
And also wanting to ask how have u been
as we didnt talked much for the past few days
and not to forget that i missed u
but came along this msg, when i was abt to share all this to u
hoping that it was a 'miss u too' or a simple question like 'have u had ur lunch?'
didnt turn out that way though
and left myself not having my first meal of the day till 10pm later
i was speechless, and left me thinking that wadever i did to regain your love back
was not appreciated and never been put into consideration
all of the effort, feelings, thoughts and good intention I had in mind for us has been crushed

I know I was very raw in this
But i feel that i'm getting better at it each day
and im thankful with your guidance
but each day when i told u that i love you and all, u never gave me that assurance back
so it makes me worried and wanting me to talk and msg u more and more each day
just for that assurance
and never tot it will be very suffocating for u
u shud have told me that u need space
and if only u opened up to me and tell me who ur frens were
coz i cared for u, and worried for u
i treat this relationship seriously
and i dont want to treat it like a joke, coz u meant so much to me
but maybe coz its a mistake to do so, coz u told me u didnt
but just so u know it, every relationship is a big deal to me
and i just think its wrong for u to compare with all the other relationship u had
coz every relationship is unique in its own
but its a pity u cant see and treasure the moments we had
coz wad i feel is that u are only thinking about urself
in ways whether i make u happy
i doubt u know whether im happy or any of my emotions
coz everything is about u, whether u had fun going out,
whether ur happy or not, whether this is boring,
whether this place is nice, whether its exciting,
and it all comes down to whether everything satisfies u
u never knew if it satisfies me
but to me, its okay coz my feelings for u are strong
and im willing to make all these sacrifices just for u
its just so hard to get u talking to me
coz u never tell me anything
and everything u expect me to assume
but when i assume something, it might be wrong
i think communication is very important in relationships
but ur not doing it to me, ur not telling me how u feel in the relationship till that day
so i just felt its unfair for me coz i never knew wad u felt
and worst when u told me that u want to avoid me
when i dont even know why is that so
ur not talking to me and telling me wad u feel in the first place
coz i believed when we talk, we can solve problems and mistakes are never made agn
then why do u think i wanna talk to u on the phone when we were together?
why do u think i cared to write for u all the letters?
so, this is why i feel its unfair, coz u never share with me ur feelings inside

i took time to reminisce things about u and us
i rmbered how much u disliked the drink coz of its smell
and also u disliked peanuts in ur chocolate or any forms
i rmbered that u dont like having onions and olives in ur subway sandwiches
i rmbered u not liking carl's jr when we went there once

i rmbered how much both of us like strawberry shortcake

i rmbred our first kiss along the boat quay
though it was quite awkward for me but i liked it
i rmb u saying that u like the way i touch u

i rmbered how much u like pink songs
and the first time u intro me to them
and esp emo-ing on that exact song
u brought me to like pink songs too, though i used to think its just ok
and all the songs that i sent u
the songs that we shared which are similar in liking
and rmb tearing for no reason
till now, i have saved some nice songs
and yet to tell u about it and send it to u

i rmbered the day when u expecting me to say good morning to you
when the first few msgs is about something else
i apologised and till then
i never failed to give u morning msgs and even bid you to sleep at night

i rmbered ur birthday celebration
on our first night picnic and us pitching up a tent
and how ur easily bruised by things that u tried doing urself
and at that point of time, i'm proud of u for at least trying to do it yourself
and stopped u from doing anything for i dont want u to have any unnessacery bruises
and all the things we had, like those sweet korean strawberries, grapes
and tons of candies and chocolates and chips
that i expected u to finish it coz of my small appetite
and the gift i gave u, help u to safeguard ur most important things
and also the card which u cant imagine how much effort ive done to make it awesome
and i rmbered how heavy the rain and how strong the wind was in the morning
when we worked together to remain the tent in an upright position
and i still rmb in our own 'couture' poses while doing so
and the connection and love we had

i rmbered helping u to dress up for some event
and a look at your wardrobe with neat clothings and dresses that u never tried or tried once
but i had to compliment you on how beautiful u looked that day
even recently, u managed to dress urself
no words can describe how proud i am to see u

i rmbered the time when we went to shop
when its just both of us
the feel of freedom and similar tastes
and the pendant which are special for the both of us
i still wear it at times and reminded me of u

i rmbered those times we spent in various places
and the love we shared
Wish i cud type it here, but i think u shud remember them

I rmbered asking u to come up with a list of things u wud like to do
before the reality of the world starts to kick in
i still kept it till now and even remembered it at the tip of my fingers
though u have accidentally lost it
and thought we cud do the things stated together
but it cracked my heart when u said u alr started doing it with someone else

I rmbered the lightsticks that glows 'I <3 U' on your carpark under ur block
people tot i was crazy when i did that
but i dont care to wad ppl think of me coz of how much feelings i had for u
and that rose, u shud know wad it means
but guess all doesnt mean anything to u
even i almost risked myself from being caught by the police for doing so

i just hoped that something better would carry on between us
but then u told me that its difficult to face me as a lover
when all this while i tried to do so myself
so, u got me thinking that all this while u are giving me a falso hope
when i started to feel more for u
when i started to learn how to trust u more
and just to let you know, i have made plans for us in ways we can spend quality time together
and for u to feel loved by me agn
but i just feel u took a short time to think through

its just painful when at times u tried to avoid me
and only replied me in a few sentences
i just felt neglected
and at that point of time, i just tot u were self-centred
coz u dont seem to care how much i have done for u to show my love
and u barely show any appreciation towards me
maybe i was wrong, coz maybe i were to blame
for not understanding u enough

maybe u failed to see wad i see in us
coz like u said, ur expectation is high
i know i dont drive, but told u im getting a license soon enough
and i have plans to drive u ard places
but it seems time is running short for u, and u cant seem to wait eh

Im seriously sorry for all the things that ive done
that seems to go against wad u tot
and also for not being there when u needed me the most
when u are damn upset with how things forces you to change your course of life
i will never forget that mistake
i rmbred promising to you that i will always be there for u when u needed me
and i rmbered that one mistake when i doubted u going out with your fren
i am terribly sorry coz im worried and i need assurance from u
this is just to show how much i concerned abt you
but im willing to change myself and not to repeat all the mistakes
just to maintain this relationship
this is to show how much i respect us being together
i dont know if u have seen the changes ive made in me
coz you have been strongly swayed by all the mistakes ive made
but no other words can describe how much this relationship mean to me
and how much im willing to sacrifice for us

if only u cud hold on to us longer
but i guess all this is too late to be said
just hoped u read this, so that u know wad i feel
and the oblivion im in before u asked for our separate ways
just to let you know, im willing to do anything for u
and also, give all the love and care that u deserved
i really really respect our relationship
and i respected u as my lover
and i believed the strong chances that we have for us to be inseparable
but if only u believed in us
thanks for the memories
i <3 u

2010-05-05T14:32:00.000+08:00

Heureux Un Mois :)
Je me demande comment aujourd'hui va etre comme

2010-05-04T14:06:00.001+08:00

Helllo peeps!

So the start of May hasnt been as good
But I believe something happier and better gonna come by
And ya, I totally dont know why i woke up damn freakin early today
Went to sleep at ard 3am last night
and today, found myself staring at the clock at 8.30am!
unbelievable!
tried to sleep back, but its not working though!
so, decided to blog and update myself in fb!

latest thing that happened:
SAFETY IS IN OUR HANDS FLASH MOB
i so gotta totally comment on this one!
the manager seriously, and i mean seriously serious
need to look up on the meaning of flash mob
and also read up on 'Dummies 101: Flash mob' to know how to execute one!
lol!
its like a freakin performance la! haha
i mean, which flashmob has a normal entrance on a stage some more!
coz flash mobs are suppose to be like a surprise kinda thing and on the streets
but this one is like telling the audience theres gonna be a flashmob
and also, a stage is up for us to dance on!
haha! totally simidaiji man!
but the pay ok la, not gonna complain since i jonied it at the eleventh hour
its a good thing i manage to catch the steps fast enough though lol
and adding to it, we have to like report at suntec at 7 in the morning!!
so can you believe the number of zombies i have to meet up with in the train? lol
that includes myself.. haha!
some peeks to see:

Kevin and me!

me in the nurse uniform that im suppose to be in! haha

slacking at subway before the flashmob performance

Me, spongebob and Yuko!

Junko and me!

Safety is in Our Hands!!! =]

NIKE FACTORY OUTLET

So, thanks to the new frens I make from the above mentioned event

I got to know about this outlet and the kool sale!

the whole store has a 20% discount to it, but the day that me, kevin and keiths went,

we have like 60% discounts!!!

so awesome!!

So, i got myself a nike silver/grey jacket and

a white base nike shoe with neon yellow touches

will upload the photo of these awesome stuffs once i took photo of them!

overall, i think most of the stuffs are more for athletics and sports

but nonetheless, some stuff are kool too!

like the windbreakers and some tees there

not much of the shoes though

and at the same time, get to explore an isolated mall in the corner of singapore

specifically, clementi

which is the West Coast Mall!

coz this is wear the nike outlet store was held at!

and its isolation is damn superb till it made itself damn boring!

lol

NIGHT CYCLING!
Had an awesome time night cycling with my awesome buddies
there were me, andy, joycelyn, frankie, iris, andreas, sam, kaiwen, kat, tim, kevin and jj
We didnt really cycled around Singapore though
But really had the koolest companions for the whole night!
Half way thru riding in town, we met up with Alex and his frens!
lol! can see him being so sore towards us! hahaha
We shall organise another one with him maybe lol

SOME AWESOME PICS

thanks to meichin for these pics man!

awesome indeed!!

these were taken before SDD finals started:

Thanks loads meichin!

Its easy to fall in love, but its not easy to maintain a relationship
It takes both effort to make things work
Still learning my ever greatest weakness, hope you understand

2010-04-30T23:12:00.003+08:00

I never wished to say this
but i just don't understand
i just feel that today is the worst day
needed to share it to someone
but figured i will be such an irritant
bottling up is just the best of choices
i just hate myself for having too much emotions
i just hate myself for having too much thoughts
i just hate myself for having too much things kept away from ppl around me
even the closest cant understand me
no wonder some ppl result to suicide
I just so blessed to have the patience

I dont understand
i just dont feel as if im not appreciated of wad ive done
i tried making ppl happy, to understand their needs
and do everything that i could risk myself doing
but i think everything just dont seems to be enough
or is it im just a loser that cant understand other ppl
i tried to, but i dont know whether i did it successfully
but at least try to understand me
do you even know wad my needs are?
even if u know, i doubt u will make effort to do it
you are not even there when i needed someone
i think you dont even know that im feeling this way
I guess i dont mean anything to others
just a small explanation,
or evena sorry would work for me
guess im to be blamed for not trying to understand
coz blaming myself is the only way for me to work things out
and i dont want to put wad we have into jeopardy
i dont know if you will read this
but this is how i feel
and to anyone who reads this, the 'you' i used is just based on general terms

sometimes i feel thankful for those who taught me the art of being superficial
so that others wont know wad i truely feel inside
just when i found someone to tell wad i felt inside
i was considered irritating
so, wadever thats left inside of me,
rest in peace

i miss gin
all the dance practices, and all her words
im always looking forward for her class
although i didnt go for them
but watching them on youtube just brings a smile on my face
it just makes me feel joyful whenever i felt sad or lost
just by watching i felt the guidance in her
ever since she left for LA, the sense of guidance have lost within me
theres nothing to look forward to every week

gosh, everything just made me teared for no reason
hate this lost feeling
somehow these tears just rolled without my intentions
i cant even stop it
i feel so stupid for tearing down now
i just feel so fucked up

bye world

2010-04-27T04:35:00.003+08:00

Hello hello!

Gosh, its been ages since i blogged!
Partly due to my laziness to type down wadever i've done in my life
Soon, I'll be updating the a lot on my life within this post
So stay tune!!
Look out for updates on:

PHUKET TRIP
UNIVERSITY ADMISSIONS RESULTS
GEMS 5: LABYRINTH
I-AM: THE SYSTEM CHOREOGRAPHER'S BALL
LOREAL SHOW SLICKS VS STREETS
F&N FLASHMOB
TPDE CHALET
11TH APRIL
FRESHMAN ORIENTATION CAMP AY2010/2011
TPSU D&D
VENOS LOVE CHALET
MOVIES
MY LIFE

2010-02-26T19:29:00.001+08:00

Hello world

LIFE
Life for me has been quite fucked up.. in a good way
But i think thats equivalent to wads normal in my life everyday lol
Im loving those fucked up moments in life, if not there wont be any risk living it rite?
Your life gonna be so bored if its too perfect
Most probly will just get you to sit down and stare and think of how perfect your life is
like so wad the fuck.. haha!
Even new experiences that adds more risks and fun to it
New obligations, new obstructions, new limitations that always get in my way
Isn't that wad ppl like to do to you and see how you swallow the pain
Guess I'm kinda numb and love that kinda pain even more
I'm so loving this weird post lol
Makes ppl think I'm weird too
Go ahead and think that I'm weird then
As long as i know wad im doing
But the thing is, do you even know wad you are doing?
Stupid fools and bitter hearts.. haha

Since I had unofficially graduated
I craved to be more adventurous
And thanks to those who adds more definition to my life
Just wished I could stay out more often and see the world
Should I just tell my parents that I am dieing and will be soon dead
then comes back 5 months later coz I had been resurrected? haha
I just told myself, you wish!

So much for having a normal life rite?
Thanks for making my life fucked up since primary school
I'm loving it more

OK, so i figured I should stop typing this way
before someone actually think that I'm psychotic
basically those who think so, had their life too perfect
Talking about being so sore
LOL..

NUS VISIT
Went to NUS with Andy and Yuxin the other time
Basically we wanted to submit our uni admission
And also to have a feel like how's the place gonna be like if we were to admit into the school
Gosh, the first impression of it was like so so so so so dreadful!!
Can u imagine that we even had problems and so much difficulty to get ot the uni?
I think its a sign that we are not going there to study.. LOL
NO luh.. lets be optimistic shall we?
haha
And when we get to their admission office, their whole place are so dead
like D E A D dead.. even the people there were like as if they had been zombified
haha..
and talk about nerds.. they just irritate me more and more.. though i used to be one
Its like I feel like telling straight to their face to GET A LIFE!
I mean, those whom I know that goes to uni are such fun ppl
But the ones we saw are like so so... yea
Bet they are JC students.. OOOPPPPSS
lolI can tell you that once I'm in there
I'm gonna be like shouting to Andy from one corner to another corner
like " HHHEEEEEEYYYYYYY!!!"
But i totally love their Business School
Like theres a sudden spurt of life once you step into it
Its like, theres a total difference when we walked into Social Science Faculty and the Business School
Just hoping I can get into that school! =]
So, the next uni we gonna be visitting is NTU
Maybe soon I guess.. lol

BOSSINI
The rehearsal was kinda fun and interesting.. in deed
Andee was the choreographer
And there were me, andy, joycelyn, frankie, nicole claire, meichin, nora and some RP guy in it!
So basically we are the dancers.. haha
Good experience though!
And each of us are given like a dressing suited for us by Bossini
I can say that mine was not bad, maybe the hippest out of them.. oops.. lol!
Andy's was like his usual self going to town look haha
Frankie's was like his usual stereotyped self which is either like a small boy or an ah pek! haha
And the girls looked awesome as well!
So, I cant tell much about it, coz it will not be as surprising
Just await for us to be on the screen aite =]
Cant wait for the actual videoshoot this weekend!

MOVIESSS
Caught quite a number of movies lately
like Percy Jackson again with Andy and Tim during the second stay out
The Tournament with Joycelyn, Frankie, Andy and Joey
and i cant believe i slept through Tooth Fairy at one point of the movie
theres more, but i cant rmb wad i watched lol
oh yea, and the recent one was Wolfman which I watched with Andy
Found ourselves staying up the whole night in town after that.. lol!
Ventured through one part of Orchard too

COMMITMENTS
And again, I found myself caught with a lot of commitments in a short period of time
Lets list it down shall we?
Here it goes:
Bossini MV Video shoot - 27 Feb
Sounds Like Saturday! Birdcage men - 27 Feb
Bossini Instructional Video shoot - 28 Feb
VENOS LOVE chalet - 10-12 March
Lor'Real Streets VS Slicks Krumping Perfromance - 13 March
TPDE GEM 5 Concert - 19 & 20 March
TPSU D&D - 25 March
Singapore Dance Delight - 27 March
Gin's I-AM: The System Choreographer's Ball - 29 March
Uni Admission - whenever I am free
Visit NTU - ??

So, any ideas how to clone myself? lol
I guess, this is why I love the fucked up life I have
Some times, I just cant believe how confused I can get
haha

till then
Bye World

2010-02-14T14:31:00.004+08:00

WHEN THERES A GUY CALLED PERCY

Watched Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief yesterday with Shauna and Nicole Shaan.

And the movie is so freakin and so totally awesomee!!

I think its beyond awesome!! and the humour is so wicked!! It just made me LMFAO around the theatre!!

And I think its the first few times that the both of them watched movies with me

so just have to apologize how noisy I can be. LOL

But it is seriously so hilarious! Its like they really set the funny parts at the right timings! and of course, me having freeedom of speech esp in cinemas, you just have to put up the embarassment with me =]

Well, I cant really say much about the movie, coz y'all have to watch it yourselves!

Its something like Clash of the Titans but with a modern twist

OMG

Talking abot Clash of the Titans, that is SSOOOOOO the next movie that I'm SOOOO going to watch!!

like seriously..

O. M. G. ooOOoOOmMMmmyYyYyygGgOoOooDddDdD

I still remembered its original one during the 1981 or something!

and can you believe it that my uncle got me watching that at primary 2??

And since then, I kept on watching it over and over and over and OVER again..

gosh, those LaserDisc (LD) days..

You know, back when the CDs are bigger than your heads? haha!

Below is the poster, in case you were thinking on a movie that is not the same as what I just said

UNIVERSITY ADMISSIONS

Here it comes another important phase of my life

Well, I never thought that this moment would come, but it does now

Gosh, and talking about how stressful about making the right choice in life

esp in academics that is so gonna affect your future, like in a totally massive way

And I'm just stuck as to where I reallly wanna go to..

Have I tell y'all how confusing and such massive headache that me and andy had to think about this

Goshh..

Well, most of my classmates have already made their choices..

And actually, I have already made my choices, its just that, this time, I really have to double check them

Obviously Im not gonna get tricked again like how I did for my poly admission

OMG, I cant believe how dumb I am at that point of time..

But oh wells, graduating from this course soon!

3 years just passed by so fast didnt they?

So, before I really submit my admissions, I really had to make a few more justifications and investigations

CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

So, this new year is the year of the Tiger.. ROOOAAARRRR!

And since it is the tiger, I think everyone's getting more fierce..

Well, I dunno... Angry ppl at every corner, even myself, I find my temper has risen..

maybe not that much.. like by 2.5 %?? lol

well, wadever it is, my lil sister has finally reached her full 12 cycle!

meaning, she's 12 years old now!!

omg, and i rmbered those days when it reached my horse year. It feels so awesome!

Its like the animal cycle has completed one round and is here again to make another cycle!

How kool is that?? lol

Anyways, to all my chinese friends,

basically I can just say to all my friends since most of them are chinese

I wish you a HAPPY ROARING NEW YEAR!

May you be blessed with good health and fortune!

Don't eat so much, coz later you will be mistaken as one of the oranges! haha

Don't gamble so much! Don't drink so much!

You can lose all your money but dont lose yourself aite!

And rmbr Project R.E.D P.A.C.K.E.T.S aite! Collect them all! haha!

JOYEUSE SAINT VALENTIN!

To all my beloved friends Hapy Valentine's as well!

For love makes the world go round! haha

And specially to you. =]

2010-02-09T03:35:00.005+08:00

Hey World!

So its about time that I figured I should bring some life to this blog
Sorry, but i think I'm not good at keeping blogs
I think I'm gonna reskin it
Well, yeap so here it is.

So, this is the only opportunity that I could spend time blogging after the whole months of busy-ness in my retarded life
Well, not to be unappreciative of my life now, but lets just say, the rocky sides of life.
I'm going to do an update on what I had done for the past few months
Its just for memories and not on the art of boasting or wadsoever, at the same time, you might want to skip this whole chunk

UPDATES
A quick update on myself after SIP in terms of school work:
- Had a gruelling time completing my MP/FYP, yet again, which has nothing to do with what I crammed in my brains throughout the whole 3 years of poly. But on the bright side, achieved to acquire new and useful skills.
- Presentation for MP was okay i guess, but not up to my expectations. Just hope I can get excellent grade for it.
- Had project datelines that are back-to-back with one another, especially when new ones start to come in when another has been completed.
- Tests. As usual. Sucking every last brain cells I had for them.

And an update on my dance life:
- Did the President's Star Charity on MJ Tribute with Nicole Claire and other dancers together with O Crew representing Oschool. Great experience in deed.
- Had a blast on Recital this year.
- Joined a competition with a collaboration of people from the streets and the studio; Mazlan, Andreas Chua, Renni, Joycelyn and Andee. Awesome experience and made friends at the same time.
- Bird Cage man for a Sounds Like Saturday event together with Andy Toh, Frankie and KaiWen. Total freshness thanks to Ryan.
- Currently, got myself doing a Lor'real Show with Jas Lee, Tyron, Jacky, and other dancers.
- Currently, preparing for concert with myself being responsible of an item and also all the other items that I brilliantly put myself into.
- Currently, venturing and trying my best for modern dance and at least to do it well with its basics before graduation.
- Currently, preparing for SDD with the Kids I.D. Proudly representing you Andreas Tan (White Kid), Andy Toh (Happy Kid), Frankie (Hong Kid), Pang Yang (Ti Ki-d) and myself (Brown Kid).

END OF THE LAP
So, the last test of my entire poly life was done.
My last presentation and project had all been gone through the last week.
We even met up with our lecturers and tutors for the last time during the last week.
Basically all of them wished for the best of our future.
At that point of time, I totally felt some mixed emotions.
Its like, gosh, I cant believe my poly life is gonna end.
I still remember the first day of my poly days, and now its like counting down to mark its end.
I used to think that graduation is kool, but now its like some rotten apple that I don't ever want to face.
It just sucks to put an end on something that you liked, treasured and especially that is so memorable.
I dont know about the rest, but this is
the point of my life that I've made the change,
the point where I thought to be so brave to make decisions on my own,
the point where I made friends whom really cared,
the point where I actually trusted people,
the point where I have broken my boundaries,
the point where I believed in myself in securing my future,
the point where I see that there is still hope in wadever I strive in,
the point where I ventured into my talents,
the point where I had the greatest opportunities of all,
and definitely
the point where I thought I would never ought to leave.

okay, so I feel like some f**ktard to feel so emo at this point of time.
Better save some of these emotions on the graduation ceremony.
And also, I am so not gonna tear now.
Definitely, this is not the first time where I had to face such separations of which that are close to my heart
But the fact that you know you had to, just hurts.
okay, this ends now
till then-

I think I felt theres something going on,
but i think its against the norm to acknowledge it

2009-10-08T06:30:00.001+08:00

HELLO...

First of all..

As mentioned on the previous post, here are the pics from the PSC Press Conference. =]

with Michelle Chia

with Kym Ng

with Michelle Cheong

with Jade Seah

with Nat Ho

with Adrian Pang

with the skipping rope girls

with the whole mediacorp artistes

(Getting ready for performance)

(Oosh!! lol)

Great experience throughout the Press Conference.. =]

Get to see how the artistes work with the press, like how they react in interviews and also those recorded ones

Most of them are quite friendly though.. lol especially Pat Mok..

FTC was there as well.. only Hazrul, Norbin and Charlie that is.. lol

They did shortclips of what they do best, which is seen as advertisements on TV!

Talk about their refreshments, they are dope! haha

like so rarely i talk about food, but this was very interesting

And the Oosh restaurant is awesome, though it was my first time there..

All has been kool there and I'm so thankful for this yo..

So, now my weekends are gonna be packed by the practices for the President Star Charity itself..

Not to forget, the event which is on this Sunday as well!

Manage to take some pictures during training..

with Gurmit Singh (he looks like one of us in the pic.. lol)

(Terrence, Jessica, Zizie and me)

Training with the artiste have been fun!

They are quite playful at their age.. lol

but its a good thing coz they liven up the whole training atmosphere.. haha!

So, be sure to catch us up on President Star Charity doing Michael Jackson tribute this Sunday aite!

And at the same time, plase call and donate while the lines are still open.. =]

Next Up:

HARI RAYA OUTING WITH SECONDARY SCHOOL FRIENDS!

Had fun on that day!

And it is so great to meet all of them after soooo sooo long since i have been isolating myself from them in the east for 2 years.. lol

Manage to catch up with them.. Its great to reminisce those times way back..

It really reminded me of those secondary school times..

And as guessed, they never changed! thats a good thing though! lol.. =]

For now, I let the pics do the talking..

the earliest to reach.. lol

(Me & Amirah)

At Wanie's house:

At Roq's house:

At Farhan (Sweat)'s house:

At Som's house:

(Me & Roq)

At Nures' house:

At Amirah's house:

(Me & Wanie)

(Transportation: 2 cars, 1 motor bike)

At Farhan (Captain)'s house:

At Amir's house:

(Me & Som)

In car sessions:

(Express malay guys in the clique)

So, after the visittings, Som, Asyiq, Firah, Roq, Nures and me went to the Admiralty Park to chill..

First time there, and it was so so eerie, especially when it was at 2am..

And they began opening topics on ghosts and stuffs.. lol.. shall not elaborate more on that..

Overall, had fun! Great time with them and the chance again to have laughters with them, though mostly are stupid ones.. haha

Just hope to have more outings with them..

Till then, hope to see y'all again =]

Next up:

CHILL OUT SESSION WITH TPDE!

Another great chilling time out session with fashion!

haha.. as usual, TPDE is always dressed to be glam..

Learnt a new phrase also: OTT (over the top!) lol.. that is to describe how we were dressed on that day!

So, we chilled glamorously at the function room in Villa Marina.. lol..

Thanks to Kenny (Oschool director) for the venue!

And the place is so so so SO SO awesome!

Damn high class luh.. Even theres a lobby in the clubhouse to the function room!!

Peeks to see...

We celebrated Hakeem's 18th birthday as well!

And what a classic shock moment he had.. haha!

We even had a DIY runway.. made by yours truly.. lol..

Had a mini fashion show as well with 2 awards; Best Dressed and the Most Uncle/Auntie Award! haha

For the Best Dressed Award, it goes to Ah Lee!! lol..

Frankie almost had this award though, to make up the effort for himself for going back home to change just for this chillout session.. Nvm, he will have the lime light in this post of my blog as a runner up! haha

And the Most Uncle/Auntie Award goes to Andy Toh didi!

Seriously, LMAO man!.. haha

Runner up for this is none other than Jesscy! lol.. lime light to you too in this post! lol

So, after the chillout session, went to watch FAME with some of them..

I find it is an inspirational movie.. Its like the struggles they had for those who wants to get the fame through their natural talents in performing arts.. Its quite touching although some find it boring..

Well, I dont recommend for those who wants to watch this as a dance movie, coz theres not much of dancing involved..

So, current status of myself now?

Busy managing school performances, TPDE events coming up and my infamous MP..

Theres one performance coming up for TP which is for the temperature badge thing..

This one requires to teach the choreography to the sports ppl as well..

So, i just hope they dont wear like fbts for dance practice.. lol

There is also a collaboration performance coming up for all the Arts Group managed by the Production Crew.. and the auditions for the TPDE peeps will be on thursday! yeap..

Not to forget our own TPDE Amazing Race, with Gin Lam as our game master! lol

This ought to be very very interesting..

Meeting her up with all the other main comm on Saturday to plan out the whole run through of the race

And my MP... is just stagnant with alll this things coming up..

Just wish it could go on smoothly and not to mention that Im currently reading through online tutorials on how to design website with Dreamweaver.. gosh..

Well, theres more things that I'm dealing with now..

But I figured better not to list it down now or else im just gonna blow up.. like BOOMZ!

lol

Thats all for now..

Till then.

September/October Updates!

2009-10-04T02:08:00.000+08:00

HELLO HELLO..
darn.. theres loads of stuffs I have to update..
and I really mean LOADS..
okay okay

First up;
PRESIDENT'S STAR CHARITY PRESS CONFERENCE!
ok, I shall update y'all on how I landed myself in this event..
I'm just thankful to Gin Lam for this opportunity..
And it was so damn kool, coz able to dance with dope dancers like Freddie, Allegra, An An, Ah Hei and Eve.. Basically, they are from O Crew, aka The Dopes.. LOL..
And of course with Nicole Claire! hahah..
And this is also the first time I've been so close up with the mediacorp artists..
There were Gurmit, Nat Ho, Andy..something, Patricia Mok, Dawn Yeoh, Kym Ng, Darren of some Chinese singing thing, Sarah from some Malay singing thing, Indra from some Indian singing thing and more.. (this show how bad i know those artists.. lol)
oh, oh.. Jade Seah, Michelle Cheong and Dawn Yeoh are damn damn pretty and good looking! Gosh..
Its a good thing we manage to take pics with them!! lol
But they have yet to be stolen from Facebook.. haha..
Shall post it once I got it from Gen.. =]
I just feel so blessed to have this chance thanks to O School!
So, the next thing is just to look out for the real thing..
THE PRESIDENTS STAR CHARITY..
which I think shud be sumwhere in the middle of Oct i guess..
So thankful, coz I manage to contribute something for charity, especially contributing with something that I'm passionate about..
Btw, we are doing a Michael Jackson tribute for this PSC, the legend man..
Everything about this is koolshit man.. kk
Shall tell y'all again if got free tickets to watch PSC live aite.. =]

Next up;
SUNTEC DANCE COMPETITION 2009!
Let the pictures do the talking..
Presenting to you.. APPENDIX D!

Upon Arrival:

Backstage Preparations:

Pre Competition Group Photos:

On Stage (Lights! Camera! Action!):

After Competition:

Frankie and his irritating face.. lol..

SUB!

Independent Crew!

My red mohawk!

Andy and his signature smile! lol

Aunty Jean & Joey.. lol

The 'TALL' joey.. lol!

Another unforgettable event that we had together as a group.. =]

Really cherished all the moments with them..

Be it happy or sad..

I'm glad to be in the finals with them..

Although we didnt win nor in the top 3, at least we are not to be forgotten of our own unique style and swagger..

Bringing them competition in TPDE way.. lol!

NEXT UP:

POLY FORUM PERFORMANCE!

This can never be forgotten man

Especially when the management had us waiting backstage for like 4 hours, just for a 3 min performance!!

seriously, OMG..

Other than that, the experience of dancing with other dancers from other poly has been good..

It has been nice knowing them..

Some pictures to complete the story of this:

From left: Michelle(SDZ), Lester(NRA), Christine(NRA), Wei Sheng(SDZ), Joycelyn(TPDE), Badd(TPDE), Siew Yin(Stage Arts), Ash(Style Groovaz)

2009-09-11T01:10:00.006+08:00

HEELLLLOOO...

u know wad?
i realized the frequency for me to blog is shorter and faster ever since I ended my SIP..
lol
Neways, I had finally gotten the opportunity to catch up with my classmates!
I can still remember how sick we were to see each and everyone's faces everyday in class before we went for SIP..
But now, after five months of not seeing each other ( at least for me of course), i just realised how much i missed them.. haha..
of course i wont show it luh.. lol..

There were Fion, Liza, Qingling, her bf, Yanni, Kenrick, Kai Juan, Queenie, Jeffrey and Joe..
At first, we tot of prawning over at sum place in Bishan..
But when we get there, we changed our mind and tot of doing something else instead.. LOL
So, we went to the Prata House and eat
And also, it has been quite a looonnnggg time since I had a ride at the back of the lorry..
It was super kool luh!.. haha.. to feel the wind smacking on ur face.. lol
After that, we went over to Qingling's aunt k-box place to have some singing sessions till bout 2 plus am..
Jeffrey was kind enuff to give each of us a ride home though.. His fren to be exact.. haha
I know we should have taken more pictures..
but then, I'm also kinda lazy to upload them.. haha
oh well, guess the next outing should have then.. =]

So, moving on to talk about my Major Project..
hmm.. everything is going on a smooth pace..
And darn, I gotta share this with y'all..
As my MP is about doing up a website for private properties..
Me and my project mate have to visit showrooms/showflats to get the brochures, costings, and info of paying methods on different rooms and all..
So both of us have to look like some matured couple who is gonna wed soon with an intention to get a unit for ourselves..
We even have to come up with some high paid jobs with great incomes and bullshit our way thru some informations
and u know wad? Our acting totally worked man! LMAO..
Some property agents even want me to produce a checque to confirm our payment.. LOL!
Some even contacted me agn to ask about the unit we were interested in and when can we like establish the payment with them..
And I tell u, if any of them see this, we are so dead man.. haha
But through this expereince, its kind of a good learning process
So that I will understand better when it comes to buying a house in the future and all the processes and different paying schemes
And also, the designs and infrastructure of these modern living are totally not bad at all
It was simplicity at its best without showing much of the golden luxury
In short, they're AWESOME! =]
So, I better plan my future now.. hahah!

Now, I'm just packed with meetings for MP, with dance main comm regarding concert and stuffs and also suntec dance prac for finals..
Not forgetting practices for poly forum..
Just pray to god everything will turn out well..
esp when suntec is on the first day of hari raya..
I still dunno how to tell this to my parents.. but still have to face it anyways..
gaaawwwwwdddddd..
alrite.. till then

all the best in your competition as well and have fun while ur there =]

2009-09-01T18:46:00.013+08:00

HELLO HELLO..

first of all..

I'm gonna say that its finally FREEDOM!!
Coz u know y? I ended my SIP alr!! =]
and I'm like picture-ing myself like a bird flown out of a cage.. LOL!!

neways.. u'll probably know how much I always like to complain abt my attachment and stuffs..
But sumhow, I'm gonna miss the place and the people there..

Of course not the workload.. that is erased right after the clock strike 6pm on that last day..

I'm so gonna miss the other colleages.. although they are way older, they seem to be quite young to me.. young at heart to be exact.. haha

Jeannie, Jessie, Denise, Kelly and Trina; I feel as if they're like my elder sisters.. and Jaime is like the koolest mom ever.. lol..

I'm definitely gonna miss Jeremy, Hanxiang, Asmond, Suu, Guangyi, and all the other interns and temp staffs that I met ever since the first time I step into the company.. Its nice to know such great ppl like you guys and hope we can hang out some other time aite.. =]

And also to Sylvia, it's awesome that this company actually give me a chance to meet you agn after 2 years that I've never seen you since we took our O' level results..

I was quite shocked to find her there too.. Guess we'll be catching up with each other soon aye..

And last but not least to my Supervisor, although she's been quite demanding and pressurising at times, she has always been quite caring and thoughtful..

And there it ends a chapter of my poly life with SIP..

So, Suntec is here again..

And here, proudly represent...

APPENDIX D!!

Audition round:

Heats round:

Semis round:

And rite now, we're so damn excited to be in Finals of Suntec..!

Considered it as grateful to have that position..

Thnks for those who have supported us.. Really appreciate it! =]

Esp when we had to showcase 2 times as the first one had some technical difficulties with the DJ..

All the other teams did well for the semis too..

But wadever it is, Appendix D gonna give it to the fullest..

TPDE represent!

Well, during this Suntec marathon..

There is also another competition that we joined

But I kinda forget wads the real name is.. But we called it the 'ESPN' dance comp.. lol

It was held at the Skatepark over at the East Coast..

It's a new thing luh actually.. And one word: AWESOME!

The place is soooo kooolll..

OMG.. its like a heaven for all those skaters and bike riders out there..

I mean, although im not a skater myself, but i still find the place is dopeness.!

Anyways, back to the comp...

Wad an awesome experience as the place for us to dance and compete is within the skate ring!

and and.. We got third for it! =]

Awesome job for all other competitors who compete in it as well..

Esp Sapphire and Vonique!

Some peeks to see...

There were also some birthdays celebrated during this period..

Firstly, it was Nicole Claire's bday!

We celebrated it at East Coast right after the audition rounds for Suntec..

And wad an attempt to make it a surprise celebration for her.. LOL!

It was relaxing and fun at the same time..

With all the BBQ and food and sea breeze an all that u can think of at East Coast! haha

And also the video that was dedicated to Nicole herself..

Made specially by Hazrul!

Frankly, I was touched at her mom's dedication to her.. can feel the tears man.. haha

The second one was Ah Lee's bday!

Celebrated it at the Aranda chalet right after our Suntec Heats and ESPN comp..

and i totally love the theme of her celebration which was Punk Rock..!

haha.. but sumhow didnt manage to dress up as one due to coming back from the competitions and all

Yet, another awesome celebration!

Pictures have yet to be stolen from facebook.. LOL

Anyways, still on the suntec part..

Its another experience to be remembered..

For all those trainings after SIP and stuffs..

All that costume raiding..

Its definitely worth it for us..

Esp when we have to work with and change our routines within one week or less..

Of course, we are going to represent wad dance really means to us and the genuine feeling out of it..

Esp dance with the SOUL.. AND NOT OF ANGLES AND FAKE EXPRESSIONS only... (oooppss)

I'm sure most know wad I'm talking about in this part..

OK.. since its the fasting month, I shall not fill in those things that I have to say with underlying meanings in it.. hhaah.. be good Badd

So, the next thing..

I'm glad that things have been going for the better.. esp within the family..

It good that I've started to talk to my parents like in a normal conversation..

or else, everything else would be worst than awkward silence..

Just grateful for that.. =]

and also..

I did went for the Oschool recital Auditions..

And I'm in Gin's Hiphop!

hahaha.. and initally I was like woooo..

and now, I'm like.. goshhh..

coz, the ppl in there is kinda good too..

well, one way or another, still have to work it..

I'm just ecstatic to be in the item! =]

So now, its time to face the reality..

I have yet to start on my Major Project right after SIP nd its report..

and God, I feel like crying when I know the contents of wad I'm supposed to do for it..

Just pray that everything will go on smoothly..

How I wish that things could be easier when you grow..

But in reality, its not turning out as wad I tot it was supposed to be..

Things are harder and harsher..

You tend to meet all kinds of ppl form both extremes..

Some can be so nice and some is just as cold as ice..

It has come to a point whereby first impressions are so valuable..

But that has always been the rule of this game..

Only your true friends and ppl know your true self..

And I'm glad that I have such ppl in my life..

So, if thats how the rules of my life would be..

Guess the game starts now..

Sometimes I see the birds fly high in the sky

Roaming freely wih no heavy burden on their shoulders..

Its like another sign of freedom for one's cry..

And how I hope I could be as free as them..

But the more I realize..

that these birds, though they are free to fly..

Somehow or rather they have no sense of belonging..

and no proper shelter for home..

That goes to show, how fortunate I am..

although there are some good things in life that I may not be able to experience

But I'm just glad with wad I have and wads of sufficient to my needs..

2009-08-13T02:41:00.006+08:00

HELLO HELLO...

So, it's the rarest time of the month again when I have the chance to blog..

UPDATES....

On Sunday, 9th August 2009, it was Singapore's birthday....

So.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! although it has been days over.. haha

it has been awhile since she's 44 now.. lol.. say like I'm the father like that.. so kns.. haha

On that day, we went for a picnic at Sentosa..

It was not bad.. ahah..

and and... OMG..

i definitely learnt a lesson on this..

like NEVER come so so so early and expect the rest to come on the meeting time sharp..

so totally late like almost everyone, except for Tim.. LOL..

But had fun eventually over at Siloso..

and have I told you how packed it was with humans?? haha..

worst thing is the tram stopped working coz of too many ppl walking here and there..

like WOW.. its almost equivalent to like half of Singapore's civilisation coming to Sentosa..

LOL.. kk I'm just exageratting..

but seriously, there is A LOT of people there..

luckily, we managed to find a spot..

and I brought like strawberries, grapes and apples for my share of the potluck..

like so healthy.. hahaha! coz usually it was like chips and wadever..

thought of even to bring salad there, but too lazy to prepare on the night before.. so yea..

So, we borrowed some strangers' frisbee and volleyball to play with before Nelson came with his own frisbee and kite..

We celebrated Iris' belated birthday as well.. =]

Drawing in to the evening, we chilled at Cafe Del Mar..

Their place has always been so kool and relaxing..

Some peeks to see..

OMG.. and you know wad?

This is my first time being caught on camera without any shirt on..

LOL..

NEXT...

My attachment office has been moved to Jurong East!

In a way, it still has both the pros and cons..

Pros, being the fact that it is nearer than what was previously at Sentosa.

So, I can take off from my house 1 hour later to get to my SIP..

Cons, I just hate the location!

Can you imagine being in an Ulu place??

And they go on saying like the area is so nice and lush with its greenery..

they even said that they have a mall..

But from wad I see it is that the place is just another concrete jungle and the mall is just another food court..

like simply -.-

and also, journey to townside or even back to TP is further when it comes to my dance training after attachment..

GODD...

I'm just missing the corporate office in Sentosa.. hmmm

but not to worry.. I'm only left with 2 more weeks plus till its total freedom! =]

Till then..

I'm just finding it hard to have a chance to show how much i like you..

Guess time will tell soon..

Updates

2009-07-26T02:42:00.006+08:00

HELLO HELLO..

one month has gone from the previous post and now I just touched the blog..
haha.. what a duration...
So, I guess I'm back!
lol..
and I'm just so speechless coz this is about the fifth time i tried to update my blog, but i ended up sleeping in front of the laptop.. so i'm just gonna curse myself again if I didnt get to publish this by the end of the post..
okay, so.. theres kinda a lot of stuffs for me to update..
hmm i guess I'll start with this one..

So, had a recent outing/dinner with the SUB and Hybreed and Baoxin over at Sakura
and I was like darn clueless in that jap buffet restaurant.. with the fact that its my first time entering that place, practically just following what my surrounding is doing.. haha
and I think their stuffs there are not bad.. pretty well done
well, I'm not that a craze for such jap food, but I think they did it good..
back to the main topic, the gathering was still a good one indeed..
I mean, after for such a long time not seeing each other, its kinda a good way to get in touch
took some pictures there too, and I think had been flooding them in Regina's cam.. lol
Well, it is also an event whereby its the last time we can spend with yekpeng before he goes off to the greeneries and junglehood of NSlife.. HAHA.. make it sound so... not NS, like some garden country.. lol!
So, maybe I'll post some photos here..

Since I'm still in the SUB topic..
I wanna update about the Double O comp not that long ago..
Congrats to Epic Crew that won the competition! woohoo =]
good job to Revogue and Absin as well..
and especially to us, I think we did great.. LOL.. can see from the videos luh.. i dont give comments anyhow okay
but wadever the outcome, (although I kinda predicted) we will definitely treasure the experience and the bond that we have worked out so far..
Definitely an event to rmb, and of course the people that made the journey throughout interesting, being in SUB with the boys..
Well, definitely gonna miss working together after this, and wad a great combination we had as a group..
So, not gonna forget that days..
In addition, that was the first few experiences I had clubbing, which I still dont really like the feeling of being squashed in the club.. haha

Next.. my attachment
It was and it still is a hell ride of a roller coaster
All I have to say is that, the jobs are never ending
Not to forget abt the re-conceptualization..
Well, those in my dept should understand
Such a pain in the ass but still have to go through
Just when I thought its getting better, it gets worst..
Supervisor actually asked to extend our internship
and even wants to plan our employment as a permanent staff after our extended internship period
and I was like, I have not even think about the extending part..
One thing is that its a good thing, but another thing is whether u like what you do

Adding to that is Major Project..
I just hate how it sounds.. like so 'MAJOR'
and definitely the word says so..
Its a very MAJOR thing to do with MAJOR complications and MAJOR ideas to work on
and should I add that theres MAJOR things to think about on some MAJOR problem that people face in the world..
Adding to this MAJOR stuff, I have yet to confirm on my project..
Well done Badd, a few more days of further procrastinations and you are so doomed

Next..
My uncle got this nice place whereby he can start his F&B business again, of course, doing wad he do best on western dishes
I definitely like the place, just reminded me of those Vespa times with vintage infrastructure..
Btw, its at Changi Road, quite near to Kembangan MRT station I guess
I think it would be another of my great hangout place.. =]

Moving on..
Well, theres nothing much on this section..
I'm just gonna fill it in with self-realizations that I've made so far..
Its like the optional part of this post, I mean if you dont wanna read it, then you can stop till this line
_____________________________________________________________________
This Semester has been very hard..
Its the hardest of all that Ive been thru so far..
SO much commitments, so little time
Its a point till I think sleeping is just a waste of time and yet I still found myself sleeping over some stuffs that were partially undone
Its just not easy..
Juggling family, friends, dance committee, attachment, project, studies, the future and time for myself..
And its just so irritating that all of these requires such high expectations from me..
Although some are not really asking from me directly, but i know I still have to show such expectations
I probly have a whole list of stuffs that I wanna talk about
like go into details of wad Im facing in each categories that I have to juggle..
But I guess, its just not the right place that I can talk about it..
At times I just feel like breaking down man..
But one thing for sure, I know that in any of the aspects that I start to break down, I will pull the rest along
Thus, resulting me to have always this optimistic and strong front..
Its just so irritating coz it doesnt makes me feel like a human..
It comes to another point whereby I cant feel down, I cant feel sad and I cant feel my other emotions
Its just so sickening.. I even have to think twice whether I should post this part coz I dont want ppl to know wad I really feel inside..
And also, I realized Ive became less friendly than the last time..
Haizz..
-
Of all the things that I really hate in this world is to be compared with and also to be accused of..
I just dont like how my Liason Officer compared me with all the other top students
especially when he didnt know of my other commitments..
Its just so unfair..
just one mistake would risk my reputation..
and now, he's like doubting his expectations towards me..
wad a bullshit..
His students are all of his kind.. lazy smart ppl who only knows how to study and bootleg.. guess thats their only talent
-
Another point..
I seriously dont like being accused..
So much for being partners at work..
but when it comes to pushing blames, this girl always finds opportunity to put me at fault
The worst thing that cud ever happen is when ppl believed her
And wad a 2 face and a faker as well..
I'm glad that some can see her true colours/rainbow shining out from her
This is the first time I've ever met such person with such ugliness inside of herself in my entire life
But then, theres no difference to whats in and out of her..
Sorry, but it just goess off my limit for such ppl..
I dont mean to be so against her, but in a way shes like asking for it..
haizz.. guess its a test from god

One last thing,
Waehvetr ti si, I dnot wnnaa og Stlnocad..

And for wadever reasons,
I just have to keep telling myself
to stand, when standing is not easy..

2009-06-22T01:34:00.005+08:00

HELLO WORLD..

today.. or shud I say, a few hours ago

it was..

FATHER'S DAY!!

so, happy father's day to all the fathers in the world

including mine that is.. haaaaaaaa

Went out with the family

Shudnt explain that much coz i dont think y'all wanna know rite??..

So, moving on..

yesterday was Suria's Birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

ahha.. the small girl is finally 18, when she still looks like she's 8..

LOL!!..

ok, I'm just kidding..

and yesterday too, had my first movie watched since ages ago..

it's called 'I Love You, Man'..

and the movie is a total LMAO..

seriously.. haha

Well, it's about the groom who's about to be wedded..

but he has no one to be his best man..

So, the movie is about him, finding a best fren and also the one who's gonna be his best man on his wedding day.. The process of him finding one is really funnyshiat..

well, it might not be funny from the way I explained it..

but y'all have to watch it so as to get the point..

hmm..

So, just to bring in more colours and life in this blog..

I'm introducing to y'all.....

THE SHUT UP BOYS!!!!!

(SUB for short.. ) =]

We were firstly formed from the Live It Up Competition..

Its another one of the cliche anti-smoking competition and stuffs..

But then, the ppl I joined with are kool!

Great combination i must say..

Well, u have to be in it to understand it.. yeap!

This is the other groups that joined the competition as well..

AND....

Be sure to catch us again at Dbl O Jim Beam Competition this coming Friday aite!!

Come and support ReVouge and The Epic Crew as well!!

Btw, u need tickets if you wanna enter free..

And only us and those who are competing have the tickets..

So, be sure to catch us and pin us down and ask for the tickets!!

LOL..

adding to it..

this is from the CCA Awards Ceremony 2009!

Yet, another AWESOME pic with awesome ppl..

LOL..

I'd wish I cud add more of the pics

coz there's seriously alot of them..

But I'm just lazy..

HAHA..

darn.. u shud understand how troublesome it is to add pictures man..!

lol..

alrite alrite..

thats it for now..

Hope I can update this blog again soon

Byeeeeeeeeeeee~

2009-06-16T00:50:00.002+08:00

HELLO..

So, I finally decided to update my blog after much procrastination..
well then..

ATTACHMENT
My SIP is the one that has my full life on the line now..
Its like almost between life and death..
okay, I'm just exxagerating..
darn.. I just cudn't imagine how bad it made me into such workaholic..
and I guess, i better stop talking about it coz its the same thing over and over again..
only once or twice that it had been good..
nevermind, just keep on thinking that 28th August is coming real soon!!
=]

DANCE
Had the first dance lesson last week..
And this one is coming to the second one..
It has been great, but just need to take it more seriously this time..
No playing a fool like last year's..
Just have to be more focus and really feel the emotion and the joy of dancing..

So, life has been quite a race recently..
At times, I just realized it has gone too fast that I cant just sit there and live the moment..
Went across some memorable places just now..
Places where I used to hang out with my secondary sch frens..
darn.. and it has beeen sooo looongg..
I wonder wad are they doing now..
And thoughts of those times just flew across my mind..
How innocent and immature we were the last time..
taking everything so lightly.. whether its about homeworks or uniforms..
and compare to now, i see that everything happened so fast that it changed me 180 degrees around..
i rmbed i told royston that u cant change 360 degrees coz thats where u end up the same as you used to be..
So, its either 180 or 540 degrees.. lol..
kk.. back to the topic..
I know and some might know the change I've been through..
But part of me wants to relive that old side..
With the companions of the past..
ok, i know this is boring..
But its just some thoughts I've been thinking about that I've never get to express..

Anyways, moving on..
Andee's having a LA/Intermediate class at Natasha Studios at 15 bucks from 2-3pm on Sunday..
So, be there to support him aite! =]
I will be if I know where the heck is this Natasha Studios.. lol!

Well, not much is left to be said for now..
Just that, in life.. people come and go
Some even just disappear from your life no matter how close he/she was to you
And some stick with you no matter what
I just wanna say that, Its nice to know you =]

Lazy Sunday

2009-06-07T23:22:00.004+08:00

HELLO HELLO.

darn its been a long while since i actually touched this blogger of mine...
like totally llooooooooooonnnnnnngggggg time..

okay okay..
first updates will be the 'LIVE IT UP' competition..
Us, being the Shut Up Boys (SUB) is the 1st runner up!!
LOL!.. and of course, we're so crazzy and excitedly happy for it..
The first collabo of TPDE and FB.. its a to die for man!
so freakin AWESOME.. lol.. okok..
and of course, congrats to Hybreed for stealing the 2nd runner up! =]
and also good job for the other FB team.. which i cudnt really recall the grp name..
hmm, i think its sumthing to do with shizzle or sumthing??
well.. great job aite!
and seriously, gee-double-oh-dee-jay-oh-bee to everyone!
I really appreciate this opportunity..
And I would really like to thank the SUB for this reall great time working together..
I think the SUB is made up of such great combinations..
And I like it..
With Mike being soo unreasonably funny and weird at times..
Andee beeing like the tall fun guy with some bitchiness.. lol
Andy with a lil of his pussy-ness and being such a retard at times..
Royston's another retard with some bitchiness too.. haha!
YekPeng's another kool dude with a lil quirkiness..
Justin aka Uncle being so everly nice and kind to ppl.. (i still dont understand why ppl call u by Justin Peng, instead of just Justin.. haha)
and Kenny, being sooo blur most of the time.. LOL
well, all these traits will never be missed..
and of course, I'm just so looking forward to w0rk with u guys again
Aside from them, theres also ppl like Nora, Arjuna, Regina, Shaq, Evelyn, Hanisah..
and also Carolyn, Baoxin, Tyron and more luh..
Its great to know them.. =]
And to reply to Nora's blog:
It's ok.. I think its their way of entertainment.. LOL =]

well, after that..
It is the time to have the regular trainings..
and this time its with The Independent Crew!
together with Royston and Joycelyn that is.. LOL..
we're preparing for the CCA Arts Group of the Year performance..
like so koool!! coz we are winning that title! woohoo!!
haha.. so kinda treating this like our winning performance..
and of course the dopeness must be there luh.. haha..

then, there is the nightcyling on the friday night to sat morning!
It was kinda kool i guess..
Can see that the juniors are really bonding with their dancemates quite well..
and some of the seniors with them as well..
Well, its great that the objective has been met for this activity and really big thnks to all those who came for it aite!
guess wad? we have like ard 40 plus who cycled from east coast park all the way to marina barrage!
And we had like the greatest mcdelivery orders!
its like the first time, I've seen such great orders from mcdelivery! even the motorcyclist guy have to come with a cabbie to deliver it to us.. HAHA!
but overall, I'm just glad everyone is having a great time.. and that the juniors at least had a great introduction to our club..
Great props to the maincomms and everyone's cooperation.. =]
pictures will be soon uploaded aite!
and of course, I'm gonna grab it from u guys too.. lol

moving on..
I kinda liked Sunday mornings..
coz its like a day whereby you wake up and chill..
Then you look over the window u see these grps of kids playing soccer at the field..
with their parents or whoever at the side benches supporting them..
also images of family having great time together.. with the old ppl taichi-ing at the side..
gosh.. and I had to break the bubble coz i missed that sunday morning!
all becuz I slept my day away till 1pm..
and worst still, when i woke up.. i found that the ppl in my house are all halfway thru the door getting ready to go for a wedding thing..
and I'm like.. thnks ar..
lol...
even worst is that..after waking up at 1pm.. i found myself asleep again the next half an hour till 3pm..
freakin LMAO and irritated at the same time..
hmm.. personally, I dont really like to sleep for so long.. coz that means time is spent so much for shutting urself down.. like i would rather use the time to meet up witht the ppl that I cared..
maybe coz i had to repay my sleeping debts from the night cycling and also those insufficient sleep during the weekdays.. talk about being so weak these few days..
but its okay i guess.. good thing im feeling better now..

So next week is yet another ride..
Can fore-see that it will be in some kind of a rush..
But wadever it is, just bring it on man!
=]

2009-05-17T17:08:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I have a million and one things to say
But worried that it will all just end up in a
wrong situation..
wrong time..
wrong people..
wrong thinking..
wrong mindset..
Thus, leaving all this to nothing that is to be said..

Everyone wants to be understood
But if one dont let him/herself a chance to open up
or trust the person he/she open up to
Then what is that comprehension that one wants?

Sorry, just an observation made..

Neways..
this week was another roller coaster..
not to mention riding it with some sort of flu goin on..
but dont worry, aint a H1N1 flu..
started of with my SIP..
had an awsome marketing videoshoot, acting for the RWS advert..
and the loadwork was kinda increasing too though..
Supervisor said that I have to be prepared to stay OT for most of the time..
and I'm like, might as well u consider me like one of your employee rather than just a regular intern in a company..

Movin on..
I'm kinda going for a mini competition with some of the TPDE peeps together with some FB peeps..
Named ourselves the 'Shut Up Boys' (SUB).. lol..
hmm.. guessin it gonna be a great experience with 'em
had the first practise and it was kool..
it is like the second time I danced since concert..
It was great.. and ofcourse, theres the pros and cons that I felt for myself..
Well, told a few peeps about it..
Too personal to post it..

Orientation for the new batch/juniors of TPDE was great..
I think it was good, considering it was short of a duration and also with some last min changes and stuffs..
Had the opportunity to meet the juniors..
and thanks for all the helpers who had helped out for it aite!

KO Nite was awesome too..
Great job for all competitors!

And so, next week is yet another ride..
Just hoping for the best..

All of a sudden, the future is something that I'm not looking forward to..

2009-05-09T11:20:00.005+08:00

HELLO HELLO.

nothing much to say now.
due to being busy this past week.
sometimes just thinking that having SIP in-house is so much way better..
but then, being in RWS does not make me regret that much..
at least im beginning to look at the bright side of it..
its just too bad that i can't post anything that im working on in SIP..
due to it being so confidential and that sort of stuffs..
but overall, it has been fun. =]

Anyways, cutting short..
I just miss being in TP alrite..
and also all my frens and the uncles and aunties of the book link, canteen stalls and of course the Cheers dept store... haha
not to forget my lecturers..
and this one of course, having timetables!!
OMG, i miss all that rushing for lessons and having to arrive to classes within the 15 mins grace.. hah!
and also climbing of all that stairs from the first level to he eight coz of that dumb lift which simply cant lift so many ppl and get packed easily..
but most importantly, my frens luh.. so looooonnnng nvr meet them alr..!!!
that includes the TPDE peeps as well..
I missed all that practising and training for dance performances with them..
all that crazy and awesome times..
being to prepare last min for performances as well...
and time has pass by so fast that it has been one month plus
me being workin for RWS..
and also finding time to actually dance..
guess those who are already experienced in this would understand..

And welcome to those new peeps to TPDE aite!
Glad to have them in.
And of course to the existing batch..
Lets make them feel accepted into our community
so that we can enlarge our family happily!
LOL..

thats all for now..
Till then
=]

2009-05-03T18:05:00.007+08:00

Firstly, Venos outing on Labour day was kool..
It was like finally a day off from RWS...
We went to the Glass House Fish & Co. to have our mass dinner..
The food was not bad.. although their 'Best Fish N' Chips in the City' tasted almost the same as the usual one, but i think this one is doper.. lol
Anyways, it has been so long since I met all of them.. Kind of making me miss the FOW/C times..
And it was darn pity I missed this year's one.. and I'm guessing that I wont be able to join the next one..
daaaarrrnnn.. but oh well...
ooo.. and we celebrated Kenneth (Fishy Ken) Bday! haha..
I gotta say Fish N' Co got a unique way of celebrating birthdays.. LOL!
And shy ppl are not encouraged to celebrate their birthdays there coz u have to be darn sporting!
Theres also another table who is celebrating birthday just next to us.. and they are from SP..
they were like trying to compete who is the loudest..
and well, I just had one thing to say.. NEVER compete with TP ppl man! haha..
Coz we are so darn enthu about all these things and loud.. such a wrong move for them to compete with us on such stuffs, knowing that we will be wining on these prospects.. =]
So, after that.. we went to get some beancurd at the Famous Beancurd stall and off to The Cathay to slack around..

And anyways, sorry to the Nexo peeps coz I dont know the date for the night cycling.. lol..
Its like, I know there is one.. but i dont know the date..
So, when Rai told me it was the day before our Venos outing I was darn shocked coz I'm kinda lookin forward to it.. but oh wells.. next time pehaps?

Ooo.. there was also TPDE auditions for both modern and hip-hop..
Modern was on the last wednesday.. and hip-hop was yesterday..
Firstly, modern auditions was not bad..
Noticed quite a number of people who can dance modern really well
even the guys, can see that they really enjoyed it..
I mean, who says guys can't dance modern rite?
Real guys are the one who is not afraid to try something new
and something that is out of their comfort zone and his norms,
at the same time,
Keeping aside and not forgetting of his own genre of dance
that he was first introduced to..
Theres nothing new if wad he can do is only one
coz then he's considered a coward,
not willing to step out of his box and venture on what his body can do..
Some might say dancing modern is too feminine..
I say thats just an excuse for not trying hard and not giving the opportunity for himself to try
Even Ryan can do it with such masculine flavour, swagger, feel and gesture..
so what's the problem with it anyways?
Certainly... this topic is subjective, i know..
But im just leaving this for thoughts to grow from them..

Anyways, modern overall was good.. And I kinda missed dancing it..
Its been awhile.. longer than awhile perhaps..

Moving on...
Hiphop Auditions were great too..
Honestly, this is the first time I danced since GEM 4..
like my body has been confined for like months without moving..
So, I'm freakin happy to be able to 'move' again... LOL..
The ppl who came were generally good, and pretty distinctive..
Ask me about it, coz I'm not gonna post it here..
Overall, I'm just happy with it, coz kinda see quite a number of versatile ppl..
ranging from bboy to modern dancers to popper who can do hip-hop with a bit of essence to it..
Definitely, TPDE peeps totally need to step up..

After the auditions.. came down to Scape for KO nite..
And congrats to Nicole, Raazmy, Andy and Joey for making thru the next round!
I'm happy for y'all.. and definitely the whole TPDE is..
To Ah Lee, Jean, Kevin, Martin, Keiths, Audrey and Jonas..
Don't be so sad or anything.. y'all did a god job! seriously..
I think without you guys, the competition will not be so competitive as last time and y'all definitely make it difficult for the judges to deliberate..
Good job everyone aite.. !! =]
Now I feel like I wanna join it as well.. hah!
If not becuz of this SIP.. make me as though I'm like a serious working adult.. so irritating..
Neways, jiayou for the next round aite! =]

OOooo.. and i seriouly, got something to say and this is the last straw for me..
I hate cabbieeesssss!!!!!!!!
ok... lets just make that be the title of why I'm so pissed off yesterday..
He is like so dumb and smart at the same time..
Ok, it started when Suria, Nicole and I took a cab from TP to Scape..
wait, not even Scape.. to town to be exact...
We told the driver that we wanna go to Scape..
We even explained to him like as if we checked it out from the dictionary or sumthing..
We even gave him nearby landmarks for him to easily locate the building, that it would just leave me to think that only the DUMBEST stupidest taxi driver won't know where the hell this Scape thing is..
And it is so totally not our fault for being not street smart coz obviously we don't know all of these expressway road names, so we just told him took the fastest and quickest way coz we're kinda running late..
So, we assume he knows the way.. and Nicole even suggested another way which appears to be faster with no traffic lights, but at a longer distance..
So we're kinda kool with that..
(This is the part whereby we think that he's kinda dumb..
Wait till the next part whereby he's trying to be smart and that he succeeded to do so..)
It is when we think that the taxi ride is pretty long than usual when we used to cab down from TP to town..
To our shock, he went all the way to Bugis area.. even passed by O School to be exact..
And we were like WTH is with this cabbie..?
Then we actually realized he took the longer route out of the shorter route we told him to..
He even passed the ERP 2 TIMES!!
And this is the part where we think he's smart.. not really smart, but sly..
SUCH AN ASSHOLE..
He even missed the Scape luh.. and even wanna say that he thought it was next to the California Gym there.
so we ended up alighting at the back of Orchard Cineleisure, where we have to walk to the Scape building..
like WTF!.. that is totally against the objective of cabbing to Scape..
and guess wad.. we even paid him $26 for that f**king ride which we know we could pay him 10 bucks lesser..
I swear that I feel like cursing him up and down, left to right while in the cab when we know his motive..
Thnk god for his age, if not I'll be cursing those words as if I'm reading to him in a book!
Freaking irritating.. SERIOUSLY..
and wad more, when we reach there.. theres the freaking queue which started since 5.30pm when the door was supposed to open at 7pm..
It just made me wanna burst out to the fact that I'm hungry and tired as well, that I have to be patient with wads happening around me at that point of time..
It just made me loose the appetite..
So, that explains to most of the ppl why I skipped my meals..
Its just a way for me on how I can keep away from releasing my anger..
Its weird.. but it has been usual for me..

Well, wadever to wadever that happened..
As long as everyone's happy and that they got a place to go in and watch the event..
I'm just so grateful for my patience

So Sunday, figured it has to be a day off for me..
Coz I know next week will be another hell that I have to push through..
So, enjoy this whole day while I still can.. =]

Till then-

2009-04-25T20:12:00.006+08:00

HELLO HELLO..

in future, i think my posts will be done twice a week or maybe..
All coz of this busy life of mine..
So, just bear with it aite.. but then again, i will just wonder like who will really keep up to the posts in my blog.. hah..

Moving on.. life has been pretty much the same..
Its just that theres more pressure and more stuffs that I have to carry and bear my responsibilities on..
Be it SIP or dance or just simply my life in general...
I'm just afraid that the letter B for my name will never stand for wad it is anymore..
Instead it will be B for 'Busy' or somthing..
Other than that, other words will just be out of the point during this time..

Sadly, now everything that I will have to blog will be of the general of all generals..
Coz basically, I dont wanna leak any info out dumbly..
I mean, not that I have leaked any or something.. It is just to make sure..
Its only when I have to, then the post will be so direct that it will just hit you on the face..
But then again, most of the time I will just say it face to face coz blogging about a certain matter will just explain how childish one is and how unprofessional he/she handles the matter..
I mean, I have to agree on this.. if one is brave enough to let the whole world read wad he/she is facing and that wadever one is so unhappy about someone, then why not step up ur courage and bravery to just handle it how mature people do and just do it face to face rite?
Just dont understand some ppl..
Its like silently, U want ppl to know that you are not afraid to face ur problem, but is afraid to face it in reality..
GOSH, for once.. grow up..
To anyone who is reading this, I'm not saying this or referring it on anything or anyone.. Just have a feeling of writing this.. haha.. just got too engrossed with what I'm writing on..

As much as I dont wanna talk about this,
But this is a have to, I must say..
Actually I'm not really fussy about who I'm joining with in competitions..
I'm just happy to join with anyone, as long as he/she has the same goal and mindset as I am..
To be clear, my goal is to have fun working together and have a great experience together..
And also, for everyone to have an equal benefit with a fairshare of limelight for every member..
coz if u say working as a team, the limelight or attention shud be given as a group instead of focusing to an individual...
And also, i dont want the team to be like having an immature motive of having to show/prove oneself that he/she is better than the other guy/girl that you wanna compete with..
Coz clearly, such thing is so not needed coz its a competition.. And more importantly working as a team and having the same goal is the crucial point here, if one still wanna think about his/her own benefit..

Lets not get too serious...
Neways, God job for everyone who participated the Wheelbarrow Challenge aite!
Props to Nelson and Ryle for that awesome 16s of the race!
And also to the performers, awesome job as well.. great expereince of dancing on the tracks aye? haha..

oooo..
and and..
Now then I realized that TPDE is kinda a big group..
I mean comparing from other CCA group in TP is one thing..
But the other main one is due to the studio space that can fit million ants but only 30 dancers comfortably at a time..
This is so so so clear that TP have to built another studio somewhere..
And obviously a bigger one and not of those of a coffin's size..
Just transform that Gym into one of OUR studio luh...
I mean, those ppl who uses the gym is such show-off..
like their main objective of going to the gym is only to show how great their body is instead of working out like real men..
They dont even sweat as much as we dancers sweat in our studio luh..
Freakin gayshits..
Just wait till we maincomms make a petition and ask ALL of the Arts Group to sign in it as well about requesting one more studio using the gym's space..
The gym can just be placed sumwhere else.. like in the swimming pool..

Till then-

2009-04-17T02:48:00.005+08:00

Updates to my blog was kinda lazy for me recently, coz now I have to update 2 blogs at a time alr..
Other than that I am just plain busy, or in fact very busy with the current situation of life that I'm in now..
Well, lets move on to my updates..

First up, 11th April was my birthday!
So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me! lol..
well, nuthing big actually, i'll just treat it as a normal day, like wad is so great for my existence in this world rite..
I gotta say thanks to those who celebrated with me.. I mean, mainly those who went for night-cycling at East Coast that is.. haha.. It was kinda kool, like a unique way of celebrating birthday.. lol! and also thanks to those who got the cake and the wishes.. Greatly appreciated aite! =]

Oh, and the night cycling was awesome! I mean, it was the first one that I've ever been to for the entire 18 years of my life.. but now I'm 19 luh that is.. heh..
We went from East Coast, to like Kallang, town area, Esplanade, and most importantly Marina Barrage! I mean, going to MB was my first time too.. And it is soo kool! I mean with all the infrastructures accompanied by the dimmed lights and the night skies, it is such a nice place to just sit around and be with ur frens while reminiscing those times back then.. or simply just fall asleep on..
But for us, we were like taking photos, laughing our asses off on some acts and jokes and also the disturbances and nuisances..
Well, i definitely remember the petrol stations and the bridge as our landmarks.. and also the feeling of rushing through the construction site while making our way to Marina Barrage..
It was all fun with the right companions.. But I was expecting the whole journey to be more tiring though.. lol!
Looking forward for the next one that is.. =]

Anyways, moving on..
Its kinda iritating coz each day you have something to write about, but u cant coz ur tooo tired..
I mean, talk about mentally drained.. coz every day, my creative juices will just have to be squashed out from the brain till every drop due to this product design for my SIP and the only way I can refill it is by sleeping.. and thats another problem coz i dont really sleep that early as I'm kinda used to sleeping at 1-2am everyday.. and another problem will be to wake up at 5.45am the next morning to get ready for SIP the next day.. pretty much an irritating routine for me aye..

There are also new responsibilities, such as the one I'm in for TPDE.. Well, those who are in shud know my position.. It's pretty much a new role for me to take up, and wad great responsibilities it holds I would say..
Every step you make is seen by everyone of the club, and every move will just make ppl judge u even more.. So, in a way, I think I felt a lil restricted with my actions.. But I'm trying to let me to be myself while carrying out the tasks...
Well, it might seem easy as to speak to a whole lot of people interms of a presentation or while teaching a cheer to a bunch of freshies.. But its definitely a different feel, and a different breeze as to talk in front of ur members as a leader.. especially when u know that at times ur not that good..

One more thing, it is just very questionable as to how fake ppl can be..
I mean, at one point, he can be very nice to u and joke with u and all that sorta stuffs.. but on the other hand, he will start to ignore you and treat u like some hi-bye friend as he found someone better or 'kooler'..
So, izzit like a 'wad-the-fuck' kinda situation? or maybe I'm just in a wrong..
But either way, it doesnt seem to care for me anymore..
I mean, I tried.. but figured that it was kinda waste of my precious limited time..
I just dont know whether ur treating someone as a real fren or just simply using them..

Updates!

2009-04-08T20:47:00.004+08:00

okay okay...
its been awhile since I last updated..
and that line has been so cliche now and then..
but oh wells..

and first up is....
CONCERT!
It was an awesome experience and great job everyone!
Everyone = dancers, audience, Production peeps (for once)..
And most especially to the dancers, not any ordinary dancers but TPDE dancers!..
I think all of us did an awesome job..
I mean without our awesomeness the concert/musical will fail rite?
And of course all the trainings, bruises, blood, sweat, tears and bonding sessions..
All these will be of something that we treasure the most and also an experience that none other have ever felt the same way as the one that TPDE has it and does it..
And not to forget all the misunderstandings and miscommunications..
This double trouble will always have a toll in any relationship and friendship that we have throughout this journey and of course, this will definitely test oneself on how mature he/she handle stuffs and thus, help him/her grow into a better person with a better prospect in life..
Anyways, thank you everyone for making this a success and also an enjoyable process for each other..
Can see that most improved, be it dance wise or acting wise, but theres no limit to further improvements..
So, good job once again yo! =]
I rmbered my SIP mate was like asking me " so, no celebration after ur dance performance (concert) uh?"
I said "the concert itself is the celebration for us.."
and she was shocked..
guess non-dancers don't know how it feels to achieve such great aspects in dance life..
but 'oh wells' to her.. haha
and I'm so definitely gonna miss all of u guys man..
y'all mean a lot to me and thnk y'all for every single thing in the process..
Whuddup y'all.. =]

Next, congrats to those who made it for the Main Committee positions..
And for me, i dunno whether to be happy or sad or wadever feelings that I can feel..
Guess, I'm gonna put my responsibility and commitment to it..
and obviously, sacrifice my FO for next year..
But wadever it is, an organisation is still an organisation..
I will not let myself fall with such heavy responsibilty assigned..
I wil just have to grow from it, learn and improve on it..
And of course, to make TPDE a strong and bonded dance group with an unbeatable organisation team of main comm..
Point to note, everyone is different and I'm not gonna follow any footsteps but of my own..
Like most said to me, dont care wad other ppl say.. coz the overall thing is about me managing the team..
thnks aite.. not gonna let y'all down..

moving on, is my SIP..
The workload is like..
WOW..
I mean, it requires so much creativity and innovation and not to mention, have to have a mindset of a picky customer..
But note somthing, I am definitely not complaining; I'm just overwhelmed with how boring and stressful working adult life can be and will be.. gosh, talking about being so silent while doing the work and no one to talk to except to urself or to sumone in MSN..
well, I'm not blaming my SIP mate coz we dont have anything in common to talk about, guess we have our own vibe on life.. haha..
But focusing on sumthing that we have to work on for like 8.30am till 6pm(except for lunchbreak) is so not me.. I wud just easily lose focus and go surf other website discreetly.. guess, its just not my luck to have a manager sit right behind me.. darn..
Other than that, I'm just greatful to have such a good and friendly working space.. And the people in my dept are ever so nice and welcoming.. even my supervisor is such a great gal.. In short, I'm just blessed to have them..
Guess I'll just have to get used to it for the next 4 months..
I can do it! haha..

So neways, went market survey with my supervisor, Patricia, another employee of the same dept, Trina, and my SIP mate, Valerie..
We went from Orchard Rd, where we visit Taka and Paragon, then to Tanglin Rd to visit Tanglin Mall, Natuzzi and Friven & Co, and lastly to Bugis to visit Bugis Street and Parco Bugis Junction..
And btw, its my first time going thru the stretch of Tanglin Rd where awesome malls and buidlings such as The Forum, Orchard Hotel and Hard Rock Cafe are located..
and seriously, the furnitures in Natuzzi are so so so awesomely dope and classy! I mean, I don't even know that branded names such as Fendi and Versace have their own line of home furnishings.. and the designs, is just so drop dead gorgeous man.. can u even imagine one cushion costed ard 1000 singapore dollars??!!
well, to think of it, whoever buys it is stupid luh.. LOL.. besides the fact that he/she is effing wealthy.. I mean, who wud just buy a cushion for that kinda price man.. at least have a furni or sumthing.. haha..
So, adding to a list of aims I wanna acheive in the future, is to have at least one furni from Fendi..
LOL! trust me, they are so crazily beautiful..

Till then..

TMR'S CONCERT!

2009-04-03T01:05:00.004+08:00

hey peeps..
So yea, as seen from the title..
TMR'S CONCERT!!!!!
so, all the best to everyone who's performing coz i think we'll make the best out of it!
Its gonna be a blast out of the fairytale.. =]

The day is finally here..
Time to strut our stuff and show the audience that we have more than just dance capability..
And also to show that we, TPDE, are versatile yo! we are just full of expressions that will just irritate the ass out of YOU! lol!..
So, no tix for our concert? too bad.. coz u seriously gonna miss it..
haha..

For myself, I sacrificed quite alot for this production..
for instance, my FO.. which I'm gonna miss them for the entire six days..
well, not entirely coz of that.. reason being is that I'm having my SIP at the same time..
and of course, learnt quite a lot from this journey of self discovery thru concert trainings..
saw different sides to ppl.. and been thru kinda quite a number of obstacles..
but through it all, I think our production is gonna be AWESOME..
So, lets do it tmr yo!

Well, gotta go to bed soon..
bye

2009-04-01T01:12:00.003+08:00

Today was the first day of attachment at RWS..
Everything was okay at first... and funny that I didnt really screw up the first day coz usually I will for any other first days of other activities or events..
Helped the retail merchandising dept move from 5th storey to 2nd storey..
Did some admin stuffs..
Then comes to the presentation.. whereby they presented us on our jobscope and all that was expected..
well, all i can say is that, I'm so gonna be darn busy man.. i mean, they're like expecting us to design for them 100+ products that are of their RWS souvenir shop and some other retail outlets.. So, me and Valerie, a coursemate who had the same intern as mine, had to work together for this which due in 2 months time.. gawd..
So, obviously, my memory space is like full and still expanding as I was trying hard to absorb everything that the supervisor had presented coz it is sumwad important for the designing stuff.. most likely to be mentally draining perhaps.. and talk about knowing the history of the famous designers that helped to design the resort such as Michael Graves and Chihuly.. Well, all I can say that these guys are dope.. coz their designs are awesome..

Then, went for concert/musical practice..
Only been able to attend the last full run due to this SIP..
And seriously, I'm just a total wack on stage just now..
I'm just disapppointed with myself..
I've never been so weak till i literally gave up in a dance while fulling out...
damn it luh..
But i think partly is due to my fault though...
If only I would not have skipped my meals, then this annoying gastric wont occur to me and I have more energy to dance.. well, i tot i could make it without lunch and dinner, coz i did that before..
but aside from that, I just felt like crap luh juz now.. worst than crap maybe..
I mean, I'm gonna miss all those clean up sessions and stage blocking juz coz of this SIP..
And seriously, the guilt that I'm feeling now is kinda overbearing..
I just dont wanna disappoint the choreographers.. and importantly not to disappoint myself..
neways, thnks for those who encouraged me and asked about me aite..
I appreciate it.. and those msges that y'all send me..
I will work hard.. we will work hard too in making this concert a blast..

Well, gotta go to bed soon..
wakin up at 5.30am tmr morn for another day of attachment..
til then..

2009-03-29T11:54:00.004+08:00

So, recent updates..
DnD on Friday was kool..
The ppl there all dresed up in different occupations, with myself dressed up as a policeman, and i think they had made a great job for being within the theme.. haha..
Saw other policemen, firemen, ballerinas, dancers, jabawockeez wannabe (lol!), astronaut, investigators, popes, contractors, mechanics, bangla worker wannabe (haha!), chef, surgeon, doctors, fashion designers, artists, hairdressers, equestrians, magicians, japanese wannabes, korean student wannabes.. and even extreme ones like SM, flasher(semi) and Super Mario! lol..
The mascots were great too.. and I think the one as a traffic policewoman is so kool! she looks so modelesque and so plainly dope.. not to forget the artist, she's awesome as well.. and also, Chelsea as the private agent.. so fierce sia.. haha..
The food was not bad too..
Anyways, had to leave halfway as we are performing for them..
And I think our performance was awesome.. lol.. although its a short one..
seriously, we are the Businessmen gone wild for the night.. haha!
Neways, thnks Andreas, Andy, Royston n Tim for the experience of training and performing with you guys man..
And good job to Raaz, Nicole, Ahlee, Jean, Ahfoong and Meiqi for their performance as well..
Pics will be at facebook most probly.. haha..

Saturday.. had fulldress training..
And my costumes are like kind of not helping.. but its a good thing I have this period of time to test it.. thinking of it, it was kinda funny though.. lol
After that, went to the Song&Song shop over at Tampines to look for more costumes.. It was so awesome coz the stuffs there are like factory rejects with extremely minor faults and are sold at a cheap rate of around 5 to 20 bucks... how awesome is that rite? but only some stuffs are dope luh.. and are dance-able that is..
So, managed to get a red hoodie, black sweatpants, and a white zip-on hoodie.. all at 15 bucks.. kool rite? lol..
After that, went back to school to help out with some of the props for our production..
And I think that our props are so dope.. seriously man.. its the awesome dopeshit!.. lol I can dare myself to say that this is the most awesomest props that I ever seen and helped out in any production from any other polys or even our own.. so kool!..
oo.. and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FION!
bimbotic classmate ever..
ur like 19 before me for like 14 days.. haha!
enjoy ur last teen year aite.. =]

ok so, recently.. was kinda feeling a lil emo.. A LIL ONLY..
I'm kinda not looking forward for attachment..
I'm seriously gonna miss alot of ppl.. like my classmates, Venos peeps, Nexo peeps..
and especially TPDE peeps.. coz I'm more closer to them than anyone..
gosh.. I'm gonna miss everyones' habits..
like Raazmy's funny imitations.. Royston's dumb interpersonation of ppl around him and how he always likes to bully Tim.. Andy's stiffness which can be felt although we are a distance apart in studio (haha) and also his help on stuffs.. Tim's dumb stories, scream and laughter.. Andreas' reaction when he was disturbed by Royston.. the S&K couple.. Iris' blur moments.. Frankie's Hong Kong accent.. Joycelyn's kind acts and her pronounciation errors when she say some words wrongly with confidence.. lol.. Joey's bouncy hair and her shortness.. Meichin's air freeze with my pinkie (haha).. Kat's invert trials and her bimbo moments, Steph's, Kevin's and Estee's laughter.. Jean's own pronounciation of words like 'roll' and 'yellow'.. Nicole's and Ahlee's sisterly and funny acts.. Harris' irritating habits, his chi-mat way of doing stuffs and his concern.. RB's laughter with his blushed tomato face, and his every possible way of being kool (lol..) and also his concern.. Hazruls' 'Wad the fuck' and his guidance for breaking, Suria's smallness.. Aty's and Tivona's irritating voices when they say 'da shu badd' (lol!).. and the list can go on and on and on.. coz each and everyone's traits will not be easily forgotten by me..
But most importantly, is that their care and concern for each and everyone in the club is just so strong that the bond is almost difficult to break.. Thats wad makes me miss them..
And now that concert is around the corner, I'm sure gonna miss the training and bonding times we had as after the concert, it is sure gonna be so darn awkward and strange to find that theres no training every single day.. So, I'm gonna spend this last few days of training fruitfully with these ppl..

Who cares if someone is badmouthing our club.. i mean, its obvious that that certain sumone is lacking of these TLC in the first place to be talking shit about us.. talking about remembering the roots..
seriously.. how dare you
It is just so disappointing to see someone u looked up to being so caught up with Pride, Ego and Power..
guess wad, u only looked like someone i know..

So today.. kinda leaving the whole day at home to prepare for tmr's external paper before going off for usual concert training..

Till then.

2009-03-26T03:11:00.003+08:00

Training today was kool..
Had vetting and finally understood the whole rundown of our concert/musical..
One more week and jy to everyone aite..
We can do it, and I know its gonna be a blast!..

Neways, theres a recent mattter being brought up..
But I had to think through as its regarding resposibilty and commitment that will be brought into my life if I decided to take it..
Well, just leave me more time to think so that decisions can be made wisely..

Ooo... and I'm so thankful to the RWS ppl for letting me start my internship one day later, which would be in 31st march..
It seriously helped me lessen my burden and all that clashes I've been facing.. and I thank god so much man..
I think I'm gonna like it there, I mean, despite the fact that the ppl there are always so friendly as they wouldnt fail to smile at me whenver I pass by..
and their working condition is kinda awesome too..
just hope everything's gonna be fine..
and speaking about attachments, I think I'm gonna miss my friends a lot..
I mean, I'm gonna be trapped in Sentosa and within the four walls.. which started me thinking and realising that the life of working adults are kinda boring..
So, I have to chill and have as much fun before I'm in there..

For now, it's kinda obvious that I stopped going for u alr..
It's true and I wanna confess that I liked you before, but I would not go any further..
Due to some reasons and observations made..
Yes, and I'm glad that we can be friends again..
Coz I kinda missed those friendly bonds, jokes and laughter we had before..
But as a good friend, I wanna tell you some stuffs..
And its nothing about the matter between us, but its about you and your current situation..
Talk to you soon.. =]
Take care..

2009-03-25T00:24:00.002+08:00

sorry for the previous post..
it was just wack i know.. but i had to put it down sumwhere coz writing just tires me even more, although i used to do that.. in fact, i still keep the book that i used to write down on wadever stuffs i feel like even if it was 3 years ago..
thnks for the encouragement and support that y'all gave aite.. sometimes, that is sumthing that I lack of although I'm used to being self-encouraged, but its more heart warming when u know others have the belief in u to do ur best..

Neways, finally managed to secure my attachment..
But had to screw up the first day as it clashes with an external exam on the 30th march..
so, probly coming in as half day..
Wad a great way to start of the first day of attachment rite? hah..
And if I'm not wrong, there will also be dance training on that day itself..
So, all the best to me man..

For my parents, I think they are happy for me..
although they dont show it or don't even seem to care about any of my achievements..
i know deep down inside they cared..
But I'm not expecting anything from them..
Just so that I know that what I do is right and for my own good..
Although sometimes, I hope they will show me some love or care for thats the least i could have asked for.. guess i'll just have to be patient.. as i think that one day will come..
I know growing up for me, I'm kinda used for them not to show their love and to not to be dependent in them, basically thats how my self-motivation in life comes about..
i still remembered that day when hazrul touched on the family part when he was talking to the bboys..
it got me teary eyed.. as it got me thinkin about mine..
but wadever it is, i appreciate all the things they do.. and still love them no matter how hard the reality is..

The world is unfair.. that i know..
And no matter how much i dislike it..
I'm kinda glad that such facts existed coz it helps to teach ppl how to learn from their mistakes and not to be complacent.. and also the form of optimism..

Well done and good job if the plan was to break me..
I will just have to say all the best..
and I think my prediction was right when I told Harris about it the other time..
Moving on with life is a must now..

Beware.. self dissing in session

2009-03-24T00:26:00.007+08:00

Its the end...

Mr Brown: Badd is such a pussy, seriously..
Badd: really, i think u are as shitty as the colour..

My self motivation just chose not to work today..
and everything just felt not in place and down the drain..
seriously, i think I'm such a loser..
a sore one that is..
cant even do things right..
in fact my life is just nuthing but filled with clashes..
this and that.. and everything..
wanna do a move but not daring enough..
cant help but to feel demoralized everytime..
tried to like someone but hadnt got the chance..
well, at least thats how i think it is..
sometimes, I'm just sick of giving in to ppl..
always think about others before self..
but at times i did tried thinking about myself first and found it a lil guilty..
such a pussy right? dumbass
sometimes, i dunno whether being smart is a good thing..
ppl might think ur too smart that ur a freak or sumthing.. or ppl think that ur smart but not smart enuff as the things that u say might ended up sounding dumb to sumone coz they are considered on the surface, but actually it requires some deep thinking..
Just when I thought I could make everyone feels happy..
there is still that hidden agenda, behind every questions asked, every smile, every 'it's ok', every 'nevermind', every 'nuthing'...

missing my old happy side..
when everything seems to be so carefree and matters are not put to heart..
it seems to be away on a looong holiday..
almost felt like giving up..
thinking that my ray of hope is fading away..
just fuck it luh..

wadever to me and this post aite..
bye

2009-03-22T22:44:00.004+08:00

Hey...
So, ive been pretty lazy to update my blogg recently..
Caught up with a lot of stuffs.. dealing both physically and mentally..
I just had it and just sick and tired..
I'm just gonna let everything flows and not to bother about anything..
and for myself, I'm just gonna let wadever it is control me.. I dont wanna put my mind into anything alr..
Guess wadever will be, will be..

Helped to do the props for the first two days of making props..
I have to say that painting is kinda fun though..
and all that cutting and drilling... although i only drilled like one hole.. haha
and not to forget abt the discoball structure.. its so awesome.. lol
didnt really helped for the third day.. had to meet up with Nexo for Refresh 2 at East Coast..
Did nuthing much coz when I reached there, the event ended and joined them for dinner at Macs only.. LOL.. so much for being early, until I have to cab down with Raaz to EC..
After that, they went off to play L4D at a nearby LAN shop.. well, obviously i had to give it a pass coz I was so freakin tired due to those nights of not enuff sleep..
Sorry aite.. I've been busy with my dance training and stuffs.. I'll promise to make time for u peeps for the next outings man.. =]
So went home early for the first time like at 8 plus.. but still, I slept quite late..

I just dont know wads wrong with me luh.. I was tired but cant really sleep..
I think theres a lot of stuffs going on in my mind.. I just dont know which to handle first..
There are just question marks around me man..
All those unanswered questions in my mind..
Questions with defined answers and that cannot be guessed or get my way around..
Its just so effing annoying luh..
Ppl may think that I kinda sounded confused and a lil dumb at some time..
But they dunt know wad I'm thinking inside man.. Guess its all up to me..
I think, I rather not blab more in this boring pictureless post..

fyi, i like you..
I think you might not know..
But this feeling comes through clear and honest from my heart..
I know ive been busy but i tried to be by ur side at times..
If only i cud have the opportunity for me to accompany u back home every night although I live quite a distance from u..
so as to understand u better although i've known u for quite a duration..
i kinda missin u alr..

2009-03-17T22:58:00.003+08:00

Ive got it..
Finally, days of sleepless nights for the past week are paid off..
All that extra assignment at the same time dealing with dance training and another factor..
True, it was and has been a gruelling test for me, but who knows I've got it..
Although, there's joy felt within me, but theres still sumthing's not right..
And of course, its good that it's one matter down and 3 more to go..
And I really thanked God for my prayers are answered.. and I really hoped for His support in the long-run and also the matters that I'm dealing concurrently..

Dance training has been okay I guess..
Need to push myself harder for bboy..
I know I'm nowhere near, but I'll just persevere.. and of course, work hard..
I think I'll get used to self-motivation.. hah..

Watched CS with Kat, RB, Liang, Malex and John last night..
Its scary. One word only. and the story line.. a lil far-fetched though..
I wont talk much about it coz i dont wanna picture the image..
Watch it if you wanna know wad I mean..

hmm.. sometimes, i just don't understand..
izzit I'm the one to blame.. or is it I'm just being too ignorant that I don't even bother to observe my surroundings a lil harder..
Sometimes, I don't even know whether to be optimistic or pessimistic.. its like, either or is based on luck.. and basically good or bad is not much of a difference anymore..
At times too, i don't like the fact that time and distance is considered obstacles in my life.. if only transportations work 24/7.. so that I can travel from one end of Spore to another with no worries at like 2 or 3am.. coz cabbies are such sore money suckers.. so not helping in times of recession..
another thing.. understanding people is kinda confusing too.. and I'm sorry if I've been such an idiot or a dumbass..

Just hope that I cud live in the East, or preferrably Tampines area..
I think I'm lousy..

The JAM..

2009-03-15T12:06:00.003+08:00

RF JAM WAS DOPE!
LOL...
so, for now.. can all of those people who have bought their tickets and didnt go for it please run through a wall or sumthing.. goes the same for those who didnt even go for it..
coz that jam worth more than just 15bucks man! It comes with a 15% off all puma stores too.. haha! I mean, other than that, the competition and the action was great in there man.. SERIOUSLY.. all those bboys from around the world came down to Zouk and struttin that stuff that they do.. its just the awesome-est live battles i've seen so far.. or even my entire life..
And now, I would have probly thought that All Area Crew is everyone's favourite.. But then again, big props for all other teams who break their ass off for this competition and making this a super dope and awesome one..
Good job to Hazrul too yo and his teamos..!

hmm, so now, felt myself like some wack shit.. but then again, motivated to do the best for concert and also for learning new moves after that.. So, buuuuuuuccckkk up yo..

Finding costumes later with Nelson and Kat..

Till then..

5,6,7,8.. bam!

2009-03-14T01:08:00.008+08:00

Training today has been mentally draining...
Physically, it's not that tiring coz i barely used my towel..
Basically, just needed to rmb the transitions and changes from one sets of each side to another..
And I think the battle scene has alr made better with the current one.. with most of the loop holes being filled, finally...
One thing for sure, I have yet to find the costume for that scene.. with yellow and lime green as the colour code.. darn.. perhaps this Sunday then..

Anyways, last night was my first time being at Jae's place.. with the studio and the jacuzzi... but didnt went down to the jacuzzi luh.. coz had to go home early, like 11.30pm?..
I gotta say that the place is so dope.. I mean I like their studio.. darn cozy..
And their outdoor chill place is kinda awesome too..
And I can see that Jae is a friendly dude man.. I mean, I can see from his face.. haha
oo, and get to meet Rahim after such a long time for not seeing him since months ago..
I can see that he's happier than before, i mean, thats good for him luh.. he also got to do the stuff he likes to do best.. =]

Moving on.. I'm happy for Kat as she managed to do her inverts for like 3 times today.. Good job yo! =]
And also theres also this one time whereby she did it and stayed longer than our air freezes.. haha.. looks like Nelson seriously owe her a meal for dinner..
ooo.. and I'm gonna get that song which gives us motivation to go up and do a freeze on the beat.. basically, that song just helps us to push ourselves in doing out the freeze that we are kind of hesitant to execute it..
Meichin also finally managed to do her air freeze without my hand neither my pinkie.. lol.. all coz of that song..
So i think with that song, Kat will be expected to do more than just 3 inverts for the following days? haha..

After the training, went down to esplanade underpass with Kat, Hazrul, Jonas and Kevin before meeting up with RB, Harris, Joel and Liang at Marina Square..
Saw lots of dope bboys down there.. like those from around the world.. in fact, before we went down to the underpass, we caught up with these group of Vietnamese breakers who was kinda lost their way to the underpass.. so we brought them there..and they are dope luh, i mean, after watching them freestyling within a cypher.. but their accent was kinda funny though when they started to speak English.. but warn u, they are not to be dissed yo..
well, saw Gonza and even a guy who is known as Taisuke's cousin down there too..
darn, imagine being just side by side to those dope ppl that u watched them doing their thang in youtube..
Its just so freakin awesome man.. U can just feel their vibe or even their dopeness aura.. LOL..
oh yea, and saw this 13 year old kid who can do all that airflares and all with different hand variations..!! but he took 3 years learning that, meaning he started learning it at the age of 10.. which just left me thinking back on why must I be so nerdy during Primary 4.. and not being introduced on such stuff at such a young age.. haha!

So, it is obviously seen as a motivation for me to perform at my best for concert and also in training for other moves that I wanna learn.. oooh, and I'm gonna be watching the RF Jam tmr too.. so, c ya guys who's gonna be there aite.. ;]

oo.. and anyways.. TPDE is gonna have its production on 3rd and 4th April 2009.. It's called Fairy Our Tale: Cinderella.. basically, a unique remix of that fairytale.. so, interested parties please text me or nudge me in MSN (if I'm online that is) so that I can help you make a reservation and get your tickets for this production aite.. tickets are at 15 dollars.. So, hurry and get your tickets now as it's selling out fast alr.. =]

It's great to see that smile on your face..
tiba-tiba, aku rasa keselematanmu sudah menjadi tanggungjawabku..

Ache

2009-03-12T11:20:00.002+08:00

The aches on my body has finally started to take effect.. woohoo!
actually, it has been long existed with blueblacks.. but used to it alr..
And cant complain coz the rest are having aches too...
mine started off with the tensity on the neck when I woke up this morning..
So now, I cant really turn my head to the right as it will be so awesomely acheing.. haha..

Neways, yesterday's modern training was fun..
Learn a nerd dance.. haha..
Its quite interesting.. disgustingly interesting perhaps.. lol..
I like the choreography though.. and Ryan is just simply dope..

And anyways... me and kaiwen have the chance to lift Meiqi!
Actually, she's not that heavy luh.. She think too much only..
People always think that chubby people weigh more coz they look bulky..
but actually its not.. I mean, in proper science term, muscles weigh heavier than fats..
So, meiqi.. ur not heavy ok..
Must trust in us.. like hello, Indie ppl here carrying u.. we got ur back yo!.. =]

Okay, so since everyone is like suffering from bodyaches everywhere..
Take care aite ppl.. just dont end up in hospital can alr.. (touch wood)
and to you,
seriously, take care of urself..
know your body limits aite..
just concerned..

...

2009-03-10T19:32:00.004+08:00

Had interview at RWS just now after my dance training...
And it is so darn troublesome for me to like wear formal with all that big bag and those excessive stuffs hanging around me while making my way to Sentosa for that interview.. in addition to that is the heat of the Sun, it just makes me feel more annoyed while making my way through the journey.. Its a good thing I'm quite optimistic..
So, the interview was fine.. but still had to do one more assignment in order for them to evaluate me further..
One thing for sure, I like the staff over there, they are all so friendly and welcoming..
And its a good thing they didnt asked me anything about their resort, coz I kinda like prepared last minute for it.. and also thnks to Serene for telling me some useful facts that I should know about RWS, although they didnt really touch on that.. lol..
So, for now, I really have to get my creativity cap back on my head while going thru the concert trainings..

Anyways, I cut my hair short.
And now... I'm missing my 'long' hair..
So sad luh.. cannot do the spastic move anymore..
And also with this short hair, I felt as though my confidence level droped coz i dont even dare to take off my cap alr..
And looking back, i realized the only reason why i cut my hair short is just because of this interview.. -.- OMG luh... i know i will just style it so as to make it looked shorter..
but then again, styling it will take like another hour of my life.. haha
aiya, wadever to the hair man.. wad is done, is done.. now I'm waiting (patiently) for it to grow at the desired length again..

neways, dance training.. has been quite a roller coaster..
My plan of versatility is going through quite okay i guess.. but theres still other factors affecting me throughout this journey..
Well, if u ask me, I dont really know coz understanding human minds can be quite confusing recently.. Sometimes people just say that they do it for eternity, but who knows their eternity lasted for only that long.. and guess wad, the next thing u know it has been replaced or they found sumthing/sumone better and thus the meaning of eternity has been misused by these people.. Sometimes, empty promises are made so easily but those of the real value finds it hard to come by..
Wadever it is, I'll just stick to my aim.. and not to let such stuff affect me.. coz in either way, this so called immature matter will affect the relationship we have between people that we are close with and that we care for and also the self-esteem of oneself... That is why giving in is such a preferable method to solve most problems.. of course not all the time, but just have to know and weigh which situation carries more responsibilty, so as to fight and stand for our right... well, go figure if u dont get wad I say..
ps: this is just a reflection, dont disregard this as myself being emo..

oh yea, and speaking of emo...
I liked the songs that was used for concert..
especially those that are moving ones.. like Unbeautiful by Lesley Roy..
darn, this song just reminded myself during the past..
i dunno whether to call them sweet memories or unforgettable past.. but still, it made me reminisce about 'those' times.. I wont say it here luh.. guess wads past is past then.. but for those who wanna know, I'll juz tell u aite.. well, its just too bad that we didnt get to dance to this song.. but then, its okay.. watching my fellow modern dance mates dancing to it is just so heart-warming despite the coldness of the dance studio..

Neways, I'm at the NLB while writing up this post..
Actually, I wanna do the assignment, but then, got my mind too caught up with this post..
I think I better head home soon..
and before, i forget..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANNI aka. SHORTIE!!

till then..

choo choo.. goes the concert train..

2009-03-08T23:47:00.007+08:00

Let me first start of this post with the Nexo chalet..
It was kool man, had a great time and all..
oh yea, there were like 4 chalets going on at the same time within the the proximity.. which include Zetten's, Chelsea's birthday chalet and Reliez's...
But I think Nexo one was more happening.. LOL.. dont mean to be biased but yea, its true..
I mean, we totally rocked the Wii and of course the companion and the people there are all so awesomely kool and stuffs..
okay, so for the first day, i joined them at night after celebrating Raazmy's belated birthday at Iris' condo residential space, which is after the start of our first concert training..
Had my first journey to OCH (Old Changi Hospital)..
Well, to me its a lil freaky... but I'm more concerned to those who can see 'them'..
I mean, I'm sure those who are able to see/sense them are like freakin out inside, but they still have to maintain their composure so that the rest whose there will not freak out as well..
oo.. and I'm a lil pissed off with some of them who just couldnt keep their mouth shut while inside that place..
Well, I kinda heard stuffs too, but keep on telling myself its from the nearby chalets..
then, we ended up sharing our ghostly experiences and all, till I fall asleep.. haha
So, on the second day.. joined them again after the dance training
had my first time playing Wii as well..
well, i dont really know wad the game is called but it was fun..
Its like, a new found indoor sport where u can just shake the consoles like some retarded shit.. lol
and it was so so so awesome man.. props to the creator of Wii.. haha!
We had this drinking game too.. its like a must have in chalet..
but not to worry, coz the one I played is non-alcoholic one.. so, kinda safe..
and it was darn funny! all those rules that were made up thnks to Shah, Zhiyong, and more.. and Jon keeps on being the one who have to double-drink and those ppl who keep on breaking the rules.. lol.. I mean, i also have luh, but not to the extreme.. and Ella is so bimbotic.. haha.. forfeited herself twice for the 'Have you ever' part, Matthew as well..
oh yea, and not to forget about the BBQ as well.. awesome too..

So, the concert training has come to be part of our lives once again..
well, for some, it will be their first that is..
And obviously, every day of its training is just gonna be as draining/tiring/energy-sucking as ever.. And of course, limited time to be spent with oneself, family and relatives..
but its a good thing there's the sundays for us to chill and yeah, chill.. haha and update ourselves..
hmm... okay i think the first few sentences of this para sounded way off, almost to a dozing off kinda situation..
but wad can i do.. every day is the same routine over, over and OVER again.. darn..

okay, lets make this thing more interesting..
so, concert, I'm planning not to stick within my comfort zone..
Therefore, I'm going to test on my versatility...
And thus, I'm doing..
Street Jazz and Breaking for part of the concert..
haha.. no laughing matter okay, this is serious shit..
and of course, during this whole period of training, I felt a lil shitty doing these styles..
Seeing all those people that are experienced in this styles and doing them well are sometimes a bit demoralising to me coz I'm kinda new to them..
Like breaking for example, although, it has been a recent interest for me, seeing them being able to just come out and do their stuff, just comes back to me asking myself what the hell am I thinking man.. I mean, I'm just worried that I would not be able to portray the genre/styles that it was supposed to be portrayed..
I know that I'm not showing these words on my face each and every time there's the rehearsal for these genres/styles, but I have to do it, coz thats what I'm aiming for man.. the versatility of a dancer..and also coz it has been my recent interest..
Well, whatever it is, I'm just gonna tell myself that I can do it, totally..
Although the process is gonna be a hard one, but heck.. this is the path I chose and I want to ace it..
Just like in academics.. The concert is the exams for this case..
So, no matter wad, I had to prove it on stage..
And of course there are the sources of motivation.. like the bboys..
One thing for sure, although i felt demoralized when I see the experienced ppl doing it, they are seen as motivators to me..
it's not that distinctive, but kinda a good way to self-motivate myself..
and of course, there are others too..
So, you know it..

and especially..
you.

speechless..

2009-02-28T02:44:00.005+08:00

I hereby declare that my exams are..
OOOVVVEEERRRRR!!!!!

but somehow, the feeling ain't gettin to me yet, i mean, yea my exams are over.. but theres still something that's on.. maybe i need one more day for the fact to take effect on me.. coz seriously, the studying of papers has reached its climax last night as the worst experienced preparation of paper.. gosh.. but overall, i think the papers were all manageable.. not gonna say much about it..

and finally.. the break where I can repay all my sleeping debts which I had loaned out from the week of studying for exams.. and also to enjoy..

Anyways, a shout out to Kai Juan and Jin Keat...
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!!!

Had the first training for DnD performance.. and thats the first time I moved intensively after these few weeks of my relationship with lecture notes.. After that, went out with the Nexo peeps over at the East Coast for dinner.. darn, I really really wanna go night cycling with them, but then, considering the fact that I have a lot of activities going on the next day, I doubt my energy can last that long, also taking into account on the sleepless nights I had for the past few days..

anyhoos, dance schedule is up to prepare for concert.. I'm just happy to the fact I can finally be able to dance again after this long duration of not doing so.. but another letting down factor is the issue of the clash between FOC/W and the concert itself..
damn it luh.. i just dont like making such decisions.. decisions which really affect myself in the future instead of those minor decisions in life.. i mean, both really means alot to me and also for being in the 2nd year of this poly.. which means wadever it is, must make the proper one..
its up to my management of time and people yet again. i think, I'm just gonna force myself out for both of these events/activities.. Just keep on telling myself about the positive side although I know there are lots of negativity under that pros.. especially those inflicting to my physical ability and generally to myself..

oh, and one more thing.. just heard some stuffs.. I aint gonna disclose it in my blog.. its just between me and you-know-who-you-are.. aiya, dont wanna go into it further.. just think and decide ok.. think about the stuff in the convo.. and I hope you copy and paste it to the rest or sumthing..

just one thing for sure, wad a 'nice' way to end my exams with.. i mean, with all these information about the clash, having to decide and also about the stuff.. seriously, y not make it worst.. everything just testing my limits and boundaries.. just so u readers know how much I cared about these issues
didnt expect it to happen and yeah.. i'm just speechless..

Study week..

2009-02-22T00:10:00.002+08:00

ok.. So.. here is the study week peeps..
and I telll you, I seriously hate this period...
I so so so so so hate it...
Coz, this is the time where all the emoshit feelings will start to haunt me..
I dunno, its like one will feel like a loner coz basically you have to connect with ur books and ur notes and treat them like your new found lover..
And then, when one starts feeling like a loner, obviously he/she will feel sad..
Coz facing the book doesnt really have the word happyness or freedom printed on it..
well.. better stop talking bout it..
i know after this week, the outcome is gonna be great..
atleast, thats what and how I wanna make out of it...
Just have to remind myself that my aim for all of this is to break the cycle..

Anyways.. during this point of time..
Made a few observations on ppl..
I'm just left with confusion..
But whatever it is, I just let time seek its way thru, so that I wont jump into conclusion on stuffs..
Well, actually, I have sumthing to say..
And really had to get it off my chest..
But I'll leave it till the right time comes..

oo.. and after exams, gotta be facing another commitment..
and this time, it sounds soo.. responsibly heavy and tough..
but oh wells, have to get used to this man.. although i know that such things left at the eleventh hour is just draining..
nonetheless, we are going to do it!!
and have I mentioned that the FO clashed with the real day..?
gosh.. guess every bits and pieces of my life is just filled with surprises and unexpectations..
These matters would not fail to make my route through this life as rough sailing as they could possible think of..
but then, a life that is too smooth sailing would be kinda boring dont you think?
like where's the risk and fun out of it rite?
Well, thats just part of it only.. havent seen the big picture yet..

Anyways, too everyone out there who is mugging thru their days away..
ALL THE BEST FOR EXAMS YEA..
just be sad now, as long as u'll know there is sumthing better awaits you in the later part..
=]

2009-02-17T01:57:00.003+08:00

So...

Vday was another day for me.. but still..

managed to go out with some peeps.. =]

Went out with Kevin, Liting, Fion and Estee to catch..

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button!!..

like finally i've got to watch this movie..

and what should I say, the movie is awesomely dope..

Despite the fact that I didnt know Bradd Pitt was acting in it till sumone told me when I'm in the cinema itself, the storyline was touching and as the title says it, curiously enchanting..

it's like, would you rather die as you get older or die as you get younger?

although both ways die a painless death, it affects the people around in different ways..

to me, dieing as you get younger is more heartbreaking and upseting towards the people around who cared..

well, whatever it is, its a good thing none of them who was with me noticed the tear in my eyes..

good job to me for covering it up.. well, i juz cant hold it back at the last part of the movie..

Anyways, moving on..

Thanks for the batch of cookies that Suria and Liting made individually..

the buttered ones was from Suria and the coconut ones with bits of dried cranberries (which Kevin tot it was dried chilli.. lol!) was from Liting..

and both of them are dope yo! haha..

and of course the large cookie from Kevin.. haha

and the chocolate thingy from Serene.. =]

So, we went around Marina Square and thats when Jesccy joined us

and after our lunch.. or was it our dinner.. we went over to SMU..

where we caught up with Suria, Serene and Jasmine Koh who was sessioning..

and guess wad we're doing over there?

yes, nerds you were all rite!

We were....

studying!! hahahaha...

then, went over to Esplanade with Suria and Serene to pass Suria's cookies to Harris and RB who was sessioning there..

ok, I wont talk much bout it..

So thats how I spend my terific Vday.. lol

anyways, went out with family on the whole of Sunday..

and so sorry to fongyung as I cant make it to your birthday celebration..

neways..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YO!!

i knew i wished u on time, its just that its pretty late when i posted it..

So, this whole week...

Its study week...

and I'm obviously going to..

study.. -.-

nuthing else..

but..

study...

gawd.. sounds so boring! darn..

nvm.. only 2 weeks and I'm done with it..

yeap.. must force in the optimism within me..lol

and wadya know.. I havent tried the Left 4 Dead game yet..

HAHAH! its like i barely can find time luh...

thats wad happen when u introduce a game to a non-gamer..lol..

i think, I'm going to try it probly by the end of this week? yeap..

and by that time, the game in my laptop will be completed by harris for like the 100th time? just as I'm gonna start playing wit it for the first time.. haha..

kk.. adios amigos..

L4D..

2009-02-12T01:44:00.003+08:00

so first of all..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REGGAE SAM!!

haha.. i know when i post this it was belated.. but I know I got wish u on the day itself.. =]
live everyday of ur life to the fullest as this is the last teen of your life.. so fast rite?

Anyways... I'm like finally done with all my projects, assignments and reports!!
woohooo..!!!
i know I'm a lil late luh.. but must give me a chance to 'celebrate'
before I....
have to mug again for exams this coming week.. -.-

oh yea, I've just gotten Left 4 Dead from Harris..
and managed to download it to my lappie successfully..
AWESOME.. haha.. but i wonder when i can actually start playing it..
but then, I'm not really a gamer coz I got bored of a game very easily..
So, i think I'm gonna give this a try, let say, sumtime later? yeap
anyways, thanks yo.. =]

hmm.. Gin's class tmr..
COOLIO!!

OMG.. and a double COOLIO for a good news/email that I've received!
Nudge me if u wanna know aite, coz I'm not gonna post it here.. =]
But at the same time I'm kinda worried for it though..

okay, i better start on a lil part on my BCM notes before I'm really a goner on that module..
Nite peeps and study smart.. =]

2009-02-10T01:49:00.005+08:00

first of all... lemme say this to my lil bro...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAHIR! =]
YOU'RE EIGHT!! HAHA..

wish you'll be happy okay? haha.. well, i know you'll always be in one way or another..
hmm.. a lil shoutout for him..
Well, of all the irritating brothers i've met.. i've met you
And of all the sweetest brothers i've met.. i've met you
Well, this eight year old kid have made me almost teary-eyed on some days..
especially the recent one, whereby he is so happy and excited..
just to know that I can be with him for his birthday..
and I've gotta say, I've been neglecting him for soo soo long..
Even my lil sister.. who have been growing since the last time I used to tot that she was juz a P1 girl who doesnt know anything..
And it just amazes me... such a happy kid my bro is.. that he accepted my gift without its wrappers..
Coz personally for me, I felt extremely bad for giving anyone present without wrapping it..
I dunno, it is just lacking on the surprise element i guess? =]
Hope you enjoy your day aite bro?

And after that, off I went to join the TPDE peeps for the CNY visittings..

It was fun and exciting overall.. I mean, hanging out with them is just so happening..

haha..

And not to mention, it was my first time having CNY visittings..

And u know wad.. I brought oranges, Sunkists oranges.. LOL!

Well, I didnt know that they're referring to the mandarin ones..

Oh yea, and not to forget..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY IKA!

and ur fourteen girl! Hope u will go to Oschool for dance lessons soon..

Coz sumhow ur soon is like far-reaching.. HAHA!

hope u like that thing i gave you.. =]

Cheers to the second hippest cuzzin! coz the first one is me! LOL..

gosh, and i forgot to take pic with u.. nvm next time aye..

ooo.. and congrats to The Extra Mile and Ice Cream Cones for landing themselves in the TOP 8 for the Fuyo Interschool..!

GEE-DOUBLE-O-DEE-JAY-OH-BEE, GOOD JOB!

and also to the CCC for being the champs.. =]

Its tooo bad that I missed the whole competition..

darnn..

but its a good thing theres youtube.. =]

anyways, dinner with the Nexo peeps were kewl!..

Its pretty free'n'easy and chillin to be exact.. haha..

Looking forward to the chalet yo! =]

And dance on saturday was awesome too..

Had street jazz by Gin..

Kinda kool haha!

okay.. so currently, had to prepare for the meeting and minutes roleplay tmr..

which is in fact later on..

And also to finally blog about all this happenings coz Ive been falling asleep in an attempt to blog..

sheeeeshh...

And did I mention how free I was after that whole week??

I'm talking about FREEDOM yo!!

haha.. but not too long coz exams ard the corner..

And to everyone out there..

Happy mugging and all the best for exams yo..!! =]

ooo.. and before i sign out...

there's somthing I would like to show you guys... lol!!

For those of y'all who dont understand, this is Joey's reaction when her table was shook by sumone opposite of hers..! HAHA..
Harris told me that she was having this reaction since the unknown person was sitting and shaking the table from the oposite side..
He assumes that Joey didnt know that the guy had left...
So, he plans to be the person who shook the table when he said he was off to the toilet..
At the same time, I'm supposed to be reording her reaction.. LOL!
Anyways, the main thing is that.. look at her reaction!! haha! joey so fierce sey..
LMAO!!
=] no hard feelings ey.. just for laughs only.. =]

Gud nite folks! (-.O)

2009-02-03T00:35:00.003+08:00

omg, u know wad..
today was kinda elated coz..
parts and pieces of my reports are completed!
WOOHOO.. juz gonna wat for the day whereby we can just compile and off they go to the respective pigeon howles..
wait wAIT WAIT!!
shit, I shouldn't have annouce it man.. gawd...
but too bad, I've always made a practice of not to backspace wadever I've typed in this blogger thingy..
heck heck heck...

ok so... the following is juz a reminder to myself..
3rd feb 09> Tuesday(which is tmr) - OrgCom Test
4th feb 09> Wednesday - EAud Test; BCM Report due
5th feb 09> Thursday - BCM test; Lighting&Acoustic test; EAud Report due
6th feb 09> Friday - Lighting&Acoustic Lab Report due
10th feb 09> Tuesday - OrgCom Meeting&Minutes Roleplay

and after that its study weeeeekk whereby I'll be mugging for the 5 freakinly awesome papers that I have to sit for the week after..
howw kool is that aye??
darn!

anyhoos, I was looking back at the photos that i gathered for a collage for my DiC Project that I had submitted, and I had to say that I kinda fell in love with it.. haha!
I almost dont wanna submit it after doing it coz I think I loved it so much that I cant bare to give it away for marking... LOL..
oh man, I hope my teacher returned it back after grading it coz I kinda felt wadever I did, especially for this one.. darn, I knew I should have taken its picture before submitting it.. now I kinda missed it already.. haha, okay, now its beginning to sound real weird..

hmm.. I was checkin up my facebook when I chance upon this question quiz kinda stuff..
Its called 'What My Birthday Means'..
since mine is on the April 11th, it says..

"You are gracious, elegant and prudent. People admire your qualities and some even become jealous of you. You are realistic, flexible and adaptable. You are remarkably kind and moral person. Your Love, You are willing to sacrifice yourself for the one you love. Your lover will always have your gentleness, care and loyalty. You will always be happy to hand around the one you love."

hmm kinda true aye? haha.. well, its up to u guys to judge me luh.. Wont really give a damn to wad ppl think of myself usually.. =]

anyways, meeting up with my classmates tmr in the morn for a swim in TP's one and only swimming pool!
HAHA..! and omg, I cant believe I'm gonna touch the swimming pool water for the second time already!
the first time was during FO though.. but I think tht doesnt count coz we did it illegally at that time..
So.. untechnically, this will be my first time touching the water! woohoo!
LOL..
kk.. gotta off soon now..
adios amigos..

City Alive!!

2009-02-02T01:04:00.007+08:00

OKAY...
finally my Design in Culture project is D-O-N-E!
two down 3 more to go..
and guess wad,
during the process, I got tricked yet again...
About project dateline..
And this time, I dont even expected her to do that to me..
Just disappointed luh.. Didnt know u can be such a _____...
Well, for a second I thought ur a good friend..
But who knows theres a wolf in that sheep's clothing..

Moving on..
although it's belated but..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIVONA!! =]
may you fulfill wadever you want this year aite..

oh.. and City Alive was awesome..
It is literally a street dance kinda thing..
And Futuristix.. y'all did a great job man..
I hafto agree that the results sucks.. but, its their event anyways..
oh.. and congrats to Pink Dollars for being the champion!
Kinda liked their showmanship and their uniqueness! haha..=]
hmm.. and I hafto say this..
I LIKE THE JAPANESE DJ!!
I think she's darn kool luh.. She makes me feel like being a DJ too.. HAHA
Not to mention she's kinda cute too.. =]

OK.. I think I dont really like the clubbing scene..
Coz I find those people who are drunk pretty annoying..
I feel like bashing them up or sumthing.. but its a good thing I was feeling a lil weak and sleepy due to the sleepless night and lack of sleep the past few days coz of project..
Other than that, the music was awesome and there are quite a number of dope dancers and bboys around..
So, I kinda left early.. like ard 1.30am?
ohyea, and I'm surprised to see my distant cousin hangin out with Fadz.. haha..
but not till I realized they were bunkmates in army.. So coincidental rite?

Went off with Joey, MeiChin, Ah Foong, Xiao Pei, Unice, Nelson and Tim..
All of them took cab home except for myself who haf to take the night rider since I'm the only one who stay in Woodlands..
And the bus ride was kinda funny..
so, I fall asleep in the bus..
the next thing I know theres sumone sitting beside me and probly sleeping too coz halfway during the ride, I was woken up by him as he kept on hitting me and resting himself towards me as the bus turns..
so I kinda ignored him and went back to 'sleep'.. lol.. maybe I'm too tired I guess..
Then, when my stop is reaching in about 15 mins time, he taps on me as if he ask me to wake up or sumthing..
At that time, my vision was a lil blurred coz of my contact lenses..
I looked at him and thought that he was my friend as he looked like one of my friends..
Wei Teck, if you're reading this, I'm referring to you.. haha!
So I asked him," How come you're here?"..
He ignored me.. perhaps blasting his music in his earphones..
Then I looked at him closely again, like literally..
And I thought that I couldnt be wrong and confidently think that it was my friend..
Finally when I'm about to alight, I got a closer look at him..
And found out that he's not my friend.. LOL!
I feel so paiseh the moment I alighted the bus.. haha..
Well, I can say that his side view is sumwad similar to my friend's ..
And its a good thing he didnt realize I was talking to him luh previously, or else I will just have to make a new friend.. lol..
But then it kinda makes me wonder how come he knows my stop is nearing.. And still can rest on me summore during the bus ride..
Hmm... freaky night I should say..
So, reached home at about 3 plus morn.. was a good thing the whole house was asleep though by that time..

Neways, went out with Apple, XiuZhen, Jolene, Kah Yuan, Nick Cheong, Yuan Long, Dexter, Raazmy, Koksheng and FungYong just now..
hmm.. and have to say I kinda miss going out with them..
Talked about sum FO stuffs..
And even made an A-Z on FOCW.. lol
and its so freakin LMAO when most of us found out that JY is in Commando..!
HAHA! Koksheng too..
Anyhoo, Lookin forward to meet u guys again yo.. =]

Well, hafto get my head to bed now..
C y'all around..
Peace, Love and No War..

2009-01-30T00:01:00.005+08:00

hmm..
u know wad?
sumtimes these reports and projects just made me feel as though I'm neither here nor there..
I dunno, it juz made me feel so irritated..
its as though it has taken away my life..
then trap me within an hourglass, with the sand dripping on me by every second..
and this is the part where the creativity and intelligence took place in finding out ways how to get out of it.. with the process that determines whether ur escape get an excellent result or not, in other words, an 'A' grade escape route...
freakin bullshit..

Anyways, yesterday watched The Wedding Game with Fion, Qing Ling, Liza and Cheryl..
Its like we skipped all the lectures just for this movie.. haha..
But I think it was okay i guess..
I mean the movie.. kinda perverted.. lol..
but it was nice though.. and not to mention that the main leads are quite bimbotic/himbotic..
just catch the movie and you'll find out aite..

hmm.. tot of going for a swim after I reached home..
So, I went and juz chill around.. and of course swim around..
just as I thought I could be alone for a moment..
and another thing that makes me feel so irritated..
is that weird stuffs juz aint stopping to occur to me..
and this time I won't mention it here.. coz I think its too freakin weird that its kinda rated..
I'm just speechless..
these ppl just have nuthing better to do in their lives..
they just can't mind their own business don't they..
I wish I could just write it down here.. but I dont want too much ppl to know..
aiya.. if you wanna know juz ask/nudge me if u see me around aite..

Hmm..
Was feeling down recently..
One of the reason was.. my closest friend had just lost his father..
Well, my first reaction was like freakin shocked, coz it was kinda unexpected and unbelieveable when he called me and told me about it..
Met him straight away after he called me..
Talked to him about stuffs.. and god, I felt for him man..
Well, its a good thing he managed to put up with it.. his siblings too..
Especially his mom.. trying to stay strong and holding back her tears just to smile at me..
Well, this kinda stuff will still have to face it even if one likes it or not.. People go as time passes..
He told me he didnt cry coz this incident happen so sudden to him..
But I know he's crying on the inside.. Just by the way he speaks I seem to know..
Knew him since Sec 1 and he is like my brother to me.. So, kinda understood him and his actions well..

Stay strong aite Som..
I know its gonna be hard for you to carry all the responsibilites,
but I know you can handle it..
Pray to God and He'll help you..
And I'll pray for the safety of you and your family..
Just don't let this affect you so much k..
Especially your studies.. just do well for it..
Do it for your father, bro..
I'm sure he'll be happy for you..
Just like he did when he know that ur younger sister made it to poly..
Just call me up if you need help or company or anything..
You know I'll be there aite.. Take care bro..

Well, gotta continue with my DiC..
Gud Nite peeps..

2009-01-27T22:13:00.009+08:00

firstly..
wanna wish all of my Chinese friends a...

HAPPY/MERRY/SELAMAT/DEEPA CHINESE NEW YEAR!

woooohooo!
may u be blessed with good health, luck, prosperity and whatever goodstuff there is in this world.. =]
oh yea, like they say... since its the Ox year, may this year filled with a great bullish year,
although we know that we're gonna face heaps of bullshits later on, such as the recession for example..
HAHA..

Well, nuthing much about this day for me..
Coz its just me and my reports/projects for this 2 so called 'holi-days'..
And it just leaves me and the Starbucks with its coffee by the side..
btw, caramel frappe is kinda dope.. the raspberry one too..
And speaking of which, the FMF report has FINALLY BEEN DONE AND OVER WITH!!
it is now safe in the pigoen hole of Mr. Gary Ho's..
And finally I'm over with the Excel shits.. no more figuring out of formulas.. no more looking at balance sheets.. and simply just no more doodling with EXCEL.. =]
but then again, it wasnt that bad after all..
in fact it was fun.. the colouring part that is.. hehe
So now I'm left with...

1) Design in Culture Assignment 2 ( more like a project.. sheesh)
2) Lighting & Acoutic Lab Report
3) Energy Audit Report
4) Business Continuity Management Report
5) Minutes for Org Com

And after all that crap, I haf to...
.
.
.
study for exam...... -.-
GAWD!!
it just left me wondering where's my life has gone to..

and I just realized that these school stuffs just made my poly life zooming fast through time coz I still cant believe the fact that I'm alr in the end of my 2.2 and having attachment next sem! ARGH!!!!
I'm like growing so old!! LOL! okay, i think thats a bit too exaggerating..
I'm just gonna make the most out of these projects/reports process...

ok, I'm juz bored.. haha..
and on a random note.. the songs they play in starbucks are quite relaxing aye..
but too bad i ignored it with my own songs.. LOL!
and rite now, theres this ex-secondary school mate of mine sitting rite in front of me..
I doubt he recognize me luh.. haha..

back to the real world..
kk.. I think i better continue on with my work..
Bye world..

Not gonna disclose whatever that had happened...
Only you would know it yourself...
Bruises fade but the pain remains the same...
Don't ask why coz it's 'nuff said..